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They say I have control over my life, but how? There telling me to get a job (which I been planing on getting) there telling me to go to the Youth Center there telling me to get out and I been trying to get out! I been trying to make plan with friends, I been trying to get a job, I been trying to get out of the house more often! They tell me I should go to Richard's all the time because of "gas price are going up" If they don't want me to go to Richard's because of gas prices then why do they want me to go to the youth center and get a job if i can't drive myself there? They think all I do when I go to Richard's is have sex. THATS ALL THEY THINK I THINK ABOUT! Sex, sex, sex!! I DON'T!! I'm not staying with Richard only for that reason... I love him so much... I wouldn't use him... If I ever did do that I would hate myself for it...He's such a nice, sweet, kind person. I know him better then anyone else. My grandma's keeps judging him just by the way he looks! She doesn't know him like I do... She yells at me just for being close to him! For god sakes! I can't tough him without getting in trouble! I mean yes me and Richard having sex can be a big deal at a point of getting pergent, but shes taking this thing way to ******** far!!! She doesn't even care how I feel!! She makes desicans for me, just agrees with everything the therpest says and so much more! She thinks I'm only doing this to stay with Richard, that he's forcing me into having sex with him, and says she knows that he's gonna leave me if I'm ever pregent. Well we don't know that yet!! She can't just say this and this is gonna happen to me in the near future. She has to ask Emi's mom or anyone's mom if there gonna be there! WTF DOES MY FRIENDS HAVE TO DO WITH RICHARD AND SEX!?!? I'm tired of being treated like I tiny baby! I'm not anymore! My grandma thinks shes prefect that people shoed be prefect! NO ONE IS PERFECT!!!

I'm not perfect.... I'm a human...