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I Shouldn't Have Gone..
Okay, it was my ex-girlfriends party, and she brought her new boyfriend. The stupid thing is...it we broke up...but we both felt like it just wasn't over. She told me that she still loved me and I told her that I felt the same. As time pasted...it's like I got over the fact that she had a boyfriend, because he was just tripping a little bit (words from her herself) He was just getting made at her for nothing... so, I just tried to say "Eff" it. And then at the party her boyfriend was there and they weren't even acting like they liked each other if anything it's like she was trying to get back with me. So...I thought like a retard that I was over the whole thing but the way she was acting towards me just rekindled old flames...and then some...it's like when we were dating it was like I could see myself with her forever...BUT this time it was different. Like at the end of the party we were sitting beside each other, and I was just thinking of like not only the day when I would purpose to her, but I also could just picture myself driving by her house one day and her not being there and then secretly talking to her parents who love me oh so dearly about how I plan on purposing to her. Then when I got home and I finally went to sleep I had a dream of not only talking to her parents about it; but I could also see myself and her on that wedding day and I heard every word of it...it's like...it felt so real...and then I woke up...I don't know what's going to happen...I don't know how to explain what's going on with me.
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