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I am here, still. I live in a place that is full of trials and tribulations and I am the first one to admit that it is a place of my own making. But, I am tired of it now and want to get out of this hole, this well of my own creation and join the world of the living once again. The sad thing is, it is not that easy. I have surrounded myself with people who seem to feed on my sorrow and pain. My kids do it, I have so few friends that it almost seems an embarrassment to count. But my sister, my baby sis, who I have hurt and disappointed so many times in life, she still hasn't given up. She has let me know that until I get my life straightened out she wont be a presence in it any longer. She has said that she thinks my injury is pretty much a symptom of my disease. Yes, Gaia family members, that crushed me, but I am obliged to honor her feelings...any how she sent me a quote from one of her "Hazeldon series" books The passage is dated may 21 ( my birthday ) and it is uncanny how right on th money the passage was. I need to make changes but I don't see where to start...Clarity.. I am praying for this...and strength....to pull off the impossible.
~Namaste~