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I know I am not supposed to even think about this day but what can I do? I was just doing fine yesterday but now I am emotionally unstable. Being back in Brownsville is not doing me any good. Why? Well because I have had so many memories of when me and a certain person became friends and got to know each other. It seems like any main place I go to brings a memory. I mean I do not even know if I should go to Dean Porter Park because it is gonna be heartbreaking to me. My house is also an exception. Aside from that there is the mall, Movies 10, places where we would go eat, downtown Brownsville, basically everything. Sometimes I wish he could come visit because he already knows that I miss him a lot. He really did hurt me but I...he also knows that I want him back. There's nothing for me to hide when I say the truth. Then again I don't really know how long this is going to take. I haven't stopped crying since I got up. These memories will not go away. Everyone tells me to forget about it but how can I? They just don't know how I really feel.