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 Posted: Fri Jul 27, 2007 8:10 pm
She ain't into wine & roses
Beer just makes her turn up her nose
And, she can't stand the thought of sippin' champagne
No Cuervo Gold Margaritas
Just ain't enough good burn in tequila
[♥]
Alright.
Semok inspired me again.
Now I'll have some of the conversations I have with myself on the internet so y'all can read them.
With the convo's I have, I'll have each convo in one post, I'll just separate the parts by color and spaces.
Then if you want to comment on one part, just quote it then delete the rest.
I'll have one post for each convo and just edit it each time I add more. 3nodding
makes it shorter xp
Before you start reading, I'm telling you now....
my conversations get VERY personal, very graphic, and very R-rated.
Be warned, not for children or people with weak hearts xp
[♥] She needs somethin' with a little more edge and a little more pain
She's my little whiskey Girl
She's my little whiskey Girl
My Ragged-on-the-edges girl
Ah, but I like 'em rough
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Posted: Fri Jul 27, 2007 8:13 pm
ZEE MEEZ
okay.
here I'll explain all the different "nikki'"s you'll see.
seeing as I guess theres different ones of me.
depending on my mood and stuff.
I'll tell you they're names and color code them so you can tell xp
So theres "ME" who is just the normal Nikki, who you talk to everyday.
Thats my conscious.
Then theres "MYSELF" who is the crazy, confusing Nikki who makes no sense.
Thats my subconscious.
Then theres "I" who is the guy Nikki.
He takes all my negative emotions and bottles them up.
hes usually really nice though because hes good at hiding them.
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Posted: Sat Jul 28, 2007 8:54 am
Wow. Theres a lot going through my head this morning.
And I'm not even awake yet.
Maybe I should go back to sleep.Ser sure maybe, fer sure not.
Maybe you should just figure all of it out so you don't think anymore.
Its starting to hurt my head.Meh, oh well.
I'll deal.
So how are you?Well, I'm feeling tired, overwhelmed, anxious, stressed, worried, guilty, and a s**t load of other things. How do you think I am?at least you're not horny.
Then again, maybe if you were you'd be less of a chicken s**t.
Probably not, cuz even when you are horny you don't do anything.
You suck.uuum.
okay.
thanks.... do you wanna talk about it?
Maybe it will help sort things out Um.sure.
thanks.
So, Adam.
I really like him.
I can't even stop thinking about him.
His eyes and his smile and his smell and his heartbeat, just everything about him follows me.
I love it because I feel like hes with me, even when hes not.
But well... I feel guilty.
And I feel like I'm letting him down.thats cute.
but why do you feel guilty and like you're letting him down?Well, Adam is a very sexual person.
Its just the way it is.
Hes even told me that it bugs him.
Sometimes he won't even want to be too close to me because he can't "keep his hands to himself" and he doesn't like it because he feels like hes violating me or something.
So anyways... hes a prtety sexual person.
just because of past relationships and stuff.
hes a great guy but like...
I'm a little virgin girl.
I'm "pure" as he calls it, but he likes it.
But he does "stuff" to me.
And I'm always too afraid to do anything back.
Like.. I was so scared the first time he did something to me, but... idk I loved it, no matter how sick that sounds.
And it broguth my closer to him, I feel like I can trust him more.
But I don't understand why I'm so afraid to do stuff back.Its because you're a little virgin girl.
you're unexperienced, and you're afraid you won't be able to please him.
i'm sure just trying would make you feel less guilty, even if you sucked.Maybe thats it...
but if that is...
how do I make it so I'm not so afraid?thats something you'll have to figure out in due time I guess.
anything else bothering you?yeah. but we can talk about that later.
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