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Suffocating
Lack of breathing
Ficticious hands choking me
I try to hold back these tears
But I can't
The more these hands choke
The harder I breathe
The more I fight
The weaker I become
No chance to stand
I always fall
I cannot run
You will not call
You abandon me
After you promised you wouldn't
So now I feel alone
But it's not your fault
I lied to myself
To keep you happy
And for that I am suffering
A pain I have never felt before
I lack the interest to try again
And I lack the courage to try
So maybe it's better that I just sit here
And suffocate
It's not like you want to help me anyway
You'd rather help me die...

Cannot Find Myself In You

This was a mistake,
it's all your fault,
my heart is breaking,
because of you.
Your eyes held secrets,
my head heard lies,
when I saw you then,
with my own eyes.
How you could do this,
is beyond my dreams,
you kissing her lips,
is exactly wha it seems.
So once more,
you have lied to me,
I was so foolsh,
to think you changed.
So summer fades,
into endless fall,
when i last talked to you,
durnig our phone call.
I heard a noise,
in your lonely room,
and managed to ignore it,
because I was angry.
In the paper the next day,
I stumbled across your name,
con fused by what happened,
I took the blame.
In my dreams that night,
I saw your angelice face,
as you explained to me,
why you left this miserable place.
You told me something,
I didn't need to hear,
and it made what happened,
seem oh so clear.
You left this world,
out of the feeling of guilt,
and it wasn't accidental,
that they found you on that bloodstained quilt.
So as I layed me down to rest,
a heavy burden on my chest,
a single tear was all I could cry,
as I whispered my last sweet good-bye.

Chasing away a dream,
fading away like night,
sun setting over the hunter hills,
and I wish you were here to make things right,
but what has happened to what we were,
what will become of us later on in time,
shadows cast upon the walls,
mimicing our movements like a mime,
minutes fade to hours,
hours fade to days,
days fade to months,
and time moves on either way,
letters from me to you,
kept in a secret box,
hidden in your room,
behind a door that locks,
september has approached us,
it's been a year since I've been gone,
I smile down on you,
and watch as you move on,
your heart may never heal,
but you can't just give up,
so for my last wish to you,
I want you to drink from love's cup.

^ I don't have a title for that one. I thought it was kinda lame... sweatdrop

I'm trying to find one of the best one's that I ever written to post... it's my favorite poem ever.
And thanks! ^^ I'm still in the process of improving!

Ooh.. I like 'em.
Kudos on doing something original, instead of ABAB rhymed, four-line-stanza, generic-poems like me! XD


On that note, Abby, I need to start entering contests like that.. >.>

Wowww... I don't think I've even anywhere near that many, much less had any of them published. Very impressive.

So afraid of judgement,
Yet afraid of nothing as well,
How the hell can he hide himself away like that?
He has so many secrets he needs to tell,
Tears he cannot cry,
From eyes that just won't tear,
And a heart so full of holes,
Joy will never fill--Tears he cannot cry,
Though the pressure is so great inside,
Draped in black he is hidden,
And his emotions he will hide--Tears he cannot cry,
So no longer does he feel,
The world around him moving,
Nothing now seems real--Tears he cannot cry,
From eyes so pretty blue,
He managed to cry today,
To show that he had felt,
Pain.
^ Tears He Cannot Cry

Kissing the Demons Out of My Dreams v

I'm so afraid of closing my eyes because of
The things that linger in my dreams, that
Haunt my tormented broken spirit and never
Let me rest or dream peacefully or have a
Pleasant thought, that stop me from being
Happy and grateful, that stop me from seeing
The good things, blurring my mind with evil
thoughts and bad memeories and nightmares as
I attempt to close them to gain new strength
It's all to late that I realize what it is
That is causing all this to happen to me, I
Know that somewhere inside of me that there
Is a door that has been opened, where all of
These bad things were hidden, and the only
Way to chase these demons away is by kissing
Them with light.


I told you my secrets
And let myself bleed
In front of your eyes
I was vulnerable
I spoke the words
I didn't really want to say
But I said them
I was stupid
I let you in
I gave you my heart
Only to have it burned
I was foolish
I wanted so much
I stumbled over my words
And I told you I loved you
I was dumb
I'm suffering with the consequences
I know I'm a failure
And for the consequences for loving you
I was unprepared
^ Consequences for Loving You