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 Posted: Wed Jul 25, 2007 11:13 pm
Ok, so as of late I've been having these horrible dreams of killing people. I'm sure this is nothing but bottled up emotions but...it worries me, you know? These started about Saturday night and happen every night.
Ever sence these started my temper is rather short and I've been getting upset easier. I really don't know why I'm having these dreams. I'm usually not the kind to want to actually harm anyone no matter how bad the tick me off. But ever since those dreams started I've thought about killing and how easy it would be to just off the people you upset me...
This makes me nrealy feel like a monster....it upsets me greatly...and I'm not too sure what to do.
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Posted: Thu Jul 26, 2007 2:27 pm
*hugs*
A part of you is picking up on something it doesn't like (extra stress, something in your environment, personal / family / friend conflicts...), but unless you know the source and deal with it or find some place to positively vent your frustrations, people might have to walk on egg shells to avoid confrontations with you.
But you definately need some de-stressing time. A break from your everyday routine and more time spent in the woods. But if the feelings and thoughts don't settle over the weekend, you may wish to consider the assistance of someone a bit more qualified to deal with such feelings.
good luck
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Posted: Thu Jul 26, 2007 4:52 pm
*hugs*
Thank you, my lady. Your advice is helping as well. I broke down fairly bad tonight and had Rae sit with me for a bit. She told me I should seek help as well if it doesn't stop. There's so much anger built up inside of me at the moment I broke last night and today.
The dream I had last night was the mother of all. It took a lot out of me and made me think of taking my own life when I woke up. In the dream I murdered Rae, my best friend and roommate. I want to break down at this moment thinking of what I did and saw in my dream. This dream could never be made into a movie the violence was so graphic and bloody....I need to stop..I can't think of it anymore for the moment...
I agree with what she had told me. This dream could represent the bottled up feelings I've held for her over the past several months. This dream could mean anything. Hate, desire, yarning, wrath....a lot of things. I've sworn myself to be a protector not a killer. I could never harm her nor do I ever wish to think of it.
I'm starting 3rd shift tonight at my slightly new job. This could give me more time to relax and such. We'll see what happens and I'll keep you updated on my dreams.
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Posted: Mon Jul 30, 2007 7:09 pm
*hugs*
I hope you are ok. Anger is not a nice thing to have to work through and can cause a great deal of loss and hurt if it can't be brought under some control. I'm glad you have Raeden with you support from those around you will help you deal with what ever it is that is causing you so much pain. I hope you find peace. Good luck and be safe.
How long have you been working midnights?
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Posted: Tue Jul 31, 2007 12:39 am
So...I had peaceful dreams for two nights and then only had one of the killing dreams once since I last posted. I'm back to not knowing who I'm killing. Sadly I like this better. I like them to be no-face. I guess it makes me feel less guilty when I wake up. I've been trying to rid myself of my anger, but it's very hard. I have a short temper and I don't let myself vent like I should.
*hugs again*
I've been working nights twice now. It would have been three but due to the heat it made me weak so I had to call in. The nights are better for me. I don't do well during the day. I sleep better in the day though.
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Posted: Sun Aug 05, 2007 5:50 am
Ok so the dreams keep going back and forth. Sometimes I see the person, sometimes I don't. Sometimes I don't have the dream at all..gah! *runs fingers through hair* I can't figure out why I keep having these damn things.
Maybe it is just bottled up feelings/emotions that I refuse to let out...who knows.
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Posted: Tue Aug 07, 2007 10:11 pm
I was wondering if the midnights might be part of the cause, or even just the constant switching back and forth between night and day. That can be stressful on the body. I know when I did midnights I had some funky dreams, like a little vampiric romp *ahem* But they weren't constant like yours are.
But I definately say stress of some type. Anger is a given. Maybe some kind of drastic change taking place that you instigated, but are having a hard time adapting to because you need to let go of some things, but for what ever reason you can't. In order for you to continue with the changes, you need to get rid of some excess baggage using extreme, possibly harsh measures (but does not include physical harm or killing).
I don't know if that is of any use to you.
Take care heart
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Posted: Fri Aug 10, 2007 8:42 pm
Thank you, this actually is of great help to me. To be honest the night shift has helped. I sleep better during the day. I've always been that way really. Haha, I like vampiric romps though lol
I'm sure it's stress involved. The bad part is the one big thing I need to let go..is a very big part of my life that I feel sometimes is slipping from me already. This is also another reason I'm moving next year. This town holds so much heartache for me. I want a new start in a new place.
As for the extreme and harsh measures...I can't think of any that won't cause me more depression. I wish I knew someone here that as very good with crystals and such. Something to help get my mind back on the right course. Either that of maybe take a trip up to Garden of the Gods (a place that's nothing but huge rocks to climb and paths to walk on). We'll see what happens.
Thank you again, I'll keep you updated. heart
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Posted: Sat Aug 11, 2007 8:22 pm
Aw, I'm sorry about your town.
And hope things get better.
What kind of crystal work do you do?
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Posted: Sat Aug 11, 2007 11:54 pm
At the moment I don't do any. I'm looking into more research and see if I can find people in town to help me out.
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Posted: Sun Aug 12, 2007 11:05 pm
Ok well not last night but the night before I had another dream. In it though..I was killing myself. Not suicide..there was two of me. We looked the same and wore the same thing. Neither was dark nor light. It was odd though.....no matter how much we tried to kill each other..we wouldn't just..die. It was odd more than it was scary this time.
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Posted: Sat Aug 18, 2007 8:50 pm
If there is something I can help you with in regards to crystals, let me know biggrin
Life isn't always about light and dark, but finding balance, and I'm hoping that this dream with your 2 selfs is helping you to find some and puts an end to the killing sprees.
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Posted: Tue Aug 21, 2007 9:39 am
I'm trying to learn how to do crystal work more for myself and maybe others after I learn more.
heh balance in my life tends to be a hard thing sometimes.
I've been having a recurring dream ever since I was younger and I had it again last night. I was like in some game-like place in a building. Each level to the building was another obstical I had to go through. This dream is very scary to me because some parts would be like parts to a horror film.
The one part I always remember is being stuck in an elevator that's on fire with some demon snack trying to attack me. There's another one where I see a dead body in a pool and there are orbs in the air that I remember if they're touched they'll explode.
The last part I can remember, I'm crawling up this staircase and I keep feeling someone following me, but no one is there. For some reason this one is nearly the scariest to me. Even in my dream I feel like I'm having a panic attack because of this bad thing following me.
I've had this same dream 5 times now for about three-four years now.
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Posted: Tue Aug 21, 2007 9:29 pm
Cool, do you have any crystals, or are you in the process of getting some?
Balance is not easy to get to, but so long as you don't fall of, you are doing ok smile
Wow you do have some scary sounding dreams. Makes me glad I don't often remember mine. Levels, stairs, or anything else where you go higher up is thought to indicate things like enlightenment, higher dimentions/selves, improvements. Each obstical represents things in your life that prevent you from going further or are slowing you down, such as fear, negative emotions or judgements, self doubts, and so on.
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Posted: Wed Aug 22, 2007 2:08 am
I wish I was lucky as to not remember many of mine. It's rather rare I have a good dream.The only ones that I've had that are good are the ones I think that might be a past life.
Those are very good points you broughtup. Though that always seems the odd part because the higher I go, nearly the worse I seem to feel. I think that's why it's so scary to me is because it feels like I can't outrun whatever is making me be in that area.
Also I am in the process of getting crystals. At the moment I only have one that is on a nacklace.
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