Atryom
Aiden stood at his girlfriend's grave, and fought against the anxious turning in his stomach, willing himself to not vomit. Three years ago, his girlfriend Adara had taken the coward’s exit, using their car and their garage to asphyxiate her life away. And, now, Aiden was holding on by bloodied fingernails. But, he wasn't contemplating suicide. Responsibility kept those thoughts at bay. What tormented his soul, he couldn’t put a finger on.
His palms were sweaty, heart racing. The mid summer air was filled with dense humidity, making it almost impossible for him to suck enough oxygen into his struggling lungs. An anxiety attack, his head tormented by circumstances beyond his understanding.
Suicide was a permanent solution to a temporary problem, a mental illness. Aiden didn’t want to tell anyone that there was no mystery to be solved regarding Adara’s death. External factors did not force his girlfriend to commit suicide. It was an internal factor, the sickness in his girlfriend’s head. It was like a disease, it had affected him. But in a totally different way.
Aiden was dismayed that dusk was gathering. To him, dusk represented death, the death of day, the time when he couldn’t prevent himself from reflecting on bygone events and gloomily conclude that life was just a meaningless cycle of monotony followed by eternal nothingness. He couldn’t turn the tide and . . . and what? What did he want to do? He couldn’t figure it out. But, dusk taunted him, drowned him in its death.
Aiden was dismayed that dusk was gathering. To him, dusk represented death, the death of day, the time when he couldn’t prevent himself from reflecting on bygone events and gloomily conclude that life was just a meaningless cycle of monotony followed by eternal nothingness. He couldn’t turn the tide and . . . and what? What did he want to do? He couldn’t figure it out. But, dusk taunted him, drowned him in its death.
Aiden didn’t believe in God or any of that eternal crap. When his only love snuffed out her life, that was her finality, it was his as well. Weak people needed God, used Him as a crutch to explain away their misery instead of just sucking it up and forging ahead. Aiden’s beliefs caused him much anxiety and sleepless nights, worried about dying, but he couldn’t stop the tide from turning – bloodied fingernails or not.
His palms were sweaty, heart racing. The mid summer air was filled with dense humidity, making it almost impossible for him to suck enough oxygen into his struggling lungs. An anxiety attack, his head tormented by circumstances beyond his understanding.
Suicide was a permanent solution to a temporary problem, a mental illness. Aiden didn’t want to tell anyone that there was no mystery to be solved regarding Adara’s death. External factors did not force his girlfriend to commit suicide. It was an internal factor, the sickness in his girlfriend’s head. It was like a disease, it had affected him. But in a totally different way.
Aiden was dismayed that dusk was gathering. To him, dusk represented death, the death of day, the time when he couldn’t prevent himself from reflecting on bygone events and gloomily conclude that life was just a meaningless cycle of monotony followed by eternal nothingness. He couldn’t turn the tide and . . . and what? What did he want to do? He couldn’t figure it out. But, dusk taunted him, drowned him in its death.
Aiden was dismayed that dusk was gathering. To him, dusk represented death, the death of day, the time when he couldn’t prevent himself from reflecting on bygone events and gloomily conclude that life was just a meaningless cycle of monotony followed by eternal nothingness. He couldn’t turn the tide and . . . and what? What did he want to do? He couldn’t figure it out. But, dusk taunted him, drowned him in its death.
Aiden didn’t believe in God or any of that eternal crap. When his only love snuffed out her life, that was her finality, it was his as well. Weak people needed God, used Him as a crutch to explain away their misery instead of just sucking it up and forging ahead. Aiden’s beliefs caused him much anxiety and sleepless nights, worried about dying, but he couldn’t stop the tide from turning – bloodied fingernails or not.
So, thats like my first attempt at writing an introduction for my avatar. Its supposed to be like a vampire book thing, hence the funky clothing.
Tell me what you think!
