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I'm.. just having the crappiest of crappiest days ><; I should be used to it but I had such a lovely day yesterday .-.;

Basically I'm 18 and my parents are still trying to control me.. and they don't like the fact I'm growing up so my dad yells at me almost everyday until I cry or I'm to the point of crying. He compares me to my siblings.. and I'm -nothing- like them. He also tells me I'm not good enough and I never will be. Let me explain why:

Jason - A balding type 2 bipolar schizophrenic whose life revolves around WoW and animal porn of every fashion, and hasn't had a girlfriend in almost a decade. He is 28 and living in a "halfway house" with other freaks like him, and can't hold a job for more than 2 months, and is now on permanent disability, getting a check every month 'cuz of his bipolar schizophrenia. He is also a high school dropout when he had 2 credits left to graduate.

James - A 24-year old redneck claiming to be a gangster listening to white pride music, who has been to jail more times than I can count on my hands AND toes. He suddenly becomes a saint in the eyes of my parents when he accidentally knocks up one of his best friends one night at a drunken party and ends up having a child with her, my niece, Alison. He is also a drug dealer to most people in the general area that I live in, including my parents, uncle, and my cousins.

Athena - My 29-year old sister who has 3 kids that were all taken away from her for numerous reasons, and is pregnant with her 4th child (from a third guy), despite having a recent series of miscarriages. She sleeps with anyone she feels like and flirts with anyone that looks at her, wears skimpy clothing and parties like she's 18 again, and has been partying since she was about 14, and hasn't stopped since. She smokes -and- drinks while she's pregnant, as if there's nothing wrong with it.

._.; Those are my b*****d siblings I hate so much, and my parents compare me to them, when I have never gotten into trouble, and I don't sleep around, and I'm the only one who is holding a job, and going to college, and trying to better myself..

And SOMEHOW that isn't good enough for my parents! My mom calls me fat everytime she sees me and my dad always compares me to my siblings.. I know that someone is gonna say "Don't listen to your parents" and that stuff..

But I can't -not- listen to them. I'm probably gonna move out within a year or so 'cuz I'm so goddamn sick of the way my parents treat me. The only reason they yell at me is because none of my other siblings are within yelling range, so they think they have the right to treat me however they want. It's like they're trying to prevent me from doing anything wrong so they try to keep me in this little bubble of theirs so I can do nothing except go to work and basically give them all my money - -;

And there you have it. I'm basically feeling so incredibly miserable because I'm sick of the hold they have on me. And I've always been obedient.. It's hard to break out of my ways.

So..

Can someone cheer me up?

Can someone give me advice?

Can anyone do both? T-T

P.S. Sorry if this post is so long.. I started typing and just.. didn't stop ._.;;

T^T Thank you. That uber cheered me up ;-;

My boyfriend is probably the only one being there for me. My parents keep pushing me to stay in college and that's about it. They aren't supporting me financially with college, I'm doing that myself, and they either criticize me to work harder or I'm not doing a good enough job ._.;

I'm gonna be so happy when I'm away from them ><; I'll tell them to piss off and the next time they wanna yell at someone, yell at each other and hopefully they'll see how it feels to be treated like s**t >.o;

Cute X3!

And I am getting out more often. My bf and I go out almost every night... Whether it's just hanging out at Denny's 'till 4am playing card games or at the arcade, or whatever..

We're out alot, because he understands what crap my parents put me through.

I just hate the fact that I can't even defend myself, either! Anytime I try to talk back to my dad and defend myself he just spits it back in my face, belittles me more, yells at me for THAT much longer, then leaves - -;

With all due respect, being with your family is not a good choice right now. You could avoid them until you move out, and there's be nothing wrong with that.

Throw yourself into your studies, is my best advice. It's a distraction, and a promise to yourself that you can rise above all the crap happening in your life.

That said,
don't listen to your parents.

Mike is a timid insecure girl.

Well, the only advice I can give is the same my psychiatrist gave me... move out. Like it's the easiest thing to just pick up and go. Especially in Cali. >_>'

I understand though. I don't like to talk about the issues I have with my family, but I can totally relate.

Well... for something like this... there's one thing that always cheers me up.

BAD CATS. (And Alice Cooper but that doesn't always apply to everyone. ninja )

My parents compare me to my sister all the time. But my sister is very sucessful so other people think that I will be a genius like her. I am not a genius (I can barely pass math). So when I'm not "perfect" my parents yell at me to improve my grades. Eventually my parents gave up so now I am a free woman. Don't worry. Time moves on and things will probably get better. 3nodding