Hello everyone. I just joined the guild yesterday, so I don't know any of you yet. For that reason, I feel kind of odd doing what I am. But here goes. Deep breath.
I have no close friends. I have no one I can turn to that I trust, that I can talk to about my problems. I have one person and I'm afraid I just lost him.
I've been in a rocky long distance relationship for almost five months with a guy named Johnny. He's become everything to me. He's my best friend, my confidant, my everything. I believe that I love him. He knows me better than anyone does, or ever has.
He's been busy the past few weeks and hasn't been able to talk with me as much as he used to. Today he sent me a message for the first time in days which shed new light on what he's been going through.
I don't want any of what I say getting out, because I have his trust, and that was no easy accomplishment. I don't know who you'd tell, but just keep it in the thread, ok? I feel bad enough posting, but I need to tell someone.
His parents are going to get divorced. It's horrible for him. I've never been close to a divorce, so I feel inadequate to help him. I told him that I'll always be here to listen if he needs someone to listen. That's the best I can do, I think.
He told me he'll be talking with me even less, because he has to be a support for his younger siblings, and deal with his own feelings. I understand that.
He also said that he could use my friendship, but he's "in no position to be in an actual relationship at this point".
I don't know if that means he broke up with me, or not.
I told him not to worry about me, that I care about him and will always be his friend.
He hasn't replied, and I have no idea when he'll have the time or presence of mind to do so.
The more I think about it, the more sad I become. For Johnny, for his family, and even for me a little bit. I don't want to lose my boyfriend, but I think I already did.
Sorry for the massive wall of text.
So if you can make sense of any of that, I guess I just want some comfort, some insight as to if I said the right things, some advice about what I can do or say to him, and your thoughts on if I've been dumped or not.
Thanks.
I have no close friends. I have no one I can turn to that I trust, that I can talk to about my problems. I have one person and I'm afraid I just lost him.
I've been in a rocky long distance relationship for almost five months with a guy named Johnny. He's become everything to me. He's my best friend, my confidant, my everything. I believe that I love him. He knows me better than anyone does, or ever has.
He's been busy the past few weeks and hasn't been able to talk with me as much as he used to. Today he sent me a message for the first time in days which shed new light on what he's been going through.
I don't want any of what I say getting out, because I have his trust, and that was no easy accomplishment. I don't know who you'd tell, but just keep it in the thread, ok? I feel bad enough posting, but I need to tell someone.
His parents are going to get divorced. It's horrible for him. I've never been close to a divorce, so I feel inadequate to help him. I told him that I'll always be here to listen if he needs someone to listen. That's the best I can do, I think.
He told me he'll be talking with me even less, because he has to be a support for his younger siblings, and deal with his own feelings. I understand that.
He also said that he could use my friendship, but he's "in no position to be in an actual relationship at this point".
I don't know if that means he broke up with me, or not.
I told him not to worry about me, that I care about him and will always be his friend.
He hasn't replied, and I have no idea when he'll have the time or presence of mind to do so.
The more I think about it, the more sad I become. For Johnny, for his family, and even for me a little bit. I don't want to lose my boyfriend, but I think I already did.
Sorry for the massive wall of text.
So if you can make sense of any of that, I guess I just want some comfort, some insight as to if I said the right things, some advice about what I can do or say to him, and your thoughts on if I've been dumped or not.
Thanks.
