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I've yet to come out to everyone, but the hardest part for me was recently telling my best friend. He got all pissed because he thought the only reasons I invited him to sleepovers was to get inside his pants. Then, he went on this rant (using the word "f**" billions of times) and stormed off. We aren't on speaking terms right now.

Anywho, what was the worst part of your coming out?

I must say its the aftermath.. I'm going through it now. I basically told my parents where I am in this.. several times, and they tell me how they wish for me to change because they know its 'wrong' and they're freaking out how I considered moving out because of whats happening, it'll be better for me and them, they're taking it pretty seriously, as if I'm going to move out any second now. So yeah, we discussed it, and I thought it was over, but my mom seems to be going back again and again, rationalizing.

And honestly I'm confused right now.. especially because my mom was like "Just don't lie to us anymore, just tell us everything, because when you lie you know you're doing a wrong thing and something we won't approve. Tell us everything, so we can guide you to who you want to be."
It really gets to me because I don't want to lie.. and they really haven't said/done anything specific to say they'll do anything wrong. Yet they call me everytime after I get out of school.. treat me to all sorts of things, and well, they're getting so involved in my life, and I feel trapped. Am I supposed to have this close of a relationship with my parents right now? Its like,, I feel insecure about being with them, because its like they just want to involve themselves to really.. well, change me.
I really don't know, they say I can see whoever I want, yet go on about how I should stay home and be with my family, and my mom was even saying she's sick.. "I'm sick.. don't go out to play DDR with Mike tomorrow, since I need you here at home" and I'm like uhh.. "DDR isn't till Thursday, so I can be here tomorrow." and she's like "Don't go on Thursday then, I really don't feel good" and I'm like Uhh >__>'
Then I told her I'm going to the library, and she has my dad and her go out also.. to Walmart and to the YMCA which are all close to the library, and I'm like.. okey. And the next day she doesn't even stay home! She goes to work also..
So yeah for sure I feel trapped by their rejection, I try to move on, and I somewhat do, but like I said in the beginning, my mom just brought everything up again. And they're close involvement in my life is frightening me.. well its making me insecure, of what? I have no idea.. really, maybe its cuz I'm scared they really are trying to control me in some way?
I really don't know what they're doing... I want to go out right now, but I can't.. because they'll know (its weird to say this) 'something is wrong' and they'll restrict me more.. I know and they say.. that its cuz they care for me, but do I really need they're help right now? its not really what I want.. I feel as if I don't want to be part of this.. like my parents are trying to change something that is already there.. like fixing a wall of a house thats gonna be demolished or something.

And I think I've talked too much >.> I'm sorry, but I needed to sorta just write that down, for my own benefit and you guys, if you have parents that happen to be like mine o.o'' Well writing it down seems to help me sort my thoughts. Sorry again if its too long sweatdrop

the hardist part of coming out for me it was religon. every time i kissed a guy i thought to myself, god i watching me sin right now. so i guess I wasnt afrade of what people thought. i was afrade of what god thought.

Vague: There's a difference between laziness and just plain nonsense. Make an effort, so that I don't have to think up a punishment.
Is English your second or third language, btw?
hardest[ for goodness sake it's in the damn topic title!]
religion[ not THAT important to you, I guess]
is[ seriously, who messes up "is"?]
afraid
and capitalize God, if you believe in that sort of thing.

For me it wasn't so bad with my Mother, she already knew. It was my grandparents, who are like.. everything to me, that was the problem. I was terrified that they'd disown me, and I'd have nowhere to go when I turned 18 and finally moved out of my mother's house. (we don't get along) They didn't, even though we didn't talk for a couple of months, and it's all good now. Of course, they still try to control me. They think that if I meet the right guy, I'll totally lose interest in girls. It's kind of silly, but we don't discuss it.

With me right now, neither of my parents, know. My mom has her suspiciouns (Spelt wrong sad ) and so does her fiancè, but my dad (of whom I live with) is none the wiser, ah the smokescreen of denail, stupid homophobic Fooker can't see beyond his own hatred of the people that his son is a part of. And well. there is nothing I really can do. I want to tell my mom, cause she says she'll accept me no matter, but it's just hard caus eI'm just still so confused with life. and my dad, I couldn't tell him, with his strong homophobia, I would be written out of his will so fast, he threatens me with it so fast, and I do want a piece of the land that he's gonna sell for near 2 million... I like the thoughs of having 2 mill... life would be so much easyer...

I have only told my close friends, who I can trust. And if I think one of my not-so-close friends wouldn't respond well, I either wait until I know them better, or I just don't tell them. I'm not hiding it; I mean, if they asked, I'd tell them the truth. But it rarely comes up, so they stay blissfully ignorant.

Close, just get rid of the u. The accent in fiancé goes the other way.

LEGEND!!!

What are you doing wearing similar clothes to mine!

Grrr.

Good to see you again! *glomp*

EDIT: I changed so you don't have to.