This is me
Lock me inside, tell me I'm wrong for this feeling. My 16 years have gone by without so much hurt as this. I was lively, someone everyone loved to talk to but then time changed and my world collapsed. I wish I could take it back, come back to you, but my world had been destroyed and yours with it. I'm sorry, I loved you all, but my time had come and I had to say good bye. My names changed. From Amber to Yashi to Carchuluin to Feantari, but the face is the same, the heart and soul bruised. Everything had changed with my disappearance and I got on my knees and prayed that things would be okay, that our world would return to normal, but then here came the curve balls and I couldn't catch them. I'm sorry I ran, I'm sorry I said those words, take me back, please. No, sore wounds are still open and I can never return. Good bye.
Love meA thousand pieces broken, like sand they fall through my fingers. You told me you loved me but I no longer see it, you've left me be. You say you're not right for me, not the one I should love but it's too late. I've fallen hard for you and now that you've left, I can see my tears as they slide down to my numb body. I've no more love, no more trust. I loved you and I know you loved me, but it's the distance that broke us and I curse it like time.
Suicide
Time is at a stand still.
I ride just for the thrill.
I need time to kill.
If you dont' like it, then give me the bill.
A love that has grown cold until
pop, there goes another pill.
My Decree
Crawl with me, see how my life is a misery. Cry with me, watch me flee. Why must you torture me so as my tears flow. Blood trickles down my worn face, get me out of this wretched place.
Why do you try to kill me!? Why try!? I'm immortal man so stop playing with me. My heart used to beat for you, no more! So leave me be and let me sign my decree.
I've watched you from afar, behind this cage of steel bar. Then I freed myself according to my own bayleff. Try me, you'll see, for you, it wasn't meant to be.
Why do you try to kill me!? Why try!? I'm immortal man so stop playing with me! My heart used to beat for you, no more! So leave me be and let me sign my decree, leave me be! No more, no more! Just let me be.
Night's secrets
I never asked for this so called gift, I never intended for this kind of end. No. Not an end, but a completely new beginning. A new start from the life I once carelessly lived. I was to wander the Earth, an empty shell as I watch other�s lives pass by my ever seeing eyes. I was alone in the world and could never truly love another. I feared commitment since this cruelty was pressed so viciously upon me.
I was now a creature of the night and my phanthom for the human flesh would plague me until the day my ashes littered the barren ground. I could never again be complete. I would always be half now. Half dead, half alive. Half human, half�. monster.
I watched from the shadows as people, normal people, walked by. They were living their lives, unaware of what laid in the shrouding blackness. People like myself lie in wait, hoping that a poor soul might come to us so that we may quench our gluttonous thirsts.
Now I walked the night streets casually, blending in with the crowd. I knew others of my kind lie in wait, blending in as well. They were more patient than I, they knew the dangers. I shrugged off the feeling of hazard and went at my own, wild instincts.
My loveI've found my love, my heart has gone to them. I wish I could express my lov ein any other way, but my mind has been spent. I think about them all the time, my heart grows light. A kiss is stolen and it's all over. A sweet embrace, no more chance. I love them the most and they love me back, ah this is the sweet life.
my bosom
douth cannot hurt me so as thee hath done. My bosom flies on fairy feet and my eyes hath befallen another, I no love for the sake of thee dead. Thee is dead to thyself. My bosom aches with that of a fire so deep that I may distain myself and cast thee to the sea. Thy eyes search thy land and behold not for thy blind content hath not won thou love. Thee flees from thou love and leaves thee to mourn a love not returned. Hate me or cast me down, I shan't flee from thee. My bosom craves thee yet thee craves not. My head lowers to thou shame and my bosom beats no more for I am without thy love. Thou has gone and I see that. Thy shall lie in wait until thou hath love of thee.
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