I might be leaving though...
Not the guild... I am staying in the guild because you are all (the ones I talked to randomly anyway in threads) are all great people.
And especially Xumbra and Mikusagi, sorry I picked those two but I have to mention Xumbra for accepting me into the guild and reading my entire entry request and because Mikusagi gave me a heart. (what hearts make me smile when given to me...>.>)
Anyway... I am having troubles with my emotions right now, as you could say, and am not feeling like getting on Gaia is helping much since the problem is my ex who is on Gaia. I am trying to forget about her even though I love her with all of my heart because I fear she has moved on. So I may be taking a few days to about a month, like I did previously, to try to forget her. Xumbra said in another thread.
Xumbra
I don't think it's healthy to keep your emotions bottled up inside. You'd probably have something to set you off, and then you'd explode, and that wouldn't be good. That's what the guild is for, that's what we're all here for, to help, suggest, and just be your friend.
So... Taking her advice... I am letting out my emotions... But not to a person... To the void that exists in my room. To my paper.... My poems... And maybe try drawing again or going back to practicing guitar or trying to write another song...
Yes... You guys are here to help... But... The only thing I have been told about my issue is to either flat out tell her, or to forget her. I told her before..... But she told me it was just love for a friend she felt towards me... But she told my friend she still loved me before I told her how I felt.... Things she does makes me think that she still likes me more than a friend... But at times I doubt it... So.... Time is the only thing I can see that fits here to heal this wound.
To those that read this ramble... Thank you...
To those that talk to me about it...
You are great people...
To those that ignore me and this post...
At least you aren't being rude to me so it's all good.
