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I would care! WE ALL WOULD CARE! DON'T YOU DARE DO ANYTHING STUPID!

Just because I don't know who you are doesn't mean I don't care...

Tell your parents what you have told us. Even if it seems like they wont listen you have to tell them. Only selfish people take their own lives, they dont care about the effects their death will have on their friends and family.

Don't be a coward and say all that. Everyone has been at this point in life but that doesn't mean all of them have given up. Its hell living in this cruel world with ******** up people but that doesn't mean MCR are going to save you every time like super heroes. You have to help yourself and be stronger on your own instead of relying on them all the time. They will not be around forever and they have said many people in many situations but they can't save people all the time. I've been through as much as you and it hurts to see people with different problems. I have to sit in History class and watch a young man my age cry and struggle as we watch 9/11 because he is from the middle-east and had to watch his own cousin die in front of him when they tried to visit the holy land and know has to watch his people die on the t.v. I have to babysit for 2 kids who have lost their father and worst of all the girl who I have babysat for has lost 2 fathers and was sexually molested when she was a baby and she doesn’t even know. Her mother doesn’t want her to know since it could cause her mental problems. Her mother struggles but she is still living after loosing a husband and her daughter’s father and not even being married to him but her daughter doesn’t even know that. Her mother is dating a wonderful man that is trying to fit in the family as a father and a friend but having to live with the fact that her little boy cries since his mother isn’t around when I babysit. I love those kids and they love me but it hurts knowing more than they know about their own lives. I have too lived through hell and suffering with the after affects about being isolated when I was younger and having rocks thrown at me and being pushed around. Everyone pitied me, even the teachers at my school. Being sexually molested also and having no information on what happened to me but my parents know everything. All I know is that he lost his eye being brought down by the swat team and being charged with the third level of sexual harassment. Having guns pointed at me and at the age of 9 having a little girl cry to me saying her mother wants to kill her and herself to escape her father. I couldn’t do anything and I feel powerless to stop that. I had no real friends and the ones who called me their friends always hurt me and messed with my brain. Now that I grow older I get sexual advancements from my brother and other boys. MCR weren’t there when all this happened but I am still alive and standing. They’re there now but only with small things. I thought of suicide every single day of my life knowing all of this and what they meant. You could be in much worse conditions now. I had no one to rely on and being bullied and pitied growing up. I lost so many things that I didn’t even know I had and I can’t imagine what the young man in my history class is going through or the kids I babysit. All I know is that I have been through so much in my younger years I don’t look back on them as happy memories. I don’t even trust my own family anymore. I care if you would die, not because you make great fanfics, not because you read mine, not because you’re a fellow MCRmy member, but as a hurting soul like mine. I don’t care if I don’t know you but through your posts in my fanfiction I think you are a wonderful person. Please don’t kill yourself.

....stop crying about it and sort it the ******** out. I'm sorry but honey you've survived twice so you know your strong stop whimpering like a beaten dog, I know what its like to feel like ******** worthless s**t. Hell most the people in this guild do. You dad dosn't take you out? Well two of my best mates don't see there dad and havn't for 11 years why? Because he hates them the one girl was molested by her father when she was 5 and she is the most upbeat kind person I know she is the girl that held me and listened to my problems and never once moaned about her own. Even though her dad wont even pay child support to her but will pay it too her half brothers and sisters when there not even his kids. One of my other best friends is in foster care because her mom ran off and her dad didn't give a ********. Your mom is getting drunk, so what my mom ditched me on christmas eve to go out and get ******** rat arsed with her boyfriend and I've seen her try and kill herself. Everyone has problems but they don't define your life its what you do to stop them. There are billions of people in this world and about 2/3 are more ******** up then you. I know its hard sugar but stop cowaring stop thinking 'well if i just do this it'll go away' because it dosn't work like that. Your barly more then a kid you have so much going for you. You could be anything and you want to throw it all away. And so what we don't know you I know for a fact that your parents would be crushed if you did somthing that stupid because whether you want to admit it or not they both love you.

Just stay strong sugar.

(End of the tough love speech....)

Well, I don't know if this would help, but, I thought about suicide once. When my grades where s.hit and my friends laughed at me everytime I got a D in spanish and it seemed like the world hated me. That was 2 months ago and I'll tell you, MCR didn't help me through that. I told one of my friends and We talked about it for a week and that helped tons. But I also thought about who I'd leave behind and stuff like that so...

Don't kill yourself, m'kay?