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 Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 12:20 am
Shin walked out of the bakery in the morning, his bag full of sweets and treats he had just bought. Oooh the sweets there was so good it made him want to dance. He met two friends there before and it made him want to giggle and dance. People that where nice to talk to. People that where wonderful and friendly. He was wearing a long wool dress with a turtle neck going up all the way his neck, long sleeves, and a dress that split at both of his sides and at the front and back. Under the wool dress was a pale pink silk dress longer and fell past his feet feathery and loose unlike the tight fitting wool green dress and the sleeves of it practically eating away all and every view of his hands. Then he had on green lipstick and purple contacts in his eyes. Going over to a table outside the bakery he sat down then put his bag down. It was his large purple bag filled with what he had bought there and was large and fat with sweets. An especially bad night with his boyfriend, he was just trying to cover everything up with makeup and a nice good long dress then fill himself with wonderful comforting sweet sweets..
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 12:34 am
Chase whistled as he walked to his destination, giving people he recognized as customers the night before a cheery hello and nod of his hat. Of course...it was still early, and one of the poor blokes had a hangover from hell...He grinned. Oh, Chase remembered that one. Gave him the stupid challenge of making a drink that could knock his socks off in one shot. He'd had fun with that! Why was the bartender out so early? Bennu had said that if he was going to stay with her, he got to help with the errands. So here he was, off to get the morning supply of breads and pastries. He wore a simple black suit, black fedora placed on his head at an angle. It provided a nice contrast to his somewhat pale skin and near-white hair.
He made his way up the hill and was about to go into the bakery when he stopped and did a double-take. His mood rose even more and he quickly ducked into the bakery, got the things on Bennu's list, and grabbed himself an apple turnover. Once outside again, he went over to the only occupied table there, and stood across from the man seated there -was only the lack of chest that alerted him to the gender...but he did look good-. "'Cuse me...this seat taken?"
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 1:01 am
Shin looked up at the strong looking man. He felt a bit surprised. Was he talking to him? Was he really? He was looking at him, it looked like he was talking to him. It must be! Oh he looked so good, but ever sexy man had a small violent streak in them somewhere didn't he? And he was just a dainty little thing that couldn't fight back. He didn't just look feminine and weak and frail, he was feminine and weak and frail. He gave a little blush, nodding a bit. He didn't really say anything, even if he was a guy he was still shy like a small mouse. He wouldn't regret it though would he? Well he couldn't hurt him in broad daylight right? Of course not. He would get in trouble right? Thats why his boyfriend didn't do things like that. Yes his boyfriend waited until nobody was around to see. The young looking man let out a sigh, frowning a bit before digging one hand in to his bag then pulling out one small chocolate cupcake filled with thick lemon cream. He brushed a few loose strange from his face, thinking for a moment. He should at least say hello. Don't be scared, don't be scared. You shouldn't be rude right? Just say hello, there's nothing wrong with that. Finally he convinced himself to speak, a feminine quiet voice coming out of him.
"Good morning.."
He said before pressing the muffin against his full pouted lips for a moment. With another seconds worth of frowning down he begun to eat in to the cupcake eagerly.
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 10:30 am
Chase hesitated a few seconds. The other man seemed a bit...unnerved? Then Chase remembered he had that effect on a lot of people. Only reason he didn't get it at the bar he worked for was because it was almost all regulars in it. They were all used to him. He smiled again and sat down, placing the bag on the ground next to him and digging his turnover out of it. He took his fedora off and placed it on top of the bag. The male across from him seemed so...Frail was a good word. Like talking to him would snap him in two. But Chase couldn't help but talk, it was in his nature...So talk he did, and hoped the pretty man wouldn't break.
"It is quite a good morning. Not only did I wake to find my little sister hadn't kicked me out of her house, but I have found a most rare and lovely gem." And flirt. That was another thing in Chase's nature. "Name's Chase de'Croix. And may I inquire the rare gem's name?" His crystal blue eyes glittered with the smile on his face.
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 12:54 pm
((SO pretty!^.^))
Shin looked back from his sweet to the man when he started talking. First he herd how the mans day was going well, the zebra haired boy licking the cream that had gotten on his lips but thankfully his lipstick was water proof so it was just fine there. It was because the guys sister didn't kick him out right? And fe found a rare and lovely gem. Ohh all stones where pretty in their own ways, natural little bits of art or massive ones. Gems where just a more popular one. Then the man introduced himself then called Shin.. a rare gem? His cheeks brightened to a bright pink almost glowing on his tropical light brown skin color. He felt so surprised and.. somehow it didn't quite feel like it happened. A sexy guy just sat there, told him his name and called him the most rare and lovely gem. His name even sounded pretty didn't it? What should he say.. what should he say? Well his name would be a good start.
"Ano.. it's Shin Takano."
He bit his lip a bit once he realized he used a tiny bit of Japanese again. That was a really bad habit wasn't it? Well.... Maybe next he should clear up the gem thing. Yes that would be good right? But what if he took offense? But he had the right to know. Oh he needed to stop second guessing every little thing he said.
"Ano.. Croix San? I'm not really a lovely gem. I'm just trash dressed pretty."
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 1:08 pm
A Japanese boy! He wouldn't have expected that with the boy's darker skin. But it fit him quite well. Chase was stunned at Shin's next words. Trash? Oh...he'd have to fix that quickly. His jovial smile turned a bit softer.
"Now, now, Shin. Call me Chase. I'm not much of one for formalities, despite what my dress may say." It was strange hearing someone so pretty call themselves trash. Usually, anyone like Shin that Chase ran into was very proud of their looks..."You have obviously seen the wrong side of yourself. You are quite the pretty one. Did you know that one of the most beautiful gems is found in the most rough of rocks? It's often passed over as trash, until a good eye sees the sparkles of color."
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 1:23 pm
Shin blushed more, almost trying to hide his face behind the cream filled cupcake with the bite taken out of it. Then again doing that also accedently got cream on his nose. Letting out a small yelp sound he put it down, searching in his bag for a napkin. There weren't any though, just lots of sweets. He took his finger, wiping the cream off his nose then licking it off his finger. There we go all better. For someones whos name meant love he seemed to lack a lot of it for himself.
"H-hai, Chase."
He picked the chocolate cupcake back up.
"But I'm not rough, I just don't sparkle.. I'm not how a boy should be at all. The only guy that sees me is my boyfriend and he would never call me a lovely rare gem.."
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 1:38 pm
Chase had to stop himself from going over and hugging Shin. He was just too cute for words! Then his words registered. Boyfriend? What did tha-Oh. Chase got it now. And he was all too familiar with the situation. Chase didn't care what anyone said. He could take a blow, but an emotional barb was something that stayed for years.
"Your boyfriend is blind then." He reached over the table to place a finger under Shin's chin. "You sparkle quite beautifully. It's not very strong yet, but with time and some help on learning to stop putting yourself down, it'll give any fire opal a run for its worth. A boy isn't necessarily footballs and martial arts...It's about doing what feels right to you." Despite his size, he was very gentle, in touch and voice, far from what one would except from someone dressed like a mobster. "And that boyfriend of yours is obviously doing nothing for your self-esteem. A pretty thing like you should be proud of your looks."
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 1:55 pm
Shin wasn't sure what to say. The man was being so nice.. and touched so soft. Why was someone so strong so sweet? Was he wrong? Was he not as strong as he looked? He thought he could tell if someone was really strong. Even so though strong not whatever he was still so soft.. and sweet. But if that was true his boyfriend wouldn't hurt him every night. If that was true he wouldn't always be treated so lowly by him sometimes.. His boyfriend.
"A boy is suppose to be strong no matter what they do. They should look like a boy, not a girl. They should look their age.. I look like a teenage school girl. Even if I tried to dress like a guy I would still look like a girl.. I'm too thin, too frail, my hips curve too much.. and I bleach stripes in my hair... My boyfriend.. Hes big and strong and knows whats better for me more then I do.."
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 2:22 pm
Chase had a strong urge to find Shin's boyfriend and give him a piece of his mind. But if he did that...well, it was likely to come and bite him in the a** later. Besides...he was sure Bennu didn't want to drag him to the ER again.
"Being strong isn't about physical prowess, Shin. It's about knowing what talents you have and using them for the betterment of not only yourself, but those around you. I'm a blackbelt in tae kwon do. But I don't show off often. My strength lies in making others happy. So instead of going into business or the army or somethin' like that, I'm a bartender. I have fun doing it too. More fun than any fight I've ever been in." He pat Shin on the head. "The only one who ultimately knows what is right for you is yourself. Sometimes it takes someone else for you to finally hear the little voice inside crying out, but it's there. As for your looks...You're just fine. Gender doesn't rule what you look like, just what kind of plumbing you've got. And looking one's age..." He gave a deep chuckle. "I didn't start looking my age until two years ago. Everytime the inspector came to the bar, I had to show my ID just to prove I was old enough to serve and drink alcohol."
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 3:00 pm
Shin dropped his cupcake on to the table, listening to him. Was it real? He was strong.. but he was so gentle. A bartender.. was a job for someone who didn't mind listening and talking, being everyones friend. He was the person you would get help from then should give a big tip for all the help. But still... Still.. he ended up leaning over to him and clinging, though he just met him. Though they weren't even friends yet.
"I don't have that voice. I never had that voice. Well maybe.. sometimes.. I don't know.. Sometimes I brake up with my boyfriend.. sometimes I think I hear something saying hes wrong.. But then I always end up coming back to him and forgetting why I even left him... It happens again and again.. and again.. Maybe I should just stop leaving him.. and try to talk about things.. But all I end up always doing is getting him angry.. It hurts getting him angry.."
Long covering clothes.. big strong boyfriend.. Girls weren't the only one that could get killed by a bad violent boyfriend that tried to justify the reasons to do it. It always ended up being the frail little pretty ones stuck in those traps too and shin was frail and pretty. He was in a little trap he didn't know how to get out of.. or maybe he was too scared to?
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Posted: Wed May 16, 2007 6:21 pm
Chase was about to retrieve the cupcake for Shin when the smaller male clung to him. He blinked, then wrapped an arm around Shin as he used his other hand to rub his back. He just listened to the poor boy anger at Shin's boyfriend growing. How could someone want to hurt this gem? If anything, Shin made Chase want to protect him, he seemed so frail. When he was done talking, Chase spoke up.
"That you leave him shows that voice exists...it is just deeply buried." The hand that had been rubbing Shin's back went under the feminine boy's chin, titling his face up so his eyes could meet Chase's. "Talk is good...But in your case, leaving is best. Leaving and telling the authorities what he's done to you. What he's done is unforgivable. And when you finally leave him, he'll just find someone else to hit...And the cycle will start again for someone else. Love shouldn't hurt physically. Sometimes, it causes aches and pains in you heart, but it should never do so with your body." Chase knew the trap. He'd been in it once. He'd always been such a pushover despite his size, and during high school he'd had an abusive boyfriend of his own. And it took his closest friend throwing several hot rolls at him in frustration to get him to finally sit and listen to her about what was going on. And he did about the same for her a few times. "And trust me when I tell you...my sister and I know exactly what that cycle is like."
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 12:56 am
Shin let out a whimper at the short amount of time his back was rubbed, hurting. Chase wasn't being rough it was just bruises on his back. Maybe its better Maria and Choine haven't touched him yet. If they had he would likely need to end up explaining himself. But they weren't there at the moment. Chase was. This new man he just met, this strange person. He was a strong man but gentle and for some reason flattered him and treated him nicely. Looking in to the mans eyes though.. Looking in to them he wasn't sure quite what to think. A voice deep inside him? Why would he have something like that when he never used it? Did did he but never realize it? If he wasn't so weak minded and stopped second guessing himself then maybe he could figure it out. He felt so confused. He thought for a moment, still unsure of why he was clinging to the stranger, the gentle nature. Sometimes it felt like his mind was just as split as his hair color, like two people where talking inside instead of just inside. Did he want his boyfriend to go away? Did he really? Honestly? A part of him wanted to be far away from him. A part of him wanted him to go away so he could just curl in to a corner and cry out ever pain. Another part of him felt like he deserved it though. Like some part of him could always tell who the bad boys where and looked for them just to get hurt. It felt like burning embers resting in his stomach and chest. Finally though, he decided to try to answer. How would he answer? He had to try to say something. Iw would be rude not to answe.
"But.. what if a part of me wants him to do that as much as it doesn't? What if there was a part of me that wanted to be burned away, feeling like burning embers awaiting even a hair to spark it all away if only for a little. I think... I'm not sure I could get up in the morning without the embers going out for just a little..."
This was what happened when someone was abused or used for an extensive amount of time. Some form or another of its likely happened always in his life and over time it reflected more and more in to his actions until he grew in to this lovely self destructive beautiful living breathing work of art.
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Posted: Thu May 17, 2007 11:05 pm
Chase noticed Shin's whimper and ceased rubbing, just keeping a hand lightly on his back. He kept quiet while Shin talked, listening. The poor boy was a train wreck inside, at least that's how it sounded. Chase knew it would take a while to get through to Shin, but he was willing to wait and listen.
"We all...have times when we wonder what we want. We all wonder if the pain we receive is really what we want." Chase smiled down at Shin. "But ya know...If pain is your thing, there's a better way to find it. People who know how to give it without really hurting the one who wants the pain." It wasn't really Chase's cup of tea...but being a bartender, he had to have his connections, and know about a variety of topics.
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Posted: Fri May 18, 2007 12:05 am
"But what if I want to get hurt?"
Shin asked with his feminine quiet voice, closing his eyes.
"What if one day I wanna wake up with a broken arm or my throat torn up and I just don't have the guts to do it myself?"
He let out another wimper, opening his eyes again then taking out the purple contacts in his eyes. They didn't feel good to have on at the moment.
"I'm a cowered thats always thinking with two minds in to exact opposite directions. I'm afraid of everyone, everything. Pain I hate the most, I hate it so much but.. I feel like its needed. I need to punish myself, to hurt myself.. I could never be what I was suppose to. I shouldn't have bleached my hair... or dressed like a girl... or go after boys... I always did what my mother told me to do but somehow I could always feel her disappointment.. Even if she didn't say anything.. Even if she event sent me to collage in America... I was never quite what she wanted me to be. I could never fit in to what she wanted.. I was the worst son..."
((YAY! i'm downloading trinity blood for free! OMG*dances*))
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