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I had typed out a long story, but I erased it and rewrote it.
I felt like I was really just saying that it's okay to do drugs, but it's not.
In certain cases, they can ruin your life. In others, they just leave you broke, eating top ramen everyday, and driving your car on empty.

Okay, so here's the short version of my story.
I've been doing cocaine for four years now.
I was doing three or four lines in the morning to wake me up the way most people drink coffee and full out cocaine binges on the weekends.
I'd spend around $200 a week on coke on average.

I just got a new job...It SUCKS and I'm making about half of what I was making at my old one, so I've had to cut back all my 'extravagent expenses.' Meaning, no more going out to dinner every night, driving down to LA every weekend to go party, and most of all..No more cocaine.

So pretty much, I've decided that I'm going to stop doing cocaine.
I thought it was going to be hard and that I was going to be craving it badly.

It's been almost a week now since I last did cocaine (4/30/07).

Aside from thinking "Hm a little bit of coke would be nice right now..." once or twice, I haven't had any urge to actually do any and I think that I can follow through with this.

The worst "symptom" I've felt would probably have to be feeling tired in the morning. I fixed that by actually drinking a cup of coffee.
It does wonders, really.
I think caffeine might be my new drug of choice lol
It's cheap, tastes delicious, and I can get it on pretty much any street corner legally.
woo! dramallama

I've never done drugs, but I often share this little blurg about my friend who smoke/d pot:

In high school, she smoked pot. Not all the time, but when she had the money to buy some from someone, she'd buy a little and smoke it after school or whenever.

She always told me she wasn't addicted, that she could stop whenever she wanted, etc etc. When we graduated from high school, she kept smoking pot, now with her little cousins who were in elementary/middle school and were her "dealers". It was really sad.

But what made me the saddest was her admission that she was hooked, that she couldn't just quit, and that she had moved on to more hardcore drugs. She said pot was a gateway drug, that it's easy to get hooked on other drugs once you've done pot. She tried cocaine and LSD, and she did E for awhile. I told her over and over I was worried about her, and that I'd have to fly halfway across Canada to attend her funeral one day because she was going to kill herself.

Thankfully she smartened up, and to my knowledge she no longer does drugs, or at least not the hardcore ones.

It's great that you've quit the cocaine, It can be tough but it'll be worth it. You're very lucky if you haven't got the crazy 'cold turkey' cravings, my friend tried to quit and they got the better of him. Just be strong and you can do it.

It is good you stopped, I wouldn't have minded reading your original post tho... reading about other peoples issues makes me feel a lil better, because I know I'm not alone & I could probably help a lil.

I'm glad you quited. It's the best for your body and your mind. My brother used to smoke pot and, who knows what else D:
I was 7~9 years old when I was looking for a movie (I was alone in the house atm) and I found a VHS in his room and when I putted it, it was a recording of him and his friends, getting high smoking pot and another stuff which I don't know what it was. I just know that I'm glad he finally stopped it. I'm not into drugs, and I'm very sure I'll never will.
So keep on the good work!
This is an old topic, I'd like to know how you're doing and if you fully quited.