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 Posted: Sun Apr 22, 2007 6:04 pm
[♥]her bone structure screams... I'm regretting a lot right now.Thats not the problem never mind that...
But...
I feel so worthless(its terrible).I feel like all I do is make bad choices and mess things up for people and make people upset.
I'm keeping horrible secrets, and doing things that could and should have been prevented very easily.. but I make dumb choices... very dumb choices.. and now I'm stuck... between a rock and a hard place.. this is one of the hardest disicions I've hade to make so far in my life,and I havn't even had to make it yet..
I just feel completely useless and worthless.. I feel like theres no point in me being alive... I kinda just wanna curl up in a whole and die. ...touch her,touch her![♥]
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Posted: Sun Apr 22, 2007 10:28 pm
Worthlessness shan't be the things you do. Atleast everyone made a difference in sombody's life in a good way like you. I know how it feels when you make people upset when you don't want to. Well... my dearest friend wouldn't like to see me sad. Sometimes I had to lie to her so she won't blame things on herself on how I am (when I'm sad, furious...).
Don't call yourself worthless by the way. Everything with life has value and your family friends value you. Its foolish to die for something small. When I mean something small, its what your thinking... feeling worthless. Look... kate, Nik, and others... even I think you have value. Well thats all I have to say. Now I want to see you online when I get back. If you still feel sad/depressed I shall dump billions of baby chickens on you mrgreen
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Posted: Mon Apr 23, 2007 8:10 am
No one's worthless, and we all make bad decisions. I could talk about all the things I used to do till the cows come home, as well as some of the things I still do. Also, all the things you've done that you've regretted is makin' you a better person. Sometimes a person has to learn a lesson the hard way, and it seems you're goin' through that right now. Also, you have friends so you can't possibly be worthless, because you mean somethin' much more to them. If you truly were worthless you would have never interacted with anyone or done anythin' in your life, because every action you do can affect someone in a major way, and it's always in a good way. Even little actions can make a huge difference, such as if you hold the door for someone and that person is actually very depressed about how rude humans are and that one action shows that not everyone is rude and they cheer up. Even some bad actions can open up someone else's eyes. Lastly, life is balance. For every negative thing that happens there is a positive effect, such as learnin' from it. Also, there is a positive thing just around the corner to balance it out. Try lookin' at all the wonderful things you've done. You might think there are none but that's just because you're lookin' at the clouds instead of the bright sun behind it. There are many things you've done and said that have helped people and made 'em happy, I have tons of examples and I've only interacted with you over the internet, so there's gotta be a ton, no, there IS a ton.
Anyway, no one is worthless, we all have our bad times and good times and the bad times always enlighten us in the end and get us closer to answerin' that big question. Just remember that though you've made some bad decisions, so has everyone else, and probably the same amount as well. We've kept secrets and might be keepin' 'em secret at this very moment too, but the reason we keep 'em secret is because we're worried it'll upset people or anger people or somethin', and that shows you care about those around you and a worthless person wouldn't think like that. And lasly, there is always a reason to be alive. You never know what the next day might bring, maybe you'll find that answer that will make the world make sense tomorrow. Maybe you'll find that answer to what makes you happy for the rest of your life. You never know what might happen tomorrow, and yet you only have to wait for a little while. There are hard times and good times, but you end it all just because you don't wanna wait for a good time seems kinda silly, since it could be here tomorrow and that would look pretty wasteful. And also, there are a lot of people who love bein' around you and talkin' with you, and would you really wanna leave them? If they enjoy bein' around you and talkin' to you you mustn't be worthless. And I think I've already said this and this post is incredibly long so I'm gonna stop.
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Posted: Mon Apr 23, 2007 8:21 am
What could we do without you Semok? I'm interested in what you have to say no matter how long it is. Heck, I'd even read all your so called, "rants" if I wanted to. We should give you a title to remember in this guild.
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Posted: Mon Apr 23, 2007 12:05 pm
Thanks Spirit.. hehe baby chickens!
Thanks Semok.. even though it was long it was deff worth it and I'm glad you didn't try to shorten it!
Idk what I'd do without you guys...thanks,from the most loving part of my heart xp heart
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Posted: Mon Apr 23, 2007 12:20 pm
You are certainly welcome. As always Semok and I are always here to help. *bows* We are glad to of help you. 3nodding
And Semok... I give you a lot my respect. I don't believe in "best" but you are indeed a great person. smile
And yes, I still give respect to the Captain, Nikki, and to the Vice Captain, Kate.
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Posted: Mon Apr 23, 2007 12:28 pm
Wolf Spirit29 You are certainly welcome. As always Semok and I are always here to help. *bows* We are glad to of help you. 3nodding
And Semok... I give you a lot my respect. I don't believe in "best" but you are indeed a great person. smile
And yes, I still give respect to the Captain, Nikki, and to the Vice Captain, Kate. Thankies! Uh oh, I feel a blush comin' on. @fallenxangel-xx: No need for thanks, it's what friends do!
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Posted: Mon Apr 23, 2007 12:29 pm
Well,yes there is need for thanks,.. i wanna show that i'm thankful and not taking things for granted xp
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Posted: Mon Apr 23, 2007 12:31 pm
fallenxangel-xx Well,yes there is need for thanks,.. i wanna show that i'm thankful and not taking things for granted xp Just stayin' alive and gettin' happy again is thanks enough! It's all I ever ask for. 3nodding
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Posted: Mon Apr 23, 2007 12:40 pm
Life is important to me so use it well. What's worth dying for, in my opinion, is to keep my friends and family... my dearest friend alive. All I am asking for is to keep them alive, and keep my dearest friend alive and let her keep that smile. Nothing is better than my friends and family. My dearest friend... the most important part of me. If I see her dead, I will lose a piece of me forever.
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-RandomRadRainbows- Vice Captain
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Posted: Mon Apr 23, 2007 4:34 pm
sad you guys all beat me to this topic i guess...im sorry i didn't really help much...but nikki, just know that without you coming into my life, i don't know where i'd be and honestly it's a really really really (x infinity) scary thought, you saved me in a way. You're in no way worthless, you mean sooo much to me, i hate to see you sad, i love you and i want you to be happy...we all make mistakes, and good will eventually come from it, and ill always stand by you no matter what, so don't you ever feel like your a burden or you don't do anything positive, cause you've helped me soooo much and i enjoy your friendship, i need your friendship. heart
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