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1.loneliness

walking waiting through a river of emotions
nevering finding ont that fits me
each one i try i see people
with no faces but i hear
their emotion whether it happy or sad.
as i walk through each one
i feel as if there is no place for me
WAIT!!
i came to the end of the river
so this must be my place,but
i dont see anyone. just a feflection
of someone. i dont know who.
as i walk closer and closer
to the reflections it gets blurier
until it is gone and it is just me
and now i know this is the place for me





2.no more

never been kissed before
always at home
crying on the floor

never been loved at all
always taking out
your anger on the wall

never been liked, never
just dristing through
life forever and ever

now i dont want to live anymore
i just want to slit my wrist
and watch the blood hit the floor





3.Forever alone
Forever alone ill be
like a ship wrecked borad at sea
forever sad ill be
because no on really cares for me
forever depressed ill be
while i cut myself and watch me bleed

Forever alone you see
because no one can accept me
forever sad you see
as tears pour out of me
forever depressed you see
this is the way it will be

Now it is time for me to flee
As i drift away just let me be




4.does happiness exist

alone all the time
feeling as if no one cares
locked away from all
so no one can see you
told your worthless
so you just give up.

false emotions
are given and taken
you doubt that
any good emotion exist
all you have is sad,
lonelym anger, and depression.

everyone tells you to cherr up
they dont know how hard it is
your left out of everything
never filled in.

just drifting thougth life
day by day
finding new emotions
but still in search of
that one that everyone talks about
you know....happiness
it's been 17 long years
and not one glimmer of it
how long will it take.



5.Best Friend
They are always there for you
no matter what happens
they tell you everything
no matter how much it may hurt
they never abandon you
for noone or nothing
and they never ignore you
even if they cant contact you
with these people you can put
your life with them and know it would be safe
but finding them
can be hard and confusing
but when you find them
you know everything is great
until
they jsut stop talking to you
and when that happens
you have to ask yourself
"is this person still my best friend?"

6.My Depression

i dont know if i could ever get out of depression
i think im stuck in it
no matter what i do
i just get sucked deeper and deeper
into my depression
it doesnt matter what i do
i cant escape it
i think that if depression is my life
then why should i keep on living it.


7.What i would do for you
well look i dont know how to say it
but words cant describe how i feel about you.
i would give any and everything
just for you.
i would walk till the end of time
to let you know how i feel.
i would give my life
to make yours happier.
i would give my breath
to help you breathe.
i would give you my happiness
to kill your depression.
i would give my heart and soul
just to keep you here.
i would give my blood and tears
so you dont have to shed yours
i guess what im tryin to say is
i would do anything for you


8.I care
im sure your asking yourself
why does he care?
when i try to make him see
what kind of person i am.
well let me tell you something
no matter what you see
ill see something good
you may say your not worth it
but i say your worth every bit of whatever it is
you may say your unwanted
but i still want you
you say your unloved
but i love you
you say your heartless
but i say your heart is what i love the most
other people may call you other things
but as long as one person thinks your not any of those things then your not
but to answer your question why do i care
because i care about you


9.Im sorry
When i spoke to you last
it seemed like everything was in the past
but not everything
one thing remained
and i didnt mean to do this to you
so what must i do
to get this throught to you

Im sorry for everything ive done
Im sorry none of it was fun
Im sorry can you forgive me
so that we can move on

it was only yesterday when it happen
life was cool and every1 was laughin
but then something happen that we could not forget
we just kissed for a little bit
but now everyone knows
and even though it's public news
someone learned that i hoped wouldnt learn about it
and now to gain the trust back
i must say this as many times as possible...

Im sorry for everything ive done
Im sorry none of it was fun
Im sorry can you forgive me
Im sorry i didnt tell you
Im sorry i didnt no what to do
Im sorry can you forgive me
so that we may move on

the only way to get through this
is to make up our minds here and now
we must be true to our hearts and mind
so that this can be settled and over....

Im sorry for everything ive done
Im sorry none of it was fun
Im sorry can you forgive me
Im sorry i didnt tell you
Im sorry i didnt no what to do
Im sorry can you forgive me
so that we may move on

Im sorry....
Im sorry....
IM SORRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


10.Everytime
everytime i close my eyes
through the black and blue
all i can see is you

everytime i speak to you
whether it far or near
i know there is nothing to fear

everytime we touch
i feel like i could fly
and touch the sky

everytime you fall
no matter what i have to do
ill be there to catch you

and even though it may never happen again
there was that kiss
ill never miss

11.Life without love(how does it feel)
life without love(how does it feel)



how does it feel
to wake up everymorning
knowing that
you have a lonely day
a head of you
how does it feel
when everyone around you
just turns
and walks away
how does it feel
when all you feel
is PAIN!!!!!

life without love
it just aint fare
life without love
it's an endless fight
life without love
when will it end

how does it feel
when girls say the like you
and then turn around and
say just as a friend
or when ones that so like you
are already dating one of your friends
how dose it feel
when you try so
damn hard to get someone
to like you
and in the end it was
all for NOTHING!!!!!!

life without love
it just aint fare
life without love
it's an endless fight
life without love
it's just not fare
life without love
does anyone care
could this be the end

to those i hurt
im sorry
but you must understand
that im not loved
i know you say wait and hold one
and love will find you
but that's after you found your love
so to those im gonna hurt this is my letter
Im sorry but all I need is a bullet and a gun to end all this pain

life without love
it just aint fare
life without love
it's an endless fight
life without love
it's just not fare
life without love
does anyone care
could this be the end

life without me is a better life
life without me is a better way
cuz my life has no love



12.Why me
why does eveything bad happen to me
when everyone get's sunshine
I get rain
when everyone is high
im always low
when everyone is happy
im sad
when eveyone is out
im always in
and why when everyone is together
im alone
so i ask you this question
why me?


13.No where to hide
you say your ok
you say your fine
but deep down in side
you just want to whine.

you show i fake smile
just so people think your happy
but you know that
a false smile
shows true darkness

you go through the day
just hiding emotion and
faking everything
you say and do

there are few people that
you can tell how you really feel
and those people now how you
feel but want you to be happy

so at the end of the day
no try and try
but you know one thing
will happen so

you can try to run
from the sharp edge of the blade
but it's always saying
"you've got nowhere to hide"




14.Inner Darkness
run to the light
if you think it will help
but light cant
protect you forever
and when light fades
it will come for you
cuz there is no
hiding from it.
love can only suppress it
once love is gone
it comes back and
looks for you once again.
only one thing
can truly defeat it
and that will be
death
nothing can save
you but death can
beat it for you
so you can prolong
it's living or
you can end it's
existence with yours
but no matter
what you do
you lose

15.No your not

people can say what they want
you shouldnt let them get you down
becuz any negative thing they say
is not true...

people can label you what they want
you shouldnt let that control you
becuz you are who you are
and that's that...

you can call yourself what you want
ill always think think better of you
and you can say it's true all you want but im gonna say
no your not...

16.I want to be free (a message to moms)
why are you doing this to me
why are you making my life worst
do you know what I'm going through
do you even care
you don’t know how hard it is
you never will
you'll know
until you start to care
I know I’ve done wrong
and I am sorry about it
but you keep pushing it in my face
I do feel penance I do feel guilt
but until you stop that’s all
I’ll feel
just please leave me alone mother
and let me be, because
I want to be free

17.sorry
sorry I'm no
prince in a crown
sorry I'm no
hot stud beating people into the ground
sorry I'm no
musician living by the sword
sorry I couldn’t
turn your frown upside down
sorry there's nothing
I can say to make you turn around
the only thing I'm trying to say is
sorry I'm me.


18.The night I wont forget
we danced under the stars
on a floating cloud above all
without a care in the world
people came and saw
but moved on
I was a great night
just you and me
it wasn’t anything but
spending time with you
that's what that night
was about not the kiss
or the dance but
the time alone with you
now that night
has gone and past
but will forever
remain with me
Thank you.

19.Rejection
rejection
some say it’s just
a phase
but for m e
it’s a lifestyle
everyone says
that I haven’t
found the right
girl for me
but that’s not
true. The only
girl I ever
really had
true feelings
has joined
the group that
most people join
the rejection of me
now not only did
I lose her but
I lost one of
my best friends
now what do I do
I seem lost without
you. Since there
is nothing I can
do to change this
ill let you decide
how I leave this
world, is it through
a gun, a razor,
jumping in front
of a car or jumping
off a bridge. Either
way ill is gone and
you'll be happy. and
your happiness is what
matters the most

20.Why does this happen to me
why does this happen
why must this be
is it because we
will never be.
How do I tell you
without losing you
how do I tell you
without seeming weird
I can't
so now should I
smile because we're friends
or cry because that's all
we'll ever be,
ill let you decide.




21.The hardest thing in life
the hardest thing in life
is know that your so close
yet so far away

the hardest thing in life
is carrying the burden
of liking you and you
not knowing it

the hardest thing in life
is telling you how
I feel

the hardest thing in life
is standing by and watching
you with someone else

the hardest thing in life
is think that you
don't feel the same about me....


22.I must be stupid
I must be stupid
To think that
Anyone could like me
I must be stupid
To think that
I can be happy
I must be stupid
To wish for
Something that aint there
I must be stupid
To think that
Anyone is there for me
I must be stupid
To waste my
Time on this world
But I am smart
Because I’m giving
Up and fading away

I liked Inner Darkness. ^_^
But ALL of them are good!

Sin, Halo_Rising mrgreen