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is it even an option when u feel so bad?

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in my opinion, no i dont think it is. and ive had many a times where i myself have thought about it. but have never come to do it. cause no matter what ive found that there is at least one person, if not more, that would miss me if i ever did something. and thinking that helps me. but you should know no matter what you can always find someone in this guild that would miss you. ive found someone, actually a couple of people here that have help me tremendously. and would be there if i ever needed them. so if you ever need someone, all you have to do is ask.

Oh yeah.. I've been there.. Either on a bridge, by my window, a knife in my hand.. Lots of things/times have I tried to kill myself..

Suicide is never an option.

It's never a way......as much as I've thought about doing that: it isnt. Last year I learned that lesson. No, I didn't lose someone because of it: but I almost did.

I'd advise against suicide, because you never know what might happen later in your life. Something good might not happen the next day, but mabye in 2 months your life will turn around completely and you'll be happy that you never killed yourself... I know that I am 3nodding

I know I already posted but, Dark Eagle Babe, told her story so I thought I would. (though I have a feeling that its in a post somewhere in this guild sweatdrop )

when I was a freshman, I tried cutting myself. Got caught, sent to the nurse, sent home. My parents took me to the docs so he could tell me I was "sane". They thought I had stopped, but I was cutting all the way up until this april. Well trying to stop, and failing then trying again ^^; (but I think I've stopped, so far so good). but, I learned last november that life is too precious to waste. My best friend from first grade had been cutting for years, I found out last summer. I asked her to try and stop like I was doing, she couldn't. I remember every night I spent over there last summer, she was cutting herself and not even flinching. Then in november, it got sooo bad. I saw what she did to herself: I was scared to the bone. Her wrists looked like they had been sewn together ruffly: thats how bad it was. I remember that night, praying through my tears that she was gonna be ok. Her mom took her to the hospital that night, I thanked god the next day when I found out. She called me from the hospital: I was crying when I got back to my room with the phone. She said she was alright, that she was fine. I just abosrded the infromation not really thinking, I remember her asking her to do something for her and I did. After we hung up I curled into a ball and cryed my eyes out, which is something I hardly ever do. Next day I told our friend, I was so much in a daze that I forgot what her reaction was. I went through the day hoping that she was gonna be ok. That night when I got home, I called her house to ask her mom if she was ok: her mom told me that she was gonna be in the hospital for at least tree weeks. And she also said that my best friend had demanded to call me with the cell phone. For those next weeks I was in a daze: I really dont remember anything except worrying and worrying. Then one saterday I got a call from a pay phone: it was her saying she was coming home soon....I was soooooo happy. She came home, I cryed a happy for the first time in almost a month.

That's how I learned that suicide isnt worth it. I could have lost her, just because everyone treated her and made her feel like she didn't matter to the point where she wanted to kill herself. It scared me, and I hope (not being mean) that it'll scare some of you into not doing it. No one should go through the pain I went through with that: no one.

wanted to so many times. no will to live. backed out over and over. no will to die.