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 Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 5:19 pm
Fear of; Ghosts
Name of fear; Aki
Home; Wander
NM's Personality; Aki isn't like most of the spirits I know.. He seems to reveal in just how much he can upset me.. And remind me of my past. Although I've discovered Aki does have his moments of kindness, there so far and few inbetween it's more to lull me into a false sense of security. I think. Everytime I'm around Aki it just seems I can't shake the first feelings of learning to communicate with the dead, and even seeing them. I suppose time will tell.
Name of human; Leon
Human's history;
I remember being a young child when I first learned what I saw, wasn't just 'imaginary friends'. The first real incounter I can remember is three months after a head injury that had changed me. I sat alone in my room, staring at a poster. The more I focused on the poster, the more I realized the creature was moving. It was of a wolf, and while I have no fear of them just something in that moment made me close my eyes as tight as possible, and couldn't help termbling.
A faint laughing sound made me look again, the poster was no longer moving. Instead I saw an outline of a something human-like. It realized I could I could see him, and leered at me with a sadistic smile as if amused. I was only five then.
"It'll be alright." A voice whispered softly to me, it was comforting compared to the thing infront of me. When I finally looked again the menacing figure was gone. The voice that comforted me would become fimilar, a friend infact..but I've never forgotten about that night all those years ago. It made me uneasy then, and still does today when I think back on that night. It's alittle unerving that Aki reminds me of that indisident.
One thing I do know.. Aki was once a part of me in some twisted way. Even if he appeared to me first as some shadowed figure.. He may that peice of myself I lost the day my connection to the dead was established. The peice tied to the darkness..No perhaps more accurately in this case, the Nightscape. My broken memories, my forsaken fears of a child caught in a tale of life and death.
"Open this world and Close the next~" 
Fear of; Pidgeons
Name of fear; Cias
Home; Wander
NM's Personality; Cias enjoys ridiculing me, he is amused that I actually fear him. When most are content to chase after pidgeons..Or simply exnore them I can't help but cringe at the sound of that awful noise.. While I to be brutally honest fear birds in general, it's in Cias I am reminded why I'm so afraid of pidgeons.. Of that hellish nightmare I can just barely recall even if I try. Cias embodies a diffrent side of me, the ill-rational, even if I shouldn't you can't help your self.
Name of human; Leon
Human's history; I was much younger than I am today, and sitting infront of my televison I can remember fliping threw channels, but I stumbled upon one in particular that caused me to stare wide eyed and quiet literally mortifed. This person apparently had had a tumor in his brain?..he'd been having terrible headaces, and once the thing was looked at, it had been alive, like a unformed twin, it was the eye that terrifed me at that exsact moment, it moved for gods sake. Yet as the story unfolded.. There were these birds in the movie..they were viscious, and could kill a man in seconds. Birds who strip flesh from bones, and rip eyes from there very sockets. Perhaps what I saw was a nightmare, but it terrifed me none the less. I must have disasotated the memory.. I literally made myself forget every bit of it, it really had scared me.
It wasn't until some time later, walking down town with a friend or two.. I recall this awful sound, it gritted on my very nerves and made me look around. Beedie black eyes stared at me, and all I could do was tense up and make a soft whimper sound under my breath. It wasn't even nessicarly the exsact fact they were pidgeons.. But the constant "Coooo..~" and the flaping of the wings.. I tore away from the stupid things, embarressed and utterly freaked out. I wasn't even sure why, I wanted away from those eyes.. Those sounds.
Not to long ago, this same, strange feeling was triggered, I recall my curling up, eyes closed firmly trying to block out the horrid memory, of both the eye..and the creature it's self. It was then when I opened my eyes, before me was a horror I could only make guess to it's origin. It chackled at me once I saw it fully, as if amused. Yes indeed.. This day was the one I met my most unexplainable fear, he even carried the eye with him.
"Hence banished from the world, and the world's exile is death ~"
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 5:24 pm
~: Rules :~
1. No posting unless told otherwise..but Ferret/staff can regardless if needed lol
2. You can question my sanity if you want, but what I mention here is all real to me~
3. -.- I hates pidgeons <3
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 5:33 pm
~: On another note/ Leo info :~
Name; Leon
Age; 18
Occupation; Twiddling my thumbs.. I'm a colorist for the shop I co-own, and doing drawings when ever, (not as an offical job that gets me pay though xD; )
Fears; Honestly? I'm afaird of creatures ingolfed by madness, and malice.. I also have an explain-able fear of pidgeons =/;;
I also fear zombies, bridges and closets. =D;
Favorite Song; Don't exsactly have one~ Way to many that either discribe me, or just like lol. Although at the time of posting this I was listening to Evil Angel o-o;
Likes; Drawing, writing, and rping, listening to music and being a proffesional time waster 8D, being a procastinator, and having a good time, cynicalism, scarcasm, and largly padded head phones.
Dislikes; Pidgeons, intese rage, people who kick others down, silence, being without my ipod, not being at my best friends, being told to word faster xD;; other things, just to lazy to write all...
Mis; Nothing else much to see, I disided to do a drawing of a mixture of myself/avi. As well I spend alot of my time in the spirit world >>;; Call me crazy but I have a connection to spirits so neh. I also co own Shadow Gamblers] with my friend gracie xD;
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 7:16 pm
March 9th 2007~ I was sitting on my bed, it must have been well beyond 3 in the morning but go figure I was awake. As I stared blankly into the darkness in the room, a cold chill on my arm caught my attention. It made my entire body shudder, and caused me to growl in annoyance. Shaking my arm I stared at Aki, who took on a semi more solid shape.
The small spirit, while having no face still left me the impression of a cynical smirk in my mind. "You know Leon," The spirit began. "You'll always be hanuted" He moved away from me, just out of my reach. His words echo in my mine, and all ours perhaps. It leaves a unacustomed throbing sensation in my chest. Taking a deep breath I try to settle my nerves, why was I letting this get to me so much?
"Yes Aki.. But you don't have to put it quiet like that." He replied gritting my teeth, I know he's being a cynical b*****d, but I can't help trying to justify myself. As a general rule, I do actually talk back with those talking to me. Dead or alive. Being the fact everyone in the house was dead asleep I deffently didn't mind talking out loud.
His laugh makes me cringe, I don't like the sound of it one bit. "Put it quiet like that? Leon, what the hell do you take me for?" He hissed menacingly.
What's his problem? I can't help but wonder. I can't help finally looking away, my whole body was trembling, I was just done speaking with the spirit for the now. Laying myself back down on my bed, I try closing my eyes. Threw out the night I can't sleep..Aki finds it amusing apparently to keep me up. If I dremnt, I couldn't tell you what it was about. I just remember finally dozing off.
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Posted: Sat Mar 10, 2007 3:07 am
March 10th 2007~ Finally, after what little sleep I did get, I woke early that morning. I wasn't sure but something told me Aki was close by. Sighing softly, I swung myself out of bed and onto the floor to actually start moving. It's an odd feeling this heavyness on my chest. I feel almost as if I'm guilty of something I'd yet to do. Shaking my head, a yelp escapes my lips as Aki passes threw my face.
"Watch where your going," He laughed, it was intentional I'm certain. Facing me once more Aki moves alittle closer, and instantly a feeling of nervousness settles in. His cuddle is freezing, an image flashes in my mind. The eyes, they are the same as all those years ago.. The room darkens and things seem warped. This world is twisted, and leaves me crying wanting to be away from it. My first encounter then with breaking from my body into the Astral Plane was not like this place.. What I breifly see now is not the same place I am use to. The feeling passes instantly, I have not gone anywhere. Aki simply is messing with me, playing on my barried emotions.
"Aww, is widdle Leon scared?" He asks in a cooning tone. Gritting my teeth I stare at the spirit fully irritated.
"No, now behave." I attempt to sound confident, although I hardly feel as much. Something, as always makes me hold back. I can hear the others trying to support me.. but Aki is again inches from my face.
"You deal with me, not them." The voice was a soft whisper, almost dripping with malice. It also reminded me of a child demanding attention, like he hated the idea I would divert my attention from him. He wanted me to be strong, much like how the others do. Yet Aki isn't like Jason, D or some of the other spirits I'd befriended. I can't confide in Aki without worry he'd realitate nastily.
What a fool this boy truly is, the specter mused quietly. He might have those who'll guide him, sheild him even but it doesn't look like he can do a thing for himself. He cringes at my every touch, and behaves as though everything will incinrate at the very next second. Ah well, he isnt all bad. At least I can be amused.
"Leon, entertain me." A cackle rang threw the room, and I watched as he shivered once more. Twelve years may have passed, but now he would face that which he's exnored. Oh yes, I'll be sure of it. "Yet in the mean time, I shall have my fun."
I felt my eyes widen instantly. The comment was promted from no where as far as I was concered. I hadn't even answered to his 'enterain me' statement. The idea of me being fun to him, had everything to do with something unplesant. Sighing slightly I simply sit at my computer chair and rest my forehead in my hands. What next? I can't help but wonder.
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Posted: Sun Mar 11, 2007 1:44 pm
March 11th 2007~ Last night was another late nighter. It's really nothing new, but I at least tried to listen to music in hopes it'd help me sleep. Instead I ended up talking to Aki. As the music changed, I felt his presence draw nearer. It's unexpected but it's almost as if he's furious.
It is not so much that I am angry, that I grow impatient. I do not like being stuck in this human world and being unable to travel into the Nightscape. Notcing Leon's attempt at passifying himself, my laugh comes in an almost snort like fashion.
"What are you doing," I demand. As much as I hate to admit it, I like to know what the damned kid is doing. If it wasn't something I approved.. well I'd fix it.
To be truthful, I was simply thinking. Though if I said that out loud I already knew Aki would scoff me. I was quickly becoming familiar with his moods and nuissances...at least I hope so.
"Nothing..." I attempt. I'm not really paying attention, being semi absorbed within my own mind. Listening to D talking to me, but Aki's snarl causes me to look at the purple aured spirit.
"Yea, that's bull."He says. For a moment I have a strang feeling pass over me, I can feel his presence try to merge into my own. Just like all those years ago, another I believe even it was D, who forcefully rejects the union. I'm left dazed and staring at the growling spirit.
So his 'gaurdian's' still saught to keep me from him. A harsh laugh escapes my lips. So be it I suppose. Sighing in annoyance, I moved closer to Leon, and all but literay rest near his shoulder. I begin reading his typing he'd only just begun to work on. It was part of some book perhaps, I hardly had an intrest in reading though.
"Tell me," I whisper "Do I make you cringe?" A soft laugh, not a harsh one. I'm genuinly curious, and a deeper laugh would make him simply move away from me.
"Sure, it also just depends." I answer truthfully. Tilting my head ever so slightly I look directly at the spirit for perhaps the 100th time, trying to understand what it was that made me leery. The answer aludes me, but still this sense of something to come is sitting on my chest. Aki seemed satisfied with the answer and moved away from me for the now. I sighed alittle relieved, but no sooner than having relaxed I watched as the specter cackling whickedly zoomed threw me with a child like delight in my yelp of dismay.
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Posted: Thu Apr 05, 2007 11:33 pm
April 5th 2007~ It's been so long.. It's not like I have forgotten about Aki.. Gods I think that would be impossible. The spirit is always near by, always ready to provid me with..Well his own version of support if you can even call it that.
I being the spirit in question chackled cruely as I materalized near the fox's head. Ah the sweet irony wasn't to far from the truth. "I see your writing again." I hardly had to spare him any sympathies, we'd lived together far to long. I was use to all his idotic habbits, idocincies, and often lack of common sense. Growling I moved alittle closer to him, watching his near legiable writing being scribbled down.
Jumping from Aki's sudden apperance, my pen flew from my hands as I turned staring at the purple aura I was so accustoming to seeing. I usually don't startle so baddly.. I guess I had it coming being out of it. "Yea.. I think it's time I do anyways." he sighed softly and shivered, the air was being fridged, causing my body to shrudder. Aki I was certain noticed and would find it funny as hell.
"Tell me boy, why do you try and pretend like your not afraid hm?" He could try and tell me al he wanted he was comfortable with spirits, I was diffrent. A nightmare born of his insecurities, and childhood memories. Before I could contuine Leon actually had the balls to growl at me, I was suprised, even if it was pathetic afterwords, I was still amused.
"Stop it.." I whimpered covering my ears and eyes shuting them tightly. Rocking myself slight I stared into the darkness of my room, a tuneless song playing from my computer. I was perhaps delious by this point, still being sick and haven't having had sleep yet I couldn't handle what I so often took without thought. For some reason, my mind was twisting and turning.. Back to all those years ago. The pain stoped as suddenly as it had come on.. but it didn't change the fact I was tired.
"Remembering are we?" Laughing cynically I watched with a dilerious pleasure at his pain. It wasn't time just yet.. My body was still frail, but Leon was getting closer.. And closer to the realm beyond this world, the spirit. In time we would simply open this world, and close it to the next. In the realm of the Nightscape after all.
I watched as Leon crawled towords his bed and curl into the bedding. Perhaps not tonight, but I could wait. At least I knew for certain now. I'd felt the begining of the pulse. Weak, but enough to taste it. For now I'd contuine to torment the dear sweet kitsune. What awaited him, he could only dream of after all.
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Posted: Mon Apr 16, 2007 3:25 am
April 16th 2007~
A strange feeling was triggered within me, I was curled up, eyes closed firmly trying to block out the horrid vison, of both the eye..and the creature it's self. It was so close I could hear the sound's of it's menaching coo'ing, yet this time the sound was acompianed by Aki's menching chackle.
It was then when I opened my eyes, before me was a horror, one I wished to never be so deadly close to. It chackled at me once I saw it fully, as if amused.
"Why hello dear Leon, you remember me hm?" I hopped towords the now wailing teen, he seemed utterly distressed as if the very sight was painful. This was too easy. "It certainly has been a few years." He no longer could exnore me, he was more open to the Nightscape then ever before. My appearing was proof enough.
I tried curling tighter into my blanket, hoping this was all just a bad dream...And maybe it was. But as I tried to "wake" up I felt a deathly cold pass threw my body. I knew instantly it was Aki..But what the hell.. That only ment I wasn't sleeping. Yet as I opened a single eye, seeing them both, and taking in the presence of the eye.. and the bird I knew from some were within was named Cias, I felt my stomach sink lower, and lower still out of sheer anxiety.
"Yes boy your still in the human world." Aki snaped dryly with a chuckle. Yes indeed, Cias soon will take you away to the Nightscape, only to bring you back for mine and his dealing with him. "But not nessicarly for long~" The spirit mused.
Quirking a brow at the ghost I exnored him in favor of hoping onto Leon's bed and giving him a swift peck at. "Get out from under there." I hissed low and treatingly.
Whimpering I crawl out from under the covers to look at the two face to face. I can only imagine what they have instore for me.. I realize as I look at Cias alittle closer..While still having a weak body, he is not like Aki.. In the simple fact he is a stage above. Stronger, able to do more. The very idea causes me to shiver as I wrap myself tighly in my blanket, and begin to write in my journal.. Today was indeed a fate-full one by far.
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Posted: Tue May 15, 2007 1:33 am
May 15th 2007~ I could not help tourturing the boy so, he is so funny as he wails and pleads for me to go.. How could I? Leon is such a strange child, he fears me for what I am, in mind body and soul. I treatened to peck his eyes out one day and he quiet literally broke into a hysteria and tried to flee from me.
The morbid like pidgeon chackled as he stretched his wings gazing around the room he'd come to live in. There was Leon now, on his computer typing quietly. His eyes we're utterly blood shot, and the rings around his eyes dark. Since the birds arival the young man had not slept well in some time. Now he typed lazily in his journal it having been long enough he felt it was nessicary.
I am not sure what to do anymore. Cias and Aki both bring things to the table that..quiet literally are disturbing for diffrent reasons. I don't even like to sleep for long.. I'm afraid I wont wake up in the mortal realm this time. They both pull me onto the Nightscape so often being here in the Human realm is..Difficult.
Aki crossed his arms over his chest as he grabed hold of the over side grotest pidgeon and held fast onto it's beak. "You." He hissed low and treateningly. "Leave the damn kid alone, if he dies because he will not sleep I shall rip your beak from your face." He let go and focused his pale eyes onto the birds beadie black ones and glared icily.
Snaping at the now all but literally transparent figure of the child-like specter Cias snickered as he exsamined the pretty silver eye in his talons. "Do you take me for a fool Cias?~" The bird coo'd in a musing-like tone.
Aki laughed softly arching a brow. "why yes I do." He moved towords Leon, and passing a hand as cold as the grave threw Leon's skull and out the other side Aki turned the same cold gaze onto the human.
"Bed" He whispered eerily. It was not as if he cared about Leon's safty persay..But if the fool died, he would not have His human to feed from. Besides he was utterly amused with the fools idoicy, it would be a waste to see him gone
I flinched as Aki made his pressence known. He is no longer a will-o-wisp, his body as taken on that of a-human like body. A young child to be exsact, and it gave him more room to do as he pleased. Which was bad for me. "I.." My voice sounded hallow. I didn't disagree, I wasn't even sure what kept me awake. I had some primordial-like feeling coursing threw my veins, for my fear response was to say the least on an overdrive being so near beings composed entirely of fear, terror and the need to feed from me and these negative feelings. "perhaps." I finally say weakly as I close my eyes.
Then it hit Leon, what was he doing? By letting himself be so tired, he was prime game to be drug back into the Nightscape..No that was just it.. As he stared into the looming, leering eyes of the two near him he realised with fasinated horror this was apart of the plan..all along.
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