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okay kool...so here's the deal:

I've been with my gf for about three months now and I must tell you that this is the third time that we been going out. It's like an on and off realationship...thing is she swears that she loves me and that she cant live without me but I'm not sure that I feel the same...it used to be different but she has broken my heart too many times before. I just cant tell if what she says is ever true. She's the kind of girl that when you look at her you dont see any kind of emotions or anything. I never know what shes ever thinking and it bothers me. If you really love someone shouldn't you show it threw the look in their eyes or by the way they touch and speak to you? I sometimes feel like we're just friends. She used to be my world...but she lied to many times and I cant trust what she says anymore. I wana break it off with her so that I can think but shes everywhere and I never have time to myself cuz she's always trying to come over or calling me and if i go somewhere with a group of friends and I happen to mention to her where it is I'm at she'll show up and just invite herself while giving the eye to some of the girls that would be with us. She's too jealous...I dont know what to do anymore and when I see her I feel nothing...theres no feeling in me when it comes to her. I want us to be over but I dont want to be without her because when I try to imagine myself with her not by my side I get sad and depress...so does anyone know what I should do? cry

I want to leave her but everytime I'm about to end it I get all these flash backs of how we used to be and how it might all change if I give her a week or more to change. And when I do get these flash backs I get sad trying to imagine myself without her...I dont know...I dont understand anything anymore and I dont know what to think anymore. I feel confused and stupid... sad

There is something that I need help with....if it is possible.

Have you ever been so badly in love with someone that your heart aches at thought of not being with them? Or when you hear their voice you can't help but smile and be happy- with that annoying voice telling you that you have no hope or will aren't good enough?

Well I have this EVERY DAY! It is really heart-breakingly bad...I am not obsessed by any means before you get any ideas, it is just that I am uhh...head-over-heels in love with a guy that I know will never love me back. How do I know I hear you ask...because he is smitten with a girl who is quite literally perfect in every single way. Apart from the fact that he tells me this (which is like he is stabbing me with a blunt knife) his eyes light up when he sees her and he changes completely into a dithering idiot (bless him) when hes around her. And of course she knows that I...like him and dangles him infront of me taunting me...she isn't very nice really. I would say, "I'll just tell him...it can't get worse..." but I am WAY to shy to do that and also he is a close friend so I wouldn't want to ruin that...oh why can't love be as simple as stories?

Anyway I know I will never be good enough or able to be with him so any ideas of how to get over someone because hey I am open to all ideas!!!!

Thanks...

katie xxx