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I almost put this in LI, but somehow it lost all meaning among the "my mom got my brother pregnant" and "oh noes my a**" threads. The trolls there do not make me comfortable about asking for advice.

So, here goes.

I've always thought that I wasn't one of those abuseable women. You know, the ones you see on dr phil next to those jerks that lord over them. Talking about how they never knew they were being abused because that's how it'd always been. From Daddy's house to hubbie's house, you know. But with this guy...I don't know that you can call it abuse, that's my issue. But I'm rambling, that's cause I feel like crap.

Anyway, the first year was fine. But then we started fighting. Most of the times, I was wrong. I really was, and I knew it, and admitted it. But then we'd start fighting over things that seemed so stupid to me, and even though I didn't understand why, I was always sorry.

It always seems like I've done this horrible thing, even if I've only done something small, he'll just go on and on about it. Until I feel like I've killed the baby Jesus or something. It's like being lectured by my mother, only it hurts more, because I take it to heart.

I don't even know what to call it, but I need advice. Am I just being sensitive? Is this is a problem?

It isn't an issue of abuse as it is so much an issue of control. When one party in a relationship takes most of the "power" for themselves, then it becomes unbalanced, which could lead to worse problems. This needs to be handled soon before it does become worse. A relationship will not last if one party is always the one who is "wrong" and sorry while the other is always "right". It isn't meant to work that way.

There isn't much that I can suggest that you do aside from talking to him about it. If he realizes what he is doing, then perhaps he can work to change things to a degree that you can both live with. Compromise will be everything here. Many relationships depend upon them.

Lastly, if you find that the situation cannot be resolved, well...consider the worst case scenario, as much as it may hurt to think about. But it would be better than being trapped in a relationship like that overall.

I don't do the whole "love sucks/anti-love" thing anymore. I just haven't felt that way for a while now. Those days are long gone. sweatdrop

It was a combination of both that changed me, actually.