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 Posted: Mon Jan 22, 2007 7:42 pm
The sun was slowing inching it's way across the bright, blue sky before the clouds were starting to turn that golden orange color. A gentle breeze ruffled his mane as Ravi had went a little distance away from Sevati's family, he needed some time to think. There was so much going on in his life, he hasn't seen his mother for quite some time. The last time he saw her, he was upset and hurt, but now, that all didn't seem to matter anymore. It was all like a distance memory that had faded from time.
Golden eyes watched the sun trek across the sky, admiring it's strenght and consistency. How was it the sun never changed, never strayed from it's path across the sky while they strayed far from their paths in life? How can things get so out of hand and all hope seems to be lost? Those questions would never have answers to, things would never seem complete in life and that is one of it's greatest journeys: Trying to discover the ways of life. What was his path of life? Why was he here with Sevati and her family? What purpose would it be to him for him to stay here? He had started to question himself of what he really wanted.
Ears flicked slightly taking in all the gentle sounds of the savannah around him, but not paying much mind to them. Who would really harm him? A full grown half-Firekin male? Even though he was as gentle as could be. He could feel the emptiness start to swell inside of him. Something was missing in his life and he didn't know what it was. Was he missing his family? Or was it something more substantial that he needed to figure out on his own? For some reason, the latter one seem to be the key to everything. He missed his mother dearly, what would she think of him now? Trailing behind a family going off into a distant pride with him having no real purpose of being there? He felt like a failure and Sevati's words just made the hurt rise back inside of him. Her words pierced his heart, even if they were only half true, she didn't know him well enough to say such things about him.
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 3:03 pm
Lime green eyes were focused on the ground as Sevati had slowly ventured away from her father and sister. So many things were going on right now that she was so lost and confused at the moment. Guilt made her wince at the recollection of the harsh words she spoke to Ravi. Perhaps she had been too caught up in the moment that she didn't think about what kind of impact her words would have on Ravi. She hasn't seen the male all day and worry crept through her. He was still healing and he couldn't afford to be hurt again. Never mind the fact that his one eye would take forever to heal.
It took a while and a bit of walking before her lime green eyes lifted up off of the ground as she had caught wind of his scent. Her breath was caught in her throat as she stood still, staring at his silouette in the distance. The soft golden light reflected off his pelt, giving him an ethereal glow to him. It made her even more guilter as she stared at the male. Why was she missing his prescence? It made her feel slightly alone when he wasn't with her, like they shared a bond as friends. It made her happy to think of it in those terms. She was silently debating with herself on whether or not she should approach him and apologize.
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Posted: Tue Jan 23, 2007 3:20 pm
Her words haunted him in the back of his mind as Ravi sighed heavily. That, was not a good idea as he winced slightly in pain and closed his eyes. Oh, why was fate so cruel to him? He should of just stayed with his mother and Kol instead of wandering off and getting himself into such a mess. Teal mane fell over his eyes as he was getting lost in thought before a familiar, sweet scent drifted towards him. Ears perked up as he slowly raised his head to gaze out at the savannah around him. What was she doing out here? Checking up on him like a worried mother? THat thought made his eyes narrow slightly in annoyance.
It wasn't until he turned his head to gaze at the pure white figure in the distance. Delicately tipped in crimson fur, it was hard to fanthom that she was half-Firekin like himself. He was so much more red than she was. But, her delicate features made his features soften as his gaze was warming up. How could he be angry at her when she knew very little about life? She was just barely a young adult and in that awkward stage when she does not understand much. His golden eyes locked in with her lime green ones.
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Posted: Thu Jan 25, 2007 6:16 am
Golden eyes bore into her lime green orbs as Sevati couldn't hold the gaze any longer. Guilt welled too much in her that it made her heart hurt by the mere sight of the male. Why did he affect her so much? How come the mere thought of him leaving her made sadness wash over her? She didn't know what these feelings were and she was confused. Was she attached to him because he was like her father, a Firekin like their family? Or that he was part Firekin like herself? She didn't know the real answer and was confused by everything. Memories were starting to beat against her mental barrier, memories of the time they spent together, hurt and covered in blood. Would she always remember the smell? The way it's stained her coat, it will never be pure white anymore. Her whiteness has been tainted by blood that cannot be washed away. It will always have a red sheen to it, a reminder of the words that lioness spoke to her...death.
Shaking those thoughts out of her head, they were just getting way out of hand at the moment and she needed control. Ashamed at herself, she cautiously picked her way closer to Ravi. Before she got close to him, she sat down some distance away so that she wouldn't have to feel as guilty about the words she spoke to him. Not that it would help any, his scent filled her senses and she couldn't help but not think about him. What was happening to her? Ears were drooped in defeat as she softly mumbled to the male, "I...I just wanted to say I'm sorry about earlier," She paused, who knew she could have such a temper, must be her Firekin half, "I...I...just had too many things going on and it wasn't right for you."
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Posted: Thu Jan 25, 2007 6:28 am
As Sevati's gaze tore away from his own, Ravi could see all those afflicting emotions swirl in confusion in those green orbs. Poor girl, she was so lost and confused, just like he used to be. Used to be? Why had he used the past tense on the verb, did he have a purpose now? Secretly, deep down, it was a comfort to see her come after him. He didn't understand why, nor did he feel like finding out, but the fact that she had come to find him meant something to him. His ears perked up eagerly as she slowly made her way towards him. Why was she walking like that, was she scared? They had been through a terrible ordeal together, but petty words wouldn't change the bond they had created together that day. It would be immature to let it get to him. Though, he knew it shamed her and that she couldn't stop thinking about the blood that wouldn't get off of her coat. No matter how many times he told her that her coat was as white as it could be, it wouldn't matter. He had stopped trying to help her get past it, this was something she needed to do on her own, just like he had come to do himself.
Hearing her soft words made his tense posture soften as his ears turned towards her. Why didn't she come closer and speak to him? Why did she have to be so far away? Though, he wouldn't let her get off so easily. She needed to learn some lessons about keeping her temper. The first time is always the worst, but things get better over time. He looked at her before turning his head to speak gruffly, "That was pretty rude of you, to assume that I know nothing Sevati. What do you know of me?" He sneered for show, hoping to help illicit a response, "I don't know much of you and you don't know much of me. But, I won't have you treating me like that. Even if you're mad at your sister or whatever, there is no excuse for you to take it out on me!"
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Posted: Thu Jan 25, 2007 6:36 am
Ravi's words came as a shock to Sevati. Here she was trying to apologize to him and he's just throwing it back in her face like it's nothing! Lime green eyes narrowed, completely missing the fact that he's not mad but trying to make a point. There was much she needed to learn, she was pretty dense and naive for the most part. If she had actually paid attention to his body language, she would have realized that he wasn't serious. Her tail flicked in irritation at his rebutal, anger was slowly rising in her. "I am trying to apologize to you, Ravi! Can't you just take that and forget about everything I said?" She huffed angrily, this was getting on her nerves. Who knew they could both be easily hot-tempered? "I did not mean to take out my anger on you, but that's what happened! I can't change the past or what I did, I just have to live with it!"
How could he be acting like such a cub at the moment? She was chiding him in her mind, but not taking the time to actually look at herself. "Rude of me, aren't you being just as rude right now!"
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Posted: Thu Jan 25, 2007 6:48 am
This is exactly what he was looking for. Ravi mused at Sevati as she was getting all riled up again. His golden eyes were twinkling brightly as he tried his hardest to keep himself from laughing. This was all just too much. Cracking a smile, it grew on his features lighting up his face. Closing the distance between the two, he made sure to touch her shoulder gently with his muzzle. Softly, he spoke to her, "Hey...don't get all worked up now," Concern was written in his eyes as he looked at her. She actually looked kind of cute all riled up. Blinking, he wondered where that thought came from?
Shifting his gaze back towards the sky, the sun was almost touching the horizon. The sky would soon be black and full of twinkling stars. "I wanted to help prove a point to you, Sevati. You have a short temper that you need to keep under control. Even the little things that bother you, you need to just let them go and not worry about it." He knew from experience. He should have just let all the anger he had at his mother and Kol go, but did he? No, he was immature and kept it boiling up inside of him. Eyes sadden for a second at that thought, he missed his mother greatly and wasn't sure if he would ever see her again. He was so far away from where his mother was and the fact that he didn't want to leave Sevati made it all the more painful. He had left on bad terms and he just hoped that his mother wouldn't be thinking poorly of him.
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Posted: Thu Jan 25, 2007 7:09 am
Expecting him to verbally attack her back, it was sufficient to say that Sevati was surprised when he came over to her and spoke to her tenderly. Why the sudden change in attitude? It wasn't until his words were taken in did she feel embarassed as she dropped her head. Why did he always have to be right? Leaning against Ravi, she took in his comfort of being so close. What would she do without him? Resting her head on his neck, she closed her eyes and exhaled slowly. Calming herself down, he was true, she couldn't let all the small things get to her. She was now an adult and needed to take responsibilities for her actions.
Though, her green eyes watched him closely as she tilted her head with a questioning gaze. "Ravi...can I ask you what's on your mind? I want to know you...and for you to know me." If they were going to be good friends, they needed to know everything about one another and not keep any secrets.
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Posted: Thu Jan 25, 2007 7:31 am
As Sevati rested against him, something inside Ravi swelled. An unknown emotion that he's never felt before for anyone. Unknowingly curling his tail around the white lioness, he turned to gaze out at the horizon. The sun was setting so beautifully, golds and pinks glittered the clouds before her question brought him out of his reverie. It was a very personal question, one he wouldn't normally tell just anyone. Placing a lot of trust in Sevati, he decided to tell her just exactly what he was thinking.
"I was thinking about my mother. She's the only family member I have, I don't know my father and I didn't have any siblings," He wondered what it would have been like to have a normal family: two parents and siblings, but that would never happen so why dwell on the "what ifs"? He continued, "I left angry and hurt, I felt she had betrayed me by trying to have Kol teach me how to fight. So, I left without saying anything and now I regret it. I don't know if I'll ever see her again." He turned to gaze at Sevati, the golden light made her looked even more ethereal. His heart was beating quite heavily against his chest as he spoke softly, "I don't know if I'll ever return since I don't want to leave you. Friends should stay together, right?" That was the bare truth, he was grown accustomed to her company and wanted to be around her.
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Posted: Mon Jan 29, 2007 6:58 am
Lime green eyes soften at the unaccustomed gentleness that Ravi was displaying. His gestures had not gone unnoticed, though it made Sevati feel warm and secure. While she tried to compare it to her father, this feeling she felt was slightly different. Though, she didn't know why it was different as she didn't know that love for another and love for family were the same and different at the same time. She had much to learn and what better teacher to have than Ravi.
As he talked about his family, she could feel his saddness in his voice as he spoke about his family. While she was lucky to have a family, it was slowly falling apart. Her mother wasn't with her anymore along with her one sister. All she had left was her father and Ausi...Ausi was still a touchy subject at the moment. She was still confused about her sister, whether she wanted her back or not. Gently, she spoke softly to Ravi, "I am sure she doesn't think badly of you. You are her son and no matter what, nothing will change that. Sometimes, parents try to do what they feel is best for the cubs," Like how her father tried to push her to speak with her sister, "I don't want to keep you from seeing your mother again. I would love to meet her someday. I bet she's a wonderful lioness, since I think you turned out quite well, Ravi. I sometimes worry about my family...it seems to be falling apart."
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 1:19 pm
Golden eyes soften as the expression on Sevi's face was as clear as day. Ravi could tell that she was distressed about the topic and that he was not the only one affected by it. Just as confused as Sevi, he didn't know what his mother thought about him or if she even thought about him at all. No, he shook his head, he was sure she thought about him. Ears drooped down slightly, "There were things that shouldn't have been said and I regret acting out the way that I did. My mother was only trying to think of what's best for me and I should have realized that sooner." He sighed, why was he so conceited back then, only thinking about himself?
That fight with that green lioness had taught him quite a few things, that he should be grateful for everything that he has. Everything could have ended that day had it not been for Sevati intervening when she did. She was like the light that he's been missing all his life, the thing that made him keep on going each and every day. Had it not been for her, he would still be out there, wounded and alone. Things had shaped up for the male and everyday he was grateful for having her in his life.
Though, his head perked up at her fear. It was something he would have never expected her to say. She seemed to have a close relationship with her father and sister, although they were getting back on better terms. But, it wasn't until then that he realized he's never met her mother nor her other sister. "I'm sure she would love you, Sevati. I don't know where she is, we were always on the move. As much as I'd love to take you to see her, I have a feeling that she'll be gone by the time that that happens," He told her gently, though it was the truth. He would just have to accept the fact that he has lost his mother and won't see her anymore. She will be but a loving memory remembered in his heart.
"It might be falling apart, but you can still pick up some of the pieces and put them together. You should be lucky that you know both of your parents and siblings...I didn't know my father and I have a feeling I don't want to know him, considering the situation that I had been born into." His gold eyes turned to look at her, "You don't know this, but my mother was a slave to the Firekin. I was born during her slavery and I can't even imagine all the god-awful things those lions did to my mother. I was born a slave, a slave to those red monsters in the desert who I've never seen until now," The painful memories of the past were slightly blurry as he was just a cub at the time, but it was still a memory nevertheless. "My mother kept me hidden all day, I had no contact with anyone but my Auntie Kiburi and my mother." He looked down at his paws, slightly ashamed of his past and to be telling this to Sevati. He had hoped to keep the past just what it was, but she had a right to know. A right to know why he was terrified of her father and of fighting. "Sevati, I had never seen a Firekin until I met you and your father. You can't even imagine the fear that ran through me when I saw him. A figure, the very blood of which I have feared my whole life, standing before me. And to learn that you are half-Firekin, like myself, I was just so shocked! Your family is nothing like I've ever imagined what the Firekin are like..." His voice trailed off quietly, unsure of what else to say.
The sun had lowered below the horizon, just half of the golden disc was left. The very essence of which he was named after and strived to be everything that he could be. The half-ling was lost in a world where nothing made sense anymore.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 1:46 pm
Listening to Ravi talk, Sevati's eyes shot up in surprise. Ravi was born a slave?! That is something she's never, not even in her wildest dreams, would have thought. No wonder he didn't want to be around her father all that much, to see the thing that you have lived your whole fearing...she couldn't even begin to fanthom the emotions he has gone through. As her eyes roam over the male, something made her want to reach out and comfort the male. His eye was starting to heal, though it would be awhile before he could actually see out of it clearly. And his limp, his shoulder was hurt pretty badly so that would take a lot of time.
Softly, she rested her head against his neck as his tealish mane clouded her vision. Things are so rough for him, she just hoped things got better for him. "I...I would have never guessed, Ravi." She admitted, "My father left the Firekin long before I was born because he didn't like the way they ran things in that pride. But your mother and you were a slave? Wow..." It was so hard to grasp that concept, a slave. "I can't even imagine that your life was like back then, Ravi. If my father or mother had to hide me from everyone, I would have gone insane." Her lime green eyes were teary as she blinked away a few stray tears, she was getting all emotional now. "Ravi, you have nothing to fear here. My father is nothing like those monsters and neither are you."
Eyes shifted up towards the sky, watching the first stars start twinkling in the twilight, "I am here for you, Ravi."
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Posted: Thu Feb 01, 2007 7:27 am
The gentle gesture made Ravi smile slowly, it made everything feel...right. Turning his head slightly, Sevati was the right size to place his head on top of her's. His golden eyes closed as he just breathed in her scent. It wasn't until then, the heart-pounding need to protect her and be with her did he realize that this was something more than friendship. He has had very few friends in the past, but none of them, not even his mother, made him feel the way that Sevati did. These feelings that he felt, they were different than before. Everything seemed warm and right whenever he was with Sevati. Could it possibly be...love? Had he fallen for Sevati? He did not know if he did or not, since he's had no real model for him to follow on what loving another meant. Sighing softly, for some reason, that seemed to make the most sense to him.
The cracking of her voice indicated to him that she was starting to get all worked up. Gently, he shhed her. "Shh, it is the past Sevati. I can't change it and there is nothing I can do about it. I have just come to accept that I lack a lot of skills in life because of my past and that is all I can do," He paused briefly, "It's not something I like to go parading around to others about, I am ashamed of my past and what has happened. I just wanted to let you know where I was coming from and to help explain my actions. Your father might be kind, but I cannot help but fear what he is." His voice trailed off quietly, he was afraid of her father. Her father is like the monster haunting his dreams...even if he was nice, he was still a full-blooded Firekin. A lion he was taught when he was really young to stay away from. What luck would he have to get involved with a family of Firekins? He couldn't help but laugh at the irony.
Though, Sevati's gentle voice and caring nature just drew him away from any awful thoughts and back towards her. He couldn't help but smily at her. What a great bond they were creating, ever since that day, he's barely been apart from her. Though, if he really has fallen for her, he didn't know if he should tell her or not. Should he risk their friendship for some silly emotions that he was felling? What about Sevati? Would it be fair for her? He sighed quietly before opening his eyes to look up at the sky, the stars were starting to twinkle brightly. "I just hope to find a place to settle down. Ever since we ran away from the desert, I've never stayed at a place for too long. I want to have a home, a place where I can live."
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Posted: Sun Feb 04, 2007 10:01 am
A smile couldn't help but grow on her features as Sevati's lime green eyes looked towards the twinkling stars. It was very peaceful out tonight, and hopefully every other night would be like this. Wanting so very much to ease his pain and unable to do so, she would just have to trust him and his judgment. Sighing softly, she leaned into the male and closed her eyes as well. "I just wish I could help ease your pain. You've gone through so much, you deserve a chance to have a peaceful life."
His final words caught her offguard as she didn't realize that he wanted something she wanted. Being apart of that "pride" where she was born in, she wanted to experience what a real pride is. "The place where I am from hated us, though I didn't see any of it. I'm sure that the pride my father is taking me too is quite better than our last," She paused, "You're welcomed to come with us, I'd like it if you did."
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Posted: Mon Feb 19, 2007 4:46 pm
As the sun was setting, Ravi couldn't help but feel all his problems go away with the sun. The male was at ease with the white female, his white angel. A smile slowly made his way along his facial features as he nudged her gently. "You have done more than your fair share in helping me, even if you did not realize you were doing so. I am at more ease with you and your family than I have ever felt in my life. I don't have to always look over my shoulder to see if the Firekin are chasing my mother and I to the far ends of the earth." He pushed himself up slowly, they should be heading back towards her family before they worry about her too much. His golden eyes were soft with affection, he was more worried about her than he was about himself.
Turning his head back to glance at her, "I would be glad to accept your offer," His breath was caught in his throat. A chance at true happiness? A chance to feel what it's like to be content in a place to call home...that was worth everything in the world. "We should be heading back...it's late."
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