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 Posted: Tue Jan 02, 2007 5:04 pm
Lately I've been having panic attacks, ones that make it hurt to breathe, and hard to concentrate on either but all the negative aspects of myself, fictional or real. One week was horrible, I would have about 5 a day, some would last a couple of hours. During the week of semester exams, I ended up in a bathroom huddled up in a ball barely able to breathe, balling my eyes out because I couldn't get out of a loop of negative thoughts. A friend of mine found me, and held me until I could breathe better, and then she dragged me out and into the theatre where she attempted to cheer me up, and get me out of the panic attack that was begining to make me light-headed.
A lot of my panic attacks are associated with spanish, my teacher has degraded to the point that I have no confidence what's so ever in spanish while I'm anywhere near her. My spanish teacher doesn't intentionally go out to destroy my confidence, she's even tried to help me improve, she just doesn't know how to control her mouth. Yet, I can't get her in trouble because she has a 98% pass rate on the test that I have to take at the end of the year, so statistically she's an amazing teacher, and no matter how much fuss I raise, nothing will be done, except set her against me. Which in a class where so much is depended on speaking grades, it would be suicidal of me to anger her in such a way.
Currently my parents are not on an insurance policy so I can't even go to a doctor to get any medical help. For now I have to settle with waiting for the panic attacks to end. They've just become too frequently for me to relax, it's put me on edge, and that just makes it easier for me to have one. I just think it helps me to rant a bit about it, vent a little, attempt to keep calm.
I find it a bit ironic that a good close friend of mine is also having a problem with panic attacks lately, but she's been going through a lot of s**t in the past week, so I can understand why she's having them.
There, now I've ranted, so does anyone else have problems with panic attacks?
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 10:30 am
I've only had a panic attack type thing once... and that was more of a seizure. I know my friend has them. I usually use self relaxation techniques and depersonalization in order to get my self out of it.
Like where nothing touches you... And just seeing the world and being liek none of this matters and some other things. That usually works. Even the self degrading thoughts I can get stuck in... I can usually find a way out of it when I go into the whole everyone has something good and bad about them selves and its not really good and well other things...
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 2:00 pm
Mmm, those methods work well for me when I'm at home, but I can't really use them in the middle of a class.
I have my guidance counselor looking for methods to keep me calm in class without drawing attention to myself now.
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