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I've recently admitted to myself that I'm bi, after going through at least three years of "nah, it's just a phase" or "nah, I'm not REALLY attracted to her" or "I can't be gay, that's inconvenient!" But now that I've finally realized this, life has been a little easier. It's nice knowing yourself, etc etc.

However, I'm still... perplexed. Do I REALLY like guys? Granted, I have the occasional crush on a male actor and/or character, but I have never EVER crushed on a guy I actually knew. I went through all of high school without feeling sexually attracted to a single guy. None. Nada. Zip. I get close to a guy, and I feel my body close off. It's almost like I'm frightened of being intimate with them. With girls... it's completely different. I feel comfortable. Fearless.

So what on EARTH is this? Should I even try to give it a lable? I get gleeful over male eye candy (Johnny Depp, Jude Law, Jamie Bell, etc...), but I'm not comfortable with guys at ALL. Am I actually a lesbian? Am I neurotic? Or I am simply bi and neurotic?

If anyone else has experienced something like this, please let me know. Advice is loved.

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i think that sounds horrible, i mean heck. of course its terrible. but...if your not atrackted to guys then maybe your not looking at the finer things about guys. Or maybe you've had a bad experience, their are several reasons. If thats how you are, thats how you are. Accept it, it makes it so much more easier. Also try talking one on one with a friend, it always helps