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Terminate Me by Mysterious_0ne

Why do I do the sins that have already done me wrong?
Why am I so weak when I was just recently so strong?
Why did I let go to whatever was left of sanity
To be lower than the rest of humanity?

Oh please terminate me
I'm a terrible disease
You must deny me and just obliterate this disasterous creature
Before you get to know all my negative features

I will destroy all that is good
I don't do what I should
Why am I resorting back to old ways?
You think a girl would learn from past mistakes

I have lost all the dignity that I just recently gained
I keep failing to just simply change
I don't want to be this anymore
I thought I was over being a wh0re

I guess good things really never last
People still can't see through my mask
I have such an urge to be loved, I throw myself out to the world
But no one catches this pathetic excuse of a girl

I let myself be used by everyone
My second reign has just begun
But I want this to end
I don't want to pretend

I keep lying to make myself feel better inside
I still know that this fake love is a lie
But do you think I can resist
Being held and kissed?

They make me feel like I have a reason to live for a short while
And it's the only time I put on a somewhat-real smile
The other times are just hard cold lies
Please just tell me goodbye

Get rid of me before I do wrong again
I won't let the blade be my only true friend
This beast was better off in her cage
Because I just can't be tamed

I cause havoc on this unprepared Earth
And they in turn treat me like dirt
Oh please terminate me
I'm a terrible disease

You must deny me and just obliterate this disasterous creature
Before you get to know all my negative features
I will destroy all that is good
I don't do what I should

Why am I resorting back to old ways?
You think a girl would learn from past mistakes
I hate me for hurting myself more
Just say it-I know I'm a wh0re

I thought I was done with that life, but it came back to haunt my dark soul
My heart is becoming blacker than the fire's coal
My mind is blind of what I keep doing to myself
I keep coming back to my own personal hell

Please prevent me from doing anymore damage here
Breathing another second returns fear
I don't want to be alive anymore because I feel unworthy to live
I never get anything back for all that I give

And I give away all my strength and dignity
I throw away my body and my stability
Don't you see how horrible I am?
And you want to be my friend?

I keep falling back into the hole I just climbed out of
You think I would learn I'm unworty of feeling love
I keep making everything worse
You'd think it was a curse

Stop it! Stop me please
Stop this disease
Don't let all my wrong doings continue on
Is it amusing to watch me, this fraud?

I'm nothing but everything that is wrong and bad
I wish I was strong like before, now I'm just sad
If you want to help me, you just have to do one little favor
I swear when you're done, you'll say "I hate her"

Oh please terminate me
I'm a terrible disease
You must deny me and obliterate this disasterous creature
Before you get to know all my negative features

I will destroy all that is good
I don't do what I should
Why am I resorting back to old ways?
You'd think a girl would learn from past mistakes

I don't know why I haven't died yet
Every day comes another regret
When they hold me and touch me so nice
I sometimes feel that it's right

But deep inside I know that it's not
Yet I still cannot stop
My body's like a toy that just gets played with all around
Now just keep it deep underneath this cold ground

So that way I don't hurt anyone for yet another time
Don't whisper to me another lie
I'm sick of being me and there's no way to clean my slate
So murder me because it's already too late

Take me away from the world because I just can't belong
I've been unstable for too damn long
I need to stop, but the only way I can ends in a catastrophic suicide
But right now, that sounds like it would be so nice

I can't say in enough words all the pain
So just drown me in the rain
I am just too insane
I've played enough games

Oh please terminate me
I'm a terrible disease
You must deny me and obliterate this disasterous creature
Before you get to know all my negative features

I destroy all that is good
I don't do what I should
Why am I resorting back to old ways?
You think a girl would learn from past mistakes

You can't tame me
You can only hang me
I just hate me
So please just terminate me

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