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 Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2005 12:50 am
Every woman needs a place to write down her inner thoughts and feelings.
I thought it would be fun to have a "colective" journal.
Things that we would put in a journal, and not exactly create a thread for
thoes thoughts, but place them here.
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Posted: Tue Jun 14, 2005 12:57 am
Dear GGG journal.
Today I am finding myself doing something, I never thought I would do.
I am actually planning a Gaia Wedding.
If the two were not such good online friends, I never would have accepted
the offer to help.
I am really likeing the casino here on Gaia.
It's more like an arcade.
We get to buy tokens and get tickets for fun prizes,
I just wish that the amount of tickets needed for the prizes I want,
wasn't so rediculously marked.
on a personal note. My cousin is doing better, but he isn't
takeing his "Mental" treatment as seriously as the family
would like him to do.
*sigh* Also I have finaly figured out my own heart and what it is I need.
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2005 9:16 am
( I like this idea)
Dear GGG Journal
Today I find myself as vexed as ever in the subject of what to do with my future. I find myself in the most unfortunate predicament of not knowing what the hell to study (i.e. what to do when I grow up). Problem is I already grew up. I am really passionate about singing, acting and writing. However I have an overwhelming desire to make a good life for myself an none of my passions guarantee a pay check. I have thought to study something that will let me pay the bills while I write my best seller or work on getting singed on a record label or make a movie. Which brings me back to the subject of which subject to make a bachelors.
oh, well...
On my day to day I am incredibly tired after another long night of work.
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Posted: Wed Jun 15, 2005 10:05 am
[ Message temporarily off-line ]
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Posted: Thu Jun 16, 2005 12:00 am
Dear GGG journal
I don't know if this is a momentous occasion or not, but I finnaly
got my Little Sister and her lazy a** husband, moved into thier new
appartment. It's a 4 bedroom Two bathroom house.
Also I painted her old appartment so that the land lord would
give them back thier deposit.
Silly me, I thought when she got married that her husband
would take care of her. Oh how wrong I was!
Now I have to clean up after his mistakes, so that my sister doesn't
suffer from them.
Sorry this was a bit of a rant, but now I feel better.
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Posted: Thu Jun 16, 2005 6:55 am
Dear GGG Journal
I find my self fuming today. Someone on a forum in Barton Town asked me to submit a sample post because she did not know wether or not to allow me to join her thread. Now I sent her a very good one. In fact one which is part of a novel I am writing. She said that my writing was choppy and forced. WHAT THE HELL!!!! True I did not revise it first but it was an excellent piece of writing. Not to boast but the editor liked it. *sigh* Of course I did write it so I am not the most objective person although I am highly critical of my own work. In truth what fumes me was her attitude. I read the thread and her writing was lacing not very rich in vocabulary , predictable and uninteresting. Also there were only boys in her thread so, I don't know maybe she did not want another woman in it. Maybe it's just my hurt ego. But it was an Ann Rice thread and she is my favorite author and one of the main influences in my writing stile. Well, in truth it just hurts to be rejected I guess.
In other news, I am working hard and still don't know what to study.
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Posted: Fri Jun 17, 2005 1:47 am
Dear GGG Journal,
well i just found this but i also absolutely love this idea. i have had a hard week. i haven't heard from my daughters dad in about two weeks and i am finally about over him. he hasn't been very good to me or our daughter. i am finally starting to realize that i deserve so much better and i am starting to look for another guy to be happy with. i just wish i could find a guy who likes kids and lives close and can accept me for who i am cuz i'm really not that pretty and i could definately lose some weight. i also have no self-esteem because my ex shot it to hell and made me feel like no one could love me but him. thats part of the reason i stayed with him for so long(3years). i just wanna be happy again so i don't rub my lonliness off on my daughter. oh well. i guess one of these days......
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Posted: Fri Jun 17, 2005 7:54 pm
Dear GGG Journal,
Oh my god, my first class is over. This one hasn't been nearly as difficult as the teachers tried to scare us with, but it was still trying to shove a semester worth of class into two weeks! And there are two more, starting again Monday, and there's several things I've got to get done before that. And I don't have internet access at my place yet...and half of the next class is online. !!! Crazy.
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Posted: Fri Jun 17, 2005 8:08 pm
Dear GGG journal,
last night was crazy! I don't think I've seen so many drunk rednecks in a barn in my life @_@ But it was all fun! Corona crazy last night, went skinning dipping in Stoner Creek, with my trusty Corona of course and my boyfriend, and man did we have a blast! Of course, the next morning I was sore and felt like a train smashed me in the head, but it was all good.
I wish I could do that again!
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Posted: Fri Jun 17, 2005 9:32 pm
Dear GGG Journal
Today was a very long day. I have not slept in like 24 hours. I went and had my hair done today. I changed from a very dark almost brown hair to a blond in front and a very light reddish brown on back. I loved it! Best part was the person I work with (which is unbearable and a hypocrite) was so shocked and jealous she almost choked on what she was eating when she saw me. So my 24 plus hours with no sleep payed of. Also I just had to do something to boost my self esteem.
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Posted: Fri Jun 17, 2005 9:54 pm
today my dad came home after two weeks gone. just in time, because my son was going crazy being home alone with me. he is used to big households, we lived with five other people for over a year, then stay at his dad's house, which is his parents' house, with four other people. then we come back to dad's and it's just the three of us, but he is gone a lot so just the two of us. there is no where to walk to in enid like there was in alva, so we just stay in. luckily, he has a fenced in backyard here.
he has been counting a lot, but once he gets to three he slips into spanish. i worked with him a little tonight, taught him some japanese too, and went over the counting in spanish, english, then german. his pronunciation is getting so much better, and now he knows how to say, "my name is chuy" and "i am american" in japanese. i think about teaching him to count in italian, but i think it is too close to spanish and would just confuse him now, but it also might teach him attention to detail. i think i'll wait a year or two.
we are staying with one of my dad's friends for tonight, then going to see abuela and abuelo this weekend. i want to teach chuy "happy father's day" (or the equivalent) in spanish. i'll have to remember to ask papi.
finally started my orthotricyclin, so i'm super happy about being normal again soon.
i have four canker sores now. i hate my genes sometimes.
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Posted: Sun Jun 19, 2005 1:42 am
Dear GGG Journal,
Well same old stuff, differant day. My daughters father is still not in contact with me and i am really starting to get pissed at him. Hes such a jerk!! He doesn't even pay child support to me and i don't have a job right now so i really need the money. But the only way to get him to pay is to take him to court and i really don't have the money to do that. Hopefully i can come up with it so i can start getting some form of support from him. neways, on a brighter note today was my sisters graduation party and it was really fun. but it seemed so short compared to mine when i graduated. but i think maybe mine seemed longer because i did it with my best friend too and we had twice as many people. i guess thats all for now.
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 12:30 pm
Dear GGG Journal,
Today I wrote my first of 3 exams that I have to write this week. Today was my fench exam and tomorrow I have chemistry and socials. I think I did alright on my exam today... but I'm just going to have to cram for my chem test cause I don't want to fail! After that I'll be free for another year!! I'm very excited for summer!! This year's summer is going to be epic.
My new kitten I got about a month ago is growing by the day. She's growing to be a little chunker, with is good cause there's more of her to squish. Her name is Bacardi, and she the most adorable kitty you'll ever see. She's snoozing on my la as I write this. I'll try and put up some pictures of her when my scanner decides so work again.
I'm feeling confused about this guy I've liked for a long time. I know for a fact that he likes me as well but we jus haven't made anything official. We always hang out and flirt and the usual stuff, but we haven't really verbalized where we are in our relationship. I'm afraid to say anything, cause I don't want to ruin what we have going, but I also want this to develop into something. I don't really know what I'm going to do... and I don't know how much longer I can take until I just burst and spill everything to him. I hope I don't scare him away because I REALLY like this guy.
Well I suppose I should go and study to try and get my mind off other things, so I guess that's all for now. heart
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 1:13 pm
Dear GGG Journal
No much happening today. I went shopping but that's about it. The heat outside was unbearable so as soon as I got home I got in the pool. This of course was a challenge seeing as I had recently had my hair done and water and blowers don't mix. Other than that another lazy day except for tonight I guess I have to go to work, sadly. But I am saving up for a trip I'm taking on July. My sister comes home tomorrow after a month in Europe so i'll let you know how that goes.
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Posted: Mon Jun 20, 2005 3:19 pm
Dear GGG
I cut off all my hair last night. My curls just barely brush my shoulders now.
I do this sometimes, like when I need something in my life to change, and it isn't, then I cut my hair short, or I dye it green or blue or red or all three...
I can't stand that I don't have a job, it's driving me crazy. A couple days ago I had to ask my mother for some money so that I could buy my husband a birthday present. I mean, I wasn't about to ask my husban for the money.
Oh well, not much more I can do but to get back out there and hand out more resumes.
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