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 Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2006 8:36 am
Dream :
Dream date: 28th November
In my dream i awake at late of night and check my cell phone to see the time. but i see an SMS. it's from him. saying "I want to be normal again." and i reply "Finish your business then come to me" or something like that. . . Dark dream again but this time no candles or other things.
"i want to be normal again" was the thing he always told me whenever he was too depressed, too tired of his past life. those times i try to cheer him up saying being normal doesn't mean to be someone regular. never worked.
Dream date: 25th November
It was a dark place, it was so dark as if it was liquid around my room. there was only a red candle burning if i'm not wrong. I saw him and he talked to me in a strange language. His eyes were almost red and he had a scary impression on his face. he told me something about harmonium then i saw his claws. without hesitation he killed me. then i woke up. it was after midnight probably 3-4 a.m. i didn't have my clock with me. i couldn't sleep then i opened the light and meditate.
is it a warning from him? or i'm just paranoid? what you think?
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my ex-boyfriend believed in something like this. he never told me what it exactly is . he said "you're not ready, i want a normal girlfriend away from these things." (so sad we broke up and i returned to my studies XD)
i saw many things written on walls and ceiling of his room. "names" he said "names of the gates of harmonium" or something like candles or candleholders? i really don't remember clearly.
anyone knows anything about this?
if i'm in wrong forum please forgive me.
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Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2006 2:10 pm
I've never heard of the Gates of Harmonium, but I've had a slightly similar happening my sophmore year. A fellow student had told me that I was a Gate Keeper of Death. I didn't understand him myself, but please. What names were on the ceiling? Do you remember any of them?
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Posted: Thu Nov 16, 2006 4:19 pm
Maybe the names you saw were these?
Quote: Nixon in China Opera in Three Acts (1985-87) The Death of Klinghoffer Opera in Two Acts (1990-91) I Was Looking at the Ceiling and Then I Saw the Sky Song Play in Two Acts (1995) El Nino A Nativity Oratorio (1999-2000) Orchestra Common Tones in Simple Time (1979) Harmonium For Chorus and Large Orchestra (1980-81) Shaker Loops Version for String Orchestra (1983) Harmonielehre (1984-85) The Chairman Dances Foxtrot for Orchestra (1985) Tromba Lontana Fanfare for Orchestra (1985) Short Ride in a Fast Machine Fanfare for Orchestra (1986) Fearful Symmetries (198 cool Eros Piano For Piano and Orchestra (1989)
Info on this or the rest fo the names can be found Here <--
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Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2006 7:43 am
no, they were names written with 3-4 letters mostly. . .something lik
"Ashr / Zehr / Serm " and such. . . i really REALLY don't remember. but names were somethings short like these.
Harmonium can be some sort of God, he aways said "may harmonium protect your soul" and such things when i say "good night" and one day he said to me "i'll be returning to my old teacher. harmonium is not protecting me, i'll take my revenge from others." then he broke up with me and became someone evil. he was treating me bad then i never called him again. i really dont know what he did.
he was studying demonic magic. . . and once he said he summoned a demon called Amon/ Orexis. *sigh* i wish things could be better and i needen't have to research these things. i'm just scared if something bad happens to him, that's the reason i'm asking.
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Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2006 11:48 am
what happened after he summoned the demon?
and yeah, i think you have a very good reason to be concerned. and about this 'old teacher'.. do you think it's a real person? does any of his friends mention harmonium in the same way?
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Posted: Fri Nov 17, 2006 5:01 pm
Hmmm.. Ill try to find something concerning demon arts and harmonium.
If I find anythign Ill post it here.
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Posted: Sat Nov 18, 2006 2:15 am
well as he told me, he collected his blood for a week then performed a ritual to summon the demon and make him a part of himself. well he is not sure if he did it, if he was successful but he had a somehow different look in his eyes, something dark. he always had a second voice himself since that day , at least that's what he told me.
his teacher. . . he said that's a woman and he felt really really close bonds to her, as if she was a mother to him. since his childhood hehad dreams about some other world and in his dreams he was called "darkerian" or something like that. after he met his teacher he did what she told without knowing if things he did was wrong or right.he left these things after an unseccesful ritual but now he's back and that woman knew he'd come back.
i never met his friends.
omg, he can kill me for telling these in here. and he *can* do it.
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Posted: Sat Nov 18, 2006 10:48 am
If you cast spells and you want to stay safe, cast a protection spell.
Keep out of contact with him, so there wont be any harming.
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Posted: Sat Nov 18, 2006 11:44 am
i cant.
he is my missing half, my evil side. i am the only thing that turn him back to good. after sometime can we delete this thread? <.<
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Posted: Sat Nov 18, 2006 1:06 pm
Calm down, you under the protection of the coven here. Reading all of what you have stated, yes, he is incharge of another world. His world was probably corrupted to the point that it spreaded to him. If that's the case, then he would be acting diffrently, appearing to be more 'evil'. He needs to go into his world, and remove the darkness from within. Amon would be the dark half of his spirit.
This is commen enough to be uncommen. It's what happens when an unbalanced soul or body performs magic. They lose focus on their world, and try to concentrate on this world. Then slowly, the corruption from their world grows and infects them. The demons needs to get under control, and now only his teacher can help him. Trust her. I have a feeling that she will help him enough to where he can start getting control of things. Then, he'll be himself soon enough. However, this process might take a very long time. It depends on how corrupted he is.
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2006 6:20 am
i think.. harmonium is the name of the other world. his world, or that other world he's part of if it's not his. i'm guessing he doesn't own that world, because the darkness in it is way beyond your boyfriend. or ex. but he plays a important part in it. if he's summoning demons from there..
but wait. he tried to keep it from you, and at some point he wanted to shut it out too. what i'm concerned of now is the darkness consuming him.
.. and..err, have you promised him anything? it doesn't have to be ritualistic or anything, but any promise at all? promises may mean something else to him, and you may be bound to him.
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2006 8:30 am
I promised i'll never leave him alone in his darkness and i'll be his light he can count on. also once we had a conversation about waht happens if we come across in a war and we were in opposite sites and i told him i would not fight against him but he said he would kill me in order to complete his misson.
Fangirlism, what you said maybe true. well, actually his teacher is helping him to learn control that demon inside him but not to keep it away or silenced. . . control it to use it, to allow my ex-bf to take his revenge from the girl he hates. as he told me his teacher once used him to make her own work. . . he didn't give me details but he was just so in pan because of things he did. he promised me not to go back but he did!
we are soulbounded with him we both know it. . . i know he'll return to me when everything ended but i'm not sure i can still love him knowing his evilside, powerful side. . . even though i had visions of future, i saw our daughter. . . i really don't know.
i'm giving time and not thinking about him. i'm leaving everything to him, i know he'll call me when he feel ok. but somehow i want to *know* so that maybe i can help or get myself ready to protect myself. . .
many thanks that you're with me. . .
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2006 8:36 am
Marianne Julia i think.. harmonium is the name of the other world. his world, or that other world he's part of if it's not his. i'm guessing he doesn't own that world, because the darkness in it is way beyond your boyfriend. or ex. but he plays a important part in it. if he's summoning demons from there..
but wait. he tried to keep it from you, and at some point he wanted to shut it out too. what i'm concerned of now is the darkness consuming him.
.. and..err, have you promised him anything? it doesn't have to be ritualistic or anything, but any promise at all? promises may mean something else to him, and you may be bound to him. he tried to keep me away from these because he didn't want me to know,, to researched or get involved with these things. he wanted a life away frm them away from his dark past. he just wanted some peace. but he changed. and i dont know why. i was never afraid of looking deeply inside his yes, i was not afraid of his darkness until he broke my heart without a reason. that's when everything started. he was so regretful of things he did in 2 weeks before we started dating (something between him and a girl who used him and made fun of him) . i never understood. he didnt let me help him. we're somehow bounded. we were so alike; as personality as physical appearence as way of thinking. . . we could know what other thinks just with a look, words were unnecessary. not anymore.
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2006 9:58 am
In any case, Personal demons are not my thing. My sister has one that my dad and I fought to keep under control. She's now able to handle most of it, but I'm always close incase anything bad happens. Wiccacat3 would be the mod to talk to about personal demons. Give her a pm, and she'll help you threw.
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Posted: Sun Nov 19, 2006 10:06 am
i sent a pm. . .
well, whatever after some time please delete this topic. incase i get hacked by him. . . i'm not sure if he do it but somehow he always knows if i'm telling him truth or lie. and i'M sure he wont understand me.
but. . .after sometime. still there may be people who haven't seen this .
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