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 Posted: Sat Oct 21, 2006 2:17 pm
Hey there sports fans, and characters alike; it's me the great and all mighty Trent (a.k.a. Træ). I want a spot to leave my commentary on the world, and what better place than here on Gaia for all you characters to be enlightened by, humored, or even instigated or antagonized by it. I feel people should hear another facet and perspective how to see the world...so why not me do it for you all! I AM A SCAPEGOAT/AVATAR for another world...OoOoOoOoO!!!!
Well comment, contribute to my fabulous commentary, because it shouldn't just be me with an oppinion about the world.
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Posted: Sat Oct 21, 2006 2:42 pm
The phathom of consciousness Have you ever questioned how to define the undefinable? Ever thought that something such as existance made you believe everything has some existential value? I mean given, you know you have some rational thought (that includes Hiru), but I mean, not ever once have you thought that it had a definition outside its purpose, or function? In theory, only we can come to a consensus about things, look at popular soverignty and things of a democratic nature...I say in theory because, it is sometimes biased, exemplified by electoral voting, where one place gets more power based on size. I choose not to believe the definition of something as wonderful and exponential as knowledge, consciousness. I believe there is a tender point in this debate, and in lue and understanding to the thoughts we have in our mind, especially mine, does the reoccurring existentiallism seem to descend and lax you. I mean it used to scare me, being as I wasn't intellegent enough to understand what was passing through my mind, to syphon even the smallest strand of one on my thoughts would have been miraculous; however, I pose a side trip for you, it ties into the scope of consciousness, I wonder about science. Okay, this is my premise on this commentary. WTF IS WRONG WITH US!!!?! We use science to obscurely probe something, but some how return with the definition being its function or purpose, no connnotative value, nothing beyond a peyonic perspective of a doctor. Do you ever think science will end, will we question things to a point to where we answer them all with the most rudimentary responces and leave them at that? I feel that is where we are becoming laxed, there are still many things that manifest in a human that are all tied to the mental stability and well being of that individual. For example, did you know that when people pray for a shut in individual, its been proven, they rehabilitate quicker? Did you know, people who give negative vibes toward certain individuals on a daily basis tend to break down one's natural defenses? Even though I am not all on a pedistule on religion, I do believe in this fact: if one gives good, they get good...on all levels, if one gives bad, they get bad in just the same manner. Its as simple as that. Now for the tricky part, my oppinion. In my honest oppinion, I see that we as a species have failed to realize the importance of humanitarian communion, we never give to each other in the fluent amount we take. Look at your paycheck, you earn money, the government takes money, they say it is to better you and your country, but look at us. We are in quite the quagmire or rather preliminary that we will never win in various countries for reasons unexplained to us, the government is slowly tearing apart the country in destroying our economic infrastructure, putting us into unsound amounts of debt, annihilating the working middle class, and contributing to the sloth that runs a muck in our country. There are residual signs of the governments presence. Go ahead, test it, go outside and find a joint, try lighting it...I mean yah of course its gonna get lit, but guess who will now be on your a** for doing it...the government. I mean yah..OH BOY drugs, but do you even realize why the government refuses to legalize pot. The surgeon general has even said there are no true deficiencies with moderate pot smoking, but the government says no because they can't make a profit off of it due to the fact it can't be deseeded, basically saying "Oh, we won't let you bear arms because you can make your own bullets." BULL FECES!! Okay, back to my conventional commentary. What I want to know is, when we will we get it? Why can't everything have depth, a deeper meaning. I mean it is proven, time and time again, everything as well as everyone is interconnected. When will we stop being so apathetic. ...This is only a test post...my commentaries will be longer... Thanks guys... and there will be a part 2 with more commentary and less bitching and questioning. ¿Træ?
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Posted: Wed Dec 20, 2006 8:21 pm
*will refresh my momory of the above post tomarrow...*
Write the Zombie thing! Write the Zombie thing!!!! *jumps up and down* Write the Zombie thing!!!!!!!
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Posted: Thu Dec 21, 2006 6:38 pm
Ah Al, another day. Konichiwa! I bid you a good day people who actually decide to indulge in sense and sensibility. I have another thought for you today before I allow my thoughts to taper off into an abyss. I want to understand the inner workings of relationships. Not just the "b/f & g/f", but the ones we utilize everyday. I want to understand the communion of a community. What abridges man, what is so akin between people that almost makes everything sympatible? What makes thing right between people, and how should it take any effort from both parties or should it simple and effortless.
I feel there are three key relationships.
Plutonic: The relationship of you and a loved one. The one where you see your brother and no matter what. "Hey, I just scratched your cd. I'm sorry," is enough to bridge the gap between you two. It's as if they have been beside you all along, even though out of obligation, they are there. I works the same as Parental relationships. They are what they are, they seem to deem no effort because some families are fortunate enough to have a valid head of the family who puts in the effort for them. It makes things flow rather easily.
Acquaintance/Infatational partner: Term I just created (the latter). The people you meet at school and have met recently. Ones that you call your friends, but they have just enough le-way to say you aren't. These can also qualify as crushes, and people you secretly admire. I believe these are the ones that get pulled along as other things, like Serious relationships. They can become serious, but a lot of them can be merely fable; a fabrication of ones mind. I'll discuss this topic later. I believe these are the springboard for any relationship outside of a plutonic one. In fact, consider best friends plutonic relationships.
Serious(for lack of better term?): Is the one that people have a problem understanding the complexity, intricate inner workings of. People need to realize it takes time, EFFORT, and maturity. Don't compromise any form of a relationship by saying you want a serious one, but won't put the time or effort in. I believe this is one that messes up even plutonic relationships. Seeing this work is an amazing feat. Due to the persons' patience, tolerance, and understanding, they fought through uncertainty, and many other daunting trials.
I can't believe that people attempt to use serious relationships as crutches or masks, to be able to mask who they are for the sake of a reputation or the ability to say "Here's my g/f (or) b/f".
I'm seriously drained of the falicy of all of it there of. I see many people who can't conduct or don't understand how important each of these relationships are, or how much they can be. I really regret someone wasting my life, essential time I wasted for a person to finally come out and tell me they don't care.
I commend them, that takes balls to be a latent a** and say some non-sense like that, no use in being tactful here, I mean after all, they weren't with me.
My closing thought is this, don't take any of your relationships lightly, respect, value, and understand what you have with people. Because many of these can be covered up by others, but never truly replaced. Every moment in life is a moment to open new doors and opportunity for every relationship, and make amends for many things said and unsaid.
Don't be that guy!
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Posted: Fri Dec 22, 2006 7:53 am
(Reserved for Al's responce on the above commentary. Al would also like to warn the reader that her response in the matter relationships in general will be posted here and I might or might not contradict myself. ) EDIT:
Though all of my writings (Poems, Short Stories, Rants, Ect.) I’ve come to realize just how important communication is in a relationship. Its need exceeds that of all other elements, save for maybe life. Because we all know its not possible to communicate with a corpse.
And just to make this clear; I say this in all of my bitterness, backed up by the inconsequential experiences I've had in a variation of relationships:
Any relationship requires communication and effort to last! And unless you’re a brain dead zombie hooked up to at least five different machines just to stay alive, then you have feelings! And unless your blind, deft, and paralyzed (or a fictional character), you can communicate those feelings!
If many (or few, it depends on your outlook) relationships there is a lapse of communication, not because you don’t know how to say something, or you have no feelings to communicate, your either too immature to realize your feelings or you’re too lazy to put forth the effort to make things work.
In plutonic relationships communication is easy and it takes very little effort. Why? You’re raised around these people, and you developed ideas or traits that are similar to theirs. Whether or not you like these people depends on the very end result of your mental grown. You can either care deeply, and there will always be some bond as Trent has said. Or you learn to detest these people with a passion (points to Hiru and the plans I know she has that outline the death of her male parental unit)
Crushes: something everyone has (unless you’re a-sexual). Your hormones grow and as they do they point you to someone you find attractive. With a little effort you can become friends or more with this person (or persons, if we’re talking about a couple of mine and Hiru’s peers…) personally this is a very…very easy relationship (Unless your crush’s name starts with ‘D’ and ends with ‘-ucky’ then you’re out of luck…) With communication and effort on both parts you can move on to a Serious Relationship…heh…
Serious Relationship! If this doesn’t come naturally to you then HA! (I’m pretty sure I’m laughing at myself at this point…)This takes the most communication to work. Including those three STUPID little words…The I the L and the You! Note; there also has to be truth in these words. (There is a way, I’ve found, around having to say this…but the other in the relationship has to be, to a certain extent, ignorant. (Not that I’m calling Max ignorant…>.> …okay maybe a little… (Anyone know if Max and I are in a serious relationship…I suppose I could always ask him…)))
Either way…my point…COMMUNICATE! …and PUT SOME FREAKING BACK INTO IT!
(To Trent: You are not a failure…*pats your now nonexistent afro*)
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Posted: Tue Dec 26, 2006 6:48 pm
Matter of taste?
Wow, I have the most prolific idea bulging from my brain, but I never realized how many things and what things institute artistic preference or preference in general. All of my ideas clash and conflict. I want to see how to malleblize my ideas. Amalgam y is a tricky feat though.
I want to know what stems preference. What does stem preference? I mean come on some of them are obvious. The key human element of necessity creates these preferences: Hot or cold, how in particular one has the "taste" for a certain degree of either; the preference of smoking and non smoking, obviously; the matter of whether to go to the restroom in a clean facility or not. They all stem from a need. But what of those of desire. Why do we want things?
Weird question right, one I will come back to later.
But what in the fact of genre, How does that spawn out. If we are all unique, how or why can or should we be able to create a generic for any of us? How do we sit there and deface a perfectly natural system of facets?
I will tell you why, the inate gluttony of desire. We crave things we can't understand, and have. We think we may have a concept, but the majority flock for the tangibles but indefinates. People of different nature, usually those who go against the grain, usually keep to their own facet and create their own way and go for things out of the reach of others, usually attaining it.
What my complaint is, why do we think we need to discourage others in their preferences, why do we believe we need to segregate those who are different due to circumstance, because their preference was molded for them.
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I had a thought about that...
but it will wait, I think it requires more than my attention and words can express.
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Posted: Sat Dec 30, 2006 3:38 pm
This is my second, and last rant for today...Sorry if anyone's disturbed...this is also posted in my journal (It should probably stay in my journal) Read the green rant by Hyouzo in the 'Relationships' thread first...
I don’t want anyone to take this in a negative way. It's just how I feel.
I've moved around a lot, but it’s not like I, alone matter in that since...That’s just what happens in a military family. But since we moved around so much I never really got along with kids my age...or people in general.
So when I found out my Da was retiring I didn’t' know what to think.
It took me three months to find a girl kind of my age to get along with. I met her on a Wednesday and she spend the night that Friday.
We grew close and I had my first, or who I considered my first, best friend.
Like any young person with an new discovery; I put effort into this new joy, in hopes that it would last forever...It would have...But after three or so years my effort wavered. I suppose I didn't try hard enough and that’s why she didn’t seem interested in talking to me.
In my mind this lack on interest went on for a couple of months. I don't know if she really didn't care anymore, but I constantly told myself I did matter. I told myself this person did care about me, and was just busy...then she quit her job. I thought we would spend so much more time together, doing things we used to before we got jobs. But it didn't happen, and for two weeks she said not a word to me. I would wait, and I suppose I could have put forth a greater quantity of effort to talk to her, but I came to hope so hard that she would put for some effort on her part and call me.
She didn't, and I was torn apart. I felt so alone, and asked myself 'if this person didn't care, who else would?' I would ask this over and over. After a while I came to realize other people did care, people from my own school, people I didn't pay too much attention to, but they were still there. I grew closer to them, and after another month or so told myself I didn't need her. I didn't like to be so mean, but for so long I thought she, my first best friend, was the only person in my age group that mattered. I was wrong, and I realized that and over time allowed myself to grow close to other people.
About a month ago I began to feel horrible, about nothing in particular. I was talking to a friend, someone both her and I knew and this person said that she was blaming me for our lapse of communication, and the anger that I used to feel towards her in the beginning swelled in my gut once again.
My vengeance was renewed.
I thought the following:
How could she blame me? When, for years I tried nothing but to make my best friend happy. I gave up on my first boyfriend, and eventually exboyfriend, ever returning my feelings. I let her constantly compare us! She was telling herself that she was fat, and me pointing out my own flabbyness! Degrading myself to make her feel better! Being there for her for so many years! And why is it now that she shows a different side of herself. Like a second face! Is this who she really was? It must have been…and now I really have left her. Once I got word that she was talking about me, I gave up all hope. As friends, her my first best friend, had broken up.
That’s okay, because I know, after so much time, that I’m not alone. We can now both move on and live, and hopefully when she reads this she’ll understand how I feel, I hope she doesn’t become a bitter hag about our situation…but I kind of just…Don’t Care.
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Posted: Sun Dec 31, 2006 6:08 pm
I Imagine...
One of the greatest and most expansive things known to man; more complex than consciousness, the innards of the human brain, and any other thing on the face of Earth. Imagination, what separates artists from business stiffs, teachers from subject majors, innovators from people doing their jobs. Imagination is by far is the deciding factor to one's brilliance. Imagine, if you will, a genius with no sense of creativity. Even computers have an imagination, their binary coding and processing capabilities have to go through some mandated processes, but what isn't seen by the human eye has to be pretty intricate, and if some unforeseen circumstance occurred, it is possible for these calculations to become corrupt. A student has to be able to mnemonically create methods to learn and cope with real tasks in real time, think back to when you were potty training. You came up with something that made you realize not to miss the toilet. It is all a matter of imagination. Ever heard the eccentric are usually brilliant, that is because they allow their imaginations to run rampant and take hold of them in such a way, they device such the mnemonic to control it in a specific media.
Beyond that, this commentary is only to commend the eccentric, and thank imagination for what it is. I write this in gratitude for the abilities it gives me, the attributes that make all of us intellegent, as well as unique.
"Use your imagination fruitcake, because I ain't goin there with you!"
-An old friend
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 1:17 pm
Boredom...Luxury or Burden? Well, ever said "Oh I'm bored" and some one reply "Well boredom is a luxury of the lethargic "? I am tired of that expression, who says it is a luxury when you have done all you can to be constructive. I usually hear that retort when I'm bored after cleaning my house or accomplish all my chores. I am told that I can be "studying", but when that is said and done...what next? I am "given" the "luxury" of duff-riding my chair in sheer boredom. Fact is, it is proven boredom is a off side affect of intellect. The easier you get bored, the more intelligent you are; also been said that the most intellectual figures find their own sources of entertainment through variations of a certain activity. Given that the eccentric are usually always the most brilliant, as myself, find ways from things that people wouldn't ever guess to keep myself entertained.
OKAY! That said and aside.
WTF? What about those moments when something is distracting so much to a point that you can't focus on anything else but that one thing, so in order to try and seclude your mind from this thing or fact, you try to create distractions, preliminaries, to draw the mind's eye to eventually forget what the original thought was? The faster you deviate from an original activity, the quicker your interest fades and the sooner you wish to do something else; eventually you find yourself lost in a dilemma of confronting said obstacle or not. Do you? Would that alleviate your ailments?
Okay what is the cure to boredom?
I guess that all boredom is, not the loss of infatuation, but the distraction of one fact from another. When someone gets bored in something or someone, it isn't they are really fed up w/ them (unless they are douche bags), its so much that they haven't found the way to deviate from the same routine to enable a methodology of interest, but a distraction from the fact they are able to.
...I think I will bring this up later...but more to a point.
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Posted: Mon Jun 18, 2007 7:18 am
ReleaseI stop for this moment in time to reflect on how many troubles have created this self abusive being, how many woes turned these smiles into frowns of discouragement and hate, how many problems have placed my heart in a tourniquet. I have as many scars physically as I do spiritually. I have realized the bond between one's spirit and one's state of mind are sympatible. I can't believe how much I despise myself after all I have been through. It is true, you are your worst enemy, you are the only one that can make the monument of your accomplishments seem like the ashes of your failures.
I've seen these analogies for miles on end.
It's like an agonizing pin placed pore by pore in a sadistic form of acupuncture. Archetyped. I make this seem as if I'm on a pity trip. I am only trying to draw the image of how I feel waking up every morning to the same face with the same issues. How obliterated I feel when I realize that I will never keep what I work hard to have. Maybe I won't get what I think I deserve because I don't deserve it. I mean, duh!
Who am I to say I deserve anything, right?
Like the rights to "life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness". Our forefathers said that right. Well I can pursue happiness all I want, the only way it attains its giddy is by spitting it back at me.
I know there are those of you who see this plight and can empathize.
I know there are those of you who read this and spit on it.
It's nonsensical bull. To sit here and watch one take the opportunity to wallow in their self pity, to agonize in their self inflicted wounds is sick, right?
Then tell me, what are your problems?
Have you ever been shot?
How many bones have you broken for something?
I mention all of this to make point of this, you can't say you understand when you haven't been through it. You are a witness, and you may attest to having worse, but you can't actually compare a pain you have witnessed to a pain that you have felt.
QUIT BEING SO SELFISH PEOPLE!
Pain is sick, pain is pain. It's there to teach us not to do something or be some way. It teaches us how to fend for ourselves and keep ourselves alive.
Then why do we love taking it so much?
I only wanted to point out that the world is opportunistic, it takes it moment to give these pains to get it's own pleasure. It's pleasure is really it's own pain, but reflected upon you. The world enjoys the pain as much as you do, why do you think chances exist? It is another shot for humanity to try its hand a giving the world what it wants...more pain.
The thought of the antithesis is what keeps us giving more pain, but we relinquish the thought of pain, we stop being selfish. We stop caring. Caring about others sick pleasures and others. And that is how we begin to focus on how to help others be free. When we release ourselves to our problems, we realize how to help others release as well, no doubt and no asphyxiation on our own selfish goals. We unify.
Release your pain and help the world see its full potential...
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