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~Christopher: 50%~

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Christopher sighed as he pushed around the rice on his plate with a fork. Minna was sitting only a few feet from him. Lately, Chris couldn't stop thinking about being a father. He desperately wanted to have children suddenly. Since Minna and him were now engaged, the thoughts had been pouring in constantly.

Also, the urge to mate, while it wasn't technically his species mating season yet, was growing stronger by the day. He craved for the intimacy and interaction. Chris had lost count as to how many dreams he'd been having about it recently.

Finally, deciding to speak up, Chris flattened his ears to his head and inquired, "Minna... Do you want to have kids with me someday?"

His tail curled to his side, expressing his fear of the conversation that would soon progress.

"It's just..." Christopher looked down at his dinner, shoveling a forkful of rice into his muzzle, "...I've always wanted to be a father and lately, I've been dreaming of mating and having a child a lot. I'm not saying I want to have one now but..."

He sighed once more, picking up a piece of the bloody rear steak and eating it. "...I just really want a child some day. I wish I could explain it better than that but I just really want us to have a baby together someday."

The idea brought a smile to his face for a second but soon faded. Chris couldn't look Minna in the eye at all. He just kept shifting his food around with his fork.

"I was afraid you would say that," Christopher moped a little. "So what if our baby would look like a newborn animal at first. He, or she, would still be our child. Besides, they'll grow up like we did."

As he was speaking, his ears perked up once again. Talking about it was exciting him greatly. He wanted to know what it was like to be there for his child. What kind of things he'd need to teach him or her. He let out another sigh, this one content though. It was pretty obvious how much he was daydreaming.

Christopher mused, "Erik actually showed me a concept of what our children might even look like too... To me, they'd be beautiful. Besides, no matter what, that still be our child."

When Minna expressed her concerns of Moreau's intentions toward their offspring, Christopher whimpered and lowered his ears once more. His hopes were quickly crashed. But she was right. What would that monster do to their child? Would he have it terminated, taken away from them and tested upon like some lab rat?

A few tears streamed down Chris's face which he wiped away with his paper towel napkin. Instead of continuing on with the discussion, he simply dismissed it for now, "You're right... It's a rather silly thing to consider right now anyhow. Forget I mentioned it."

Chris cut up the rest of his steak, completely silent. However, a few whining noises escaped his lips here and there.

Christopher instinctively headed for the thermostat and adjusted it for Minna. He knew she was cold and that it would be selfish to let her freeze like that, even if it meant he would start panting from the heat. After he finished his meal, Chris cleaned off the table and quickly did up the dishes. As he stood over the sink, his motions seemed so mechanical, like the actual Christopher had left his body.

Even when Christopher had finished the chore, he didn't realize it. He continued to mimic the actions, washing phantom plates. He snapped out of his trance after 5 minutes of it and shook his head. He had to pull himself together.

Strolling over to the couch, Chris had a seat by Minna and tried to put his arm around her. That's when he noticed she had a pillow over her face. A little concerned, Christopher asked, "Minna? What's wrong?"

"I don't know," Christopher replied a little agitated. "...I just don't want to think right now. I really don't."

He curled up into a ball on the couch and just laid there. No conversation or noise. No movement. Just complete silence on his part. It was one of those times where he truly needed to withdraw into himself. All the events that had transpired lately were finally wearing him out for once. The situation between Branwan and him had escalated out of control by this point. She was determined to think of him as an adversary.

The nightmare was getting worse although he hadn't shared that information with anyone. Now there was the doubt of his chance of ever getting to be a father. His world was crashing down little by little.

'I suppose it was inevitable,' Christopher thought in a rather sullen state. 'It was bound to crumble a little sooner or later. Nothing ever stays the same or bright forever.'

Besides, why should anyone stay with him? His perception of the reality at hand was rather bizarre and twisted in the eyes of many. Why would anyone want to have a child with that anyhow? Without realizing it, Christopher opened his mouth and out slipped the words, "...God, I'm a freak."

Chris didn't respond to her nor acknowledge Minna's words. It was his time to sulk, retreat into himself. But that notion was soon erased after Christopher picked up the faint sound of weeping. Sighing once more, this time from emotional exhaustion, he got off the couch and wandered into the bedroom.

Christopher put his arms around her at the base of her shoulders and comforted as best as he could, "There, there. It's going to be alright."

While the words sounded slightly empty, it was due to the exhaustion of all the crises he had experienced as of late. He wanted some alone time for once, just to retreat into a cave and be by himself. But that wouldn't do anything. Besides, Chris had someone depending on him right here and now.

Kissing her cheek, Christopher explained, "I'm sorry. I'm just tired is all... Just a lot has been going on. I didn't mean to be selfish."

This solved none of the matter at hand by any stretch. However, it had to be set aside for now. It was either keep each other stable or grieve. The earlier was more important than the latter to Christopher, no matter the situation. Sometimes you just had to set certain things aside even if you didn't wish to.

Christopher jumped back and away from her, surprised by the sudden edge his girlfriend was presenting towards him. He instinctly let a growl escape, showing his dislike for this foreign behavior on Minna's part. He didn't recognize it as her and it greatly bothered him. Chris sat back down not long after but kept his distance.

If she was going to be like this, Chris didn't want to agitate her any further. Not to mention she just seemed different. This was nothing like Minna.