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Yep. I'm dumping my mind right here...

Just a sad poem I found myself writing one day! >_<

~Difficult Wishes~

This year, I have made many mistakes
Although many I regret, I wished they were fake
Some were the most wonderful things
Others were just mishappenings

Things I've said
A lot were wrong
Things I've done
Too many, too long

I wish I never upsetted those around me
I wish I never told others
About my secrets
That I should have kept shut

I wish I could lock this feeling of regret
Throw away this horrid desire
For things that influence me so badly
That sometimes, they're just too good

People say I'm not alone
But sometimes I feel I am
I feel as though others don't understand me
They just give me advice

I try to take it
But I can't
I wish I was smarter
I wish I was wiser

I wish I wasn't such an airhead
That made others laugh
Like me for who I am
Love me for who I am

I spend days on end
Begging and crying
Feeling sorry for myself
I've been such a failure

I wish it never happened
If only I could turn back time
Make the right decisions

At times I feel stupid
And used
And laughed at
I'm so scared

If I was somebody else
Who was less of a baby
Who wasn't bothered so often
I want to solve my own problems

To face the world, head on
I don't want people to help me
It seems I can't help myself
I'm so sad

Nobody understands
And sometimes I fear the worst is yet to come
Yet, I want to conquer these thoughts
To be my old self before any of this happened

Before time goes by
And nothing is left to conquer
So that is why I am punishing myself
Or rather, "Letting go of my desire"

I deserved this
Because I was too soft
I am my own enemy
The biggest enemy

I wish so badly that this never happened
Because I am sad
And I don't want to be...

--Written by Angelzora

GAH!! Sounds so emo!

(Another poem I wrote when I was 13!)

~Nightmare~

At night, while you dream
Sleeping peacefully you seem...but
Deeper and deeper into fantasy
A total feeling of ecstasy

You're scared, you're smitten
It's like your skin being bitten!
Spinning and spinning, round and round
Faster and faster, up and down

You land some place in this nightmare
Full of surprises you don't know where
You're alone in the darkness that you hate
Of all dreams that had to late
In the distance, a cemetery awaits
For you to come, on this fine date

You step closer and closer, eager to know
Stronger and stronger, your curiosity will grow
Nervousness prevails
As imaginary winds sail
You move closer, you feel fear
That danger, yes danger, is very near

Though spooky shadows on gravestones
Sends a shiver down your bones
You're courageous, you're brave
Meet the danger and enslave-
All evil in your nightmare!

Suddenly, a bright radiance of light shines through
As you are saved from these strange dreams too
Realising this is morning- you've woken late,

Hurry before they close the school gate!!

--Written by Angelzora

biggrin Yay!! Thank you!!