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 Posted: Wed May 18, 2005 6:12 pm
Dear Diary
Hello my name is Hikari.
I am 13 years old.This is the first time ive gotten a diary so im quite happy.I dont know really what to put in it.Oh i know I have 2 eyes and both are different colors.One is a silver grey white color. The other is light periwinkle blue.I suppose that is how i got my name Hikari meaning "light" in japonese.
Of course im not japonese. I am German and something else. Im not really sure ive never been told.
uummm lemme see what else....OH I know! MY mommy she used to kiss my right eye ((the silver one)) she said if i recieved enough kisses it would beome the other eye color.But she went away 3 years ago. Daddy says ill see her when the time is right. I dont know what he means though I asked if she is ok and he said she is in a happier place I hope to be in someday.
PS:Today is my Birthday December 13!
Hikari~
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Posted: Wed May 18, 2005 6:13 pm
Dear Diary ((Dec 25))
Today my dad went out with his friends today. I'm quite worried for him he drinks alot nowadays. Also he has become very mean to me.Today he hit me because he said my eye gives him the creeps.Now my right eye is black and i couldnt go to school today because the teacher is getting a little scared for my safety.I love him dearly and I dont want him to get in trouble.
Oh he got home now!Lemme go greet him.Maybe that'll cheer him up.
Hikari
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Posted: Wed May 18, 2005 6:14 pm
Dear Diary ((Dec 30))
It turns out it wasnt daddy at the door. It was my teacher and two police officers.My dad got in a fight and was shot.He is now in the hospital.I dont feel happy at all and my teacher says that my right eye is starting to turn black.
I looked in the mirror and she is right. It looks really creepy. Well now I am living with my teacher she is very nice. I love her a lot! She reminds me so much of my mother.She even kissed my right eye.
I dunno should i be sad about my daddy or happy about my teacher?
Im so confused. I need help.
Hikari
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Posted: Wed May 18, 2005 6:16 pm
Dear Diary ((Oct 12))
Something weird just happened.I was in my room when the lights turned off all of a sudden then my head hurt alot so I went to bed. Now I am awake and im in an unfamiliar place. It is really scaring me. I miss my teacher and my daddy and my mommy.Oh no someone is coming!
Hikari
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Posted: Wed May 18, 2005 6:18 pm
Dear Diary ((Oct 20))
I cant believe it!
My daddy bet me on a poker atch and lost! Then he got in a fight with this guy who shot him! He wasnt e ven fighting over me. He was mad because he lost his money. I feel so sad I cant bear it. I dont know what to do I want to kill myself. ALso my right eye is becoming even moe black.Now I am starting to feel very weak and sick. The man tries to keep me happy but im not I cant be happy anymore.My life is totally over......
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Posted: Wed May 18, 2005 6:20 pm
Dear Diary ((April 20))
Has been awhile hasnt it?
Well it turns out the man won ANOTHER child. Her name is Mellissa. She says she is a 'goth' and hated her father. I dont know how she could have even though my father did this to me i dont hate him. I am just mad at him not so much as before but still.
She says she likes my right eye.That is the first time ive heard that from anyone. People just said it makes me special they never said hey liked it. I like a lot. Though she usually pulls me into her odd games of 'quigi' I think that is how it is spelled. She also likes to talk to spirits. She says she cant though because in order to do so she needs someone who can 'see' them first so they can make the ghost visible to others.
Wow I wrote a lot in my journal today. I guess since im so sick and have nothing better to do i would write alot.Well whatever it is late goodnight.
Hikari
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2005 5:46 am
Dear diary
IM A SEER IM A SEER!
I cant believe it! Mellissa says im a seer I can 'see' ghosts!
I didnt believe her until I saw something she couldnt. It was a girl she is our age. She died in this room and now stays in here forever. I like her she is different.She isnt the brightest but she has something about her personality I like. Mellissa is REALLY into her. She is really into me aswell. I have never had such attention in so long. I think I like Mellissa too. I think I like her a lot.
PS: Do you think if i told Mellissa that she would go out with me?Is being a lesbian bad at 13?
Hikari
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2005 5:50 am
Dear Diary
Today we moved. The police have found about him and now he is getting scared. So we are moving to france. Mellissa dosent like france. She says its full of a bunch of gay people. I guess that means she dosent like gay people.
So me asking her out would be dumb since she dilikes gay people.Great now my hert aches more than ever and my eye is becoming more black and im becoming more sick than before. The doctor I went to says if I dont cheer up I will die. I dont care thgouh I want to die. The one I love will never love me back. I miss the good old days when I didnt have this problem. Where everything was always happy and simplistic.
PS: My birthday is coming up soon. I wonder if I will make it to then...if I do I would wish for Mellissa to have happiness in her life as much as i used to have.
Hikari
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2005 5:53 am
Dear Diary
Only one month until my 14th Birthday.But I wont make it that long. MY doctor says I only have 48 hours until I die. Mellissa dosent seem to care much. She says this is the fate of a seer. "God always hated seers and wants to kill them early" she said. I dont think so though God is kind. Im the one making myself die. This sucks.I am going to tell Mellissa how I feel before I die! Oh my gosh I compleatly forgot about our ghost friend. Amanda it turns out that after we got to know he she is really just a sould waiting to get her body back. Her boy is in the graveyard in THIS area we are in! Coincedence right?
So tommorow night Mellissa and me are going to get it for her.
Hikari
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2005 5:59 am
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2005 6:00 am
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2005 7:30 am
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2005 7:35 am
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2005 7:36 am
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Posted: Thu May 19, 2005 7:37 am
15/15
ok good im done for now! xd
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