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I just read this Dear abby and I tought maybe you guys should read it and give some feedback.

DEAR ABBY: I'm 26 and have never wanted children. Last year, however, two lines appeared on a pregnancy test and 41 weeks later the girl was born. I pleaded and begged my husband throughout the pregnancy to sign adoption papers with me. He refused. He is in the military and was gone through most of the last seven months. We now live thousands of miles from my family, and I am miserable, stuck with a colicky baby who still doesn't sleep through the night.I find no joy, no pleasure and no love being a mother. I can't sleep knowing I must wake up to a crying baby and the same routine of feeding, diapers, baths and bottles. I have become more and more detached from the girl and have nothing to enjoy. Showers are short. Dinners are rushed and usually cold. I can't even enjoy a cup of coffee without looking over my shoulder to see where the girl is. I don't want her to touch me, and I can barely hide my revulsion when I have to pick her up.

I am exhausted beyond belief, and my thoughts are turning darker every day. It's not the girl's fault she was born, but I can't help feeling resentment and anger toward this little person who more and more resembles a block of concrete on my feet.

We can't afford day care, and we have no friends or relatives remotely close by. I can't stand to wake up much longer, and these long stretches of crying have my nerves shot and my hands itching to shake the girl until she shuts up. (I have never shaken her.)

I'm scared of my feelings. What's wrong with me? Why can't I love my child? Should I put her in foster care? My husband can't stand her, either, but he's adamant that we keep her. Yet I'm suffering, and so is she. She deserves a mother who loves her. -- GOING CRAZY IN SAN DIEGO

DEAR GOING CRAZY: It is not a crime not to feel maternal -- not everyone is. In a case like yours, adoption might have been the better option. I wish you had included your name, address or a phone number so I could have contacted you directly. Because you didn't, I can only recommend that before another day goes by, you contact the doctor who delivered your daughter, or her pediatrician, and repeat what you have told me. You may be suffering from post-partum depression, a hormonal condition that is treatable, and you may need a respite from motherhood.

Once your chemistry is balanced again, consider making a trip to visit your family for a few weeks. If you leave the baby with your husband, and he must assume responsibility for her care in your absence, he may begin to see the wisdom of placing her with a family who really wants her and is willing to accept the responsibility that goes along with having a baby. Please don't wait.

I understand her husband standpoint but honestly how can he stand by and let the woman he "loves" suffer through this pain when he could agree to open adoption and still have some relationship with his daughter.

I don't think it's that the dad doesn't want contact. She said he was military and gone for the last 7 months. That implies he's deployed, and considering she said thousands of miles from family, they're probably stationed overseas.

Coming from someone who literally spends half the year parenting alone thanks to deployments, I can honestly say it is NOT easy. But from this woman's standpoint, sure, it could be PPD. But... she said she never wanted children anyway, and begged her husband not to keep it. Even if she has PPD, it doesn't sound like she ever wanted to be, or even WANTS to be a mother.

If that were me, I'd be discussing divorce with my husband if he honestly cared that little about that opinion and desires that he made me keep a child I never wanted.

That's psychotic and awfully sad. I really would love to have a baby. That seems the way of the world; those who want kids can't have them, and those who don't care for them, have like 10. It's so sad...

It must be awful for her.
I guess the advice that was given to her was a good advice, and I hope it will help her.

There are also courses available that will help a parent bond with their child.