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Hey all....this place seems a bit likea ghost town o.O ah well. I'm just throwing some old poetry on till I get some new ones...here is the first. Its best if you read it likea run on sentence...very fast paced.

hope you enjoy...it was after the first time I cut my arms ((did it with nails and lmost got blood poisening...woulda been ironic and I aint never gonna do it again...ugh.))


Listen scars upon my arm
That bring me pain and loved ones harm
Listen well and fade away
These marks upon my arm this day
As upon my mind their dwells a thought
Of a battle lost and a war that’s fought
Against the heart, the mind, and soul
Laughing at the things they stole
And building walls about me fast
Using bricks of a burning past
To further shove me from the light
And still they come by night and fight
As voices speaking
Seeking
Squeaking
Leaking like my heart and wreaking
Misery on what is left
Thinking of a brand new theft
Of using me just like a tool
That launches me into a pool
Of darkness deep as water flows
And far along as North wind blows
And leaving me alone in pain
For a moment to just soak in rain
And reflect upon my past mistakes
And then without a warning takes
Me back onto the battle line
Face the shadows, look and find
What I had lost too long ago
To remember if the grass did grow
Upon that day when bout a youth
I cast my heart upon a roof
That burned that day as wood does burn
And thought I then that I had learned
A lesson but instead I damned
My soul to hell and mind to ram
Incessantly against the wall
My heart had built to stop my fall
As I did upon that day
When earth, and sun did turn away
And leave me bitter, broken, dead
With voices chanting in my head
That all was lost and I was crippled
And perhaps those voices rippled
Growing stronger with each letter
And at their game were getting better
At pulling me into despair
And utter sorrow, evil’s lair
And like a lamb I followed sadly
Into a fate that laughed so gladly
To have me there, a slave, a pet,
To play their cards and raise the bet
On just how low my soul could fall
And just how hardened was my wall
And now they find it’s not so strong
And in the end was it so wrong?
To fall in love or close enough
To see salvation but not to touch
Instead I found it all a lie
And then I went to go and die
In shadows and when I returned
All walled up and heart reburned
To find these scars upon my arm
That bring me sadness and friends harm
I see them and I now do say
With more conviction then I thought I’d say
To fade away, just fade and heal
Because I want to end this wheel
Of decimation
Incarceration
Life that’s ruled by information
Let me be, I hate to weep
Instead I’ll close my eyes
And sleep.


((optional ending))

((continues where I left off))

If but to dream a dream unseen
A dream that falls just in between
The borders of the light and dark
A grayish hue upon my mark
Then feel I what life’s about
And take my soul on a different route
To try and live as I see best
And wander lands from east to west
And find true love and one who cares
For whom I would climb countless stairs
To catch a glimpse or catch her hand
And both go to where I began
And stop this shadow in my soul
That every moment takes its toll
Stop it before it had the chance
To lead me on this dying dance
To smite it here for good of all
Then find I then I’ll never fall
Instead grow wings and fly away
From all the sorrows of today
To finally be completely free
For I know half the key is me

The other her

tahnks amigo,...I apprecaite it...more poetry to come...we should have a contest sometime...it might gather more to these threads.

I got a bit side-tracked after "That all was lost and I was crippled", But from what I read, this was great.