Okay so maybe this is a little dramatic but can I be allowed that? This one time can I be allowed to be melodramatic and possibly a bit sappy? Just give me this once, you won't have to worry about it again I promise.
This guild brought me back to Gaia. I'd been gone for a couple months because of the glitches when I was told of this guild and asked to be a mod. I came back slightly out of a feeling of necessity but it didn't take me long before I actually began to have a lot of fun. I made Gaia my home, this guild in particular. I happily served as crew until the position of Vice Captain was created and given to me almost immediately. Part of me almost expected it I guess but I was still touched and honored that I would be given such a high position in the guild.
Over the close to two years that I helped run this guild I did everything I could for it. I tore my brain apart in an attempt to think of events for holidays and our guild birthday and I cannot even begin to tell you how much gold I put in through those events, funding everything myself. I bought presents to give out, prizes for the events, I tried my hardest to make it fun and yeah sometimes I failed but hey, it's the thought that counts right?
Well then as happens sometimes things didn't end up so well between myself and a friend. Friendships fall apart every day, it's sad when they do but we pick up and move on right? Well... sometimes...
Sometimes however it seems that no matter how one tries to end things on a quiet note it just won't happen. Drama starts, tempers are lost and before you know it, people get paranoid. It's paranoia that's landed me here today I'm afraid.
I've said so in my journal and I'll say it here. I had never intended on taking over the guild. You can ask Rob, S and dburger because they have all seen me say that I wasn't going to do it out of respect for this guild and my hopes to keep personal drama private. When I found out I was demoted what was the first thing my boyfriend told me? That it was my own fault, that I should have taken it over when I got the chance. Do I regret not doing it? No, because in the end I did what I thought was right. I stuck to the high road and I stuck to my guns.
I was told when I was demoted that I could leave or stay. Crew is better than nothing right?
Wrong Because being crew in a guild where I have flat out been told I'm not trusted is not something I can do. As I've said before I poured my heart and soul into this guild, I helped shape it, maybe I wasn't there the day it was created but I had a huge hand in making it what it is today and anyone who denies that is delusional. To be told I'm not trusted is a slap in the face and frankly it's too much. I've thought about it and in the end I know where I'm not wanted.
Most of you know where to find me already, and if you don't and you really want to find me ask around. I'm on dA, LJ, various other websites and I'm not hard to find.
I have had a fantastic time for nearly two years here and I'm sorry that I won't be with you all for the second birthday. Thank you to everyone who has made my time here amazing. I love you guys, you are my family and I'll never forget you.
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