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If so, I'll opt out for a minimum wage job for the rest of my life. I can live cheaply. <_<

I hate how things are. My mom lives in Houston with her boyfriend, and sent me back up north to live with my grandma and to finish my senior year in high school. The pressure and lonliness is building, and I don't know how to escape it, so I use the internet.

I cried myself to sleep last night because I miss my mom THAT much, and I can't call her because it's long distance. I'm taking Government AND Economics at the same time, I've got homework I can't finish, and to top EVERYTHING off, my Residency Affidavit isn't legal because the stupid secretary in the Counselor's Office lost her copy of a utility bill.

I almost threw up in school today, and all my friends are starting to notice the changes in me. Maybe this'll loosen up my Writer's Block of about 4 years or so. Maybe. I'm just not myself, and I don't know what to do. I feel like crying all the time, and hey, whaddya know? I just started.

I miss my mom. I'm skipping meals left and right, and that's not any healthier than me over-eating. Didn't realize things could get worse, and they ******** did. I feel like crawling into a hole and dying, and I'm hella-depressed. Headaches all the time. I think I'm losing myself. I don't want to.

I need to start trying to get my life together. I graduate in Feb, '07, and I still need to get a job. Anyone in Texas know where I can get one? Can't be very far from where I live.

I'm sorry I took up your time. I just feel like s**t, and needed to get it out. I could really use a hug right about now... *is typing through tears*

I usually end up having to fend for myself around here. Even with my friends and dogs, I still feel like an empty shell, lying on the ground, that needs to be thrown away.

Well, I'm off to finish a project that was due today in school. Here's hoping I don't kill myself by the end of the year.

What Mar said. She knows her s**t. Especially about eating regularly. You are only going to make yourself more upset by skipping meals. So go make yourself some chicken and potatos - they're good for you when you're upset.

Homework in Government and Economics is manageable. These are high school sophomore level classes. If you need help with the homework ask us. We'll either be able to help you, or be able to direct you to a place where you can find the answer, or we'll b***h with you about it. But you can get it done and it'll be ok.

Additionally you can avoid long distance with Skype. Internet phones work best with a fast internet connection, fair warning. But Skype does work well, my father used it to call us when he was on business in India.


So hon, no. College doesn't have to be like that at all. Some people (myself, and Mar for example) find that we really like college better then high school. So it'll be ok. You're going through a rough patch. Take care of yourself, do the things you need to do to keep yourself happy and healthy and you'll pull through. Kay, sweetie?

I live in Grand Prairie.