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 Posted: Sat Aug 19, 2006 9:17 pm
Do you ever get that feeling that you're just not... well... 'you'?
It's just been like that for me over these past few months... possibly because due to certain events which shall go unmentioned, I discovered that I do indeed have a brutal side of me. A bloodthirsty and dilusional creature who merely wishes to see others suffer. I know this isn't my true nature... I know that I am a gentle lass.
Also during this period of time I have felt as if I've been here, on this earth, but at the same time led a shallow existance for these months. Not fully 'experiencing' what it means to live! I am by no means a wild partier, but still in my usual tame pursuits, such as the arts or hanging out with friends, I feel I'm not getting the full effec t of anything, sort of like as if I'm in a dream.
Alongside that, my personality has changed drastically, from a compassionate hyper-happy extrovert to a melancholy, bitchy, and selfish creature.
It seems as if some sort of negativity has overcome my spirit, restraing me, keeping me from my true self.
I have waited for the passing of this somthing, whatever it is, and that has done little. Now I realize that I must set fourth the warrior of light from my heart and overcome this ill-favored attitude which has come over me. I shall not supress my emotions, as such will merely agitate the situation. I must send a blade through the heart of this negativity in my soul and walk the path of peace and love once more.
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Posted: Tue Dec 12, 2006 9:15 pm
Walking this earth is a hard challenge.
Anyone who lives a good life and does not let the negative energies around us into their heart is truly a warrior just for that.
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Posted: Fri Feb 02, 2007 5:03 pm
*nods in agreement*
It's oftentimes an uphill battle, but we must all fight on, and try to keep hate and wanting from consuming our hearts. 3nodding
Sometimes struggles make you mean and spiteful (like how I was last August), but other times our struggles make us realize how important things such as love, compassion, and charity are.
Right now I am once again battling with some of the demons of my life, but this time, instead of wallowing in self-loathing, I'm actually walking the path of light, and realizing all the more how important strength and compassion are. heart
It is much easier to lay down our swords and shields and just give in, but that shows lack of honor, strength, courage, and most importantly, the lack of desire to grow and become the best soul you can be. We all stumble, and we all fall, but we must continue to fight on.
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