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Aug. 21
My therapist says that writing in you everyday will relieve of some of my tension. I hope he's right. I think I'll like this; the prospect of it sounds great! And just think: one day I can look back on all these entries and see how much I've changed.

Aug. 22
Another demon in my head. I thought I got rid of them all, but there's still a few, obviously. He seems easy enough to take care of, though. Anyways, until tomorrow, bye!

Aug. 23
I saw my therapist again. He says that he sees a little progress and that I might not have to write in you as much. Just whenever things get bad or something great happens. I guess that will be easy enough. Well, see ya!

Aug. 24
Worked today. I hate my f*cking job. It seems to serve one purpose: make my life a living hell. It's not like I don't have enough problems. I think I’ll quit it soon. Maybe get something I like and that won't aggravate me as much.

Aug. 25
Works better. I got a promotion and now I just sit in an office and boss people around. They said it was an accident that got me my job: some guy fell or jumped from his balcony. He was my supervisor, but I was right behind him. So, I feel bad but kinda glad at the same time.

Aug. 26
Works great! I have decided no to leave it, I love bossing people around while I do nothing. Well, I'm off!

Aug. 27
Another demon trying to control me. This one seems a little smarter than the rest. It'll be tough to take him out. Eh, I like a challenge, it gets kinda boring after so many dull, stupid demons. He's trying to stop me from writing. I'll show him who the b

Aug. 28
My cat disappeared yesterday. I'm devastated she was a great companion. It happened right around the time of my journal entry, actually. I fed her and then started writing and she wasn't around after that. I hope I can find her; she was my only true friend.

Aug. 29
I'm moving in a couple weeks. My job pays so much more now. I just can't wait till I move. It's an apartment, but it's really nice: great views, great location, and great neighbors. It's gonna be a blast being there.

Aug. 30
I found my cat today. She was dead in the basement. i broke down and I think I passed out. It's a terrible loss; I don't know what I'll do now. I have no friends but you and myself. I finally banished that demon too. He wasn't too bad, but he was harder than the rest. Well, gotta go: someone's at the door.

Aug. 31
I have an appointment with my therapist in a couple days. Based on these results, he will be able to ell me my outcome of writing in you. I don’t mind writing in you, though, you’re cool and a very good listener. That’s what lacking in this world: good listeners. Everyone just wants to talk. Why don’t they just shut the f*ck up? Yap, yap, yap, that’s all I ever hear. It gets under my skin after so much of it.

Sep.1
Works fun. I met a guy today. He’s really sweet and kind of cute. He doesn’t just seem like the type that just wants my boobs or my body. I’m going out on a date with him the day after tomorrow. I hope it turns out fine. I’m pretty sure it will, though. I have a really good feeling about this.

Sep. 02
I see my therapist again in a little while. I hope this session is good.

YES! This session was great! I only have to write in you when something bad/crazy/awesome happens! I promise to write in you at least once every two weeks though!

Sep. 03
The date went well. We had a quiet dinner at some small “mom & pop” diner. It was really good though: the food was splendid! We really hit it off, too. We plan on going on another date soon. I can’t wait!

Sep. 08
I’m thinking about buying a dog. I would really love a new pet, and I’ve always wanted a dog. I’ll probably buy a little Yorkie, but I’ll wait until I move: I don’t want to buy one and then switch homes on it. It’ll be fun having a dog, and yet I’m nervous. But, like I said: I’ve never had a dog before.

Sep. 11
Our date went well. I love John so much! He has the most amazing personality and a great sense of humor. He makes me laugh so easily, it’s just him. I can’t wait to go back out with him. Fortunately I get to see him at work nearly every day. My life brightens at the thought of it.

Sep. 19
The day of the move! Most of my stuff is already packed. What isn’t packed is on sale right now. I’m having the first yard sale of my life and it is going great! I’m making money off of the junk I was gonna throw away, I’m so excited! Well, I gotta go wrap things up.

Sep. 21
Everything is moved or sold. Now comes the “exciting” part: unpacking. I dread it, however, I think it’s gonna be worth it: John is coming over to help. I’m all shivery just thinking about it! Plus, he’s gonna help me pick out a puppy in a few days. He said that this move my help me with my sorrow for my cat. I think he is right. I hated to tell him about my cat, but I had to get it out.

Sep. 25
We got a puppy today. A little Yorkie, whom we’re naming Sally; we also bought all sorts of little doggy toys! She seems like a cheerful puppy. I just hope she likes the apartment and me. Yes, the apartment is clean and straightened, mainly because of John. He got most of it unpacked in a day. I was amazed, and definitely relieved that most of the work was done for me. I’ve never had that before and I have to say that it feels great to love and be loved.

Nov. 02
Demons, lots of demons. They’re trying to take over me. There are more than I care to count. At least 20 of them. I’m trying to fight them off, I think I’m winnin

Stupid, stupid whore, you can only hope that you are. We have the upper hand, here.

Nov. 13
Friday the 13th! I love this day, everyone else says it’s unlucky, those superstitious bastards. It’s a great day for John and I. We had lunch together. It was really great and our relationship will hopefully be taking a really good turn soon. I’m thinking of giving him a key to my apartment, but I’m not really sure. I’ve never went out with anybody before. Eh, I may just do that tomorrow. My therapist said that I need to try new things and that me dating is a good sign. I’m really glad and plan on doing more cool things. I’m thinking about a cruise. Ooh, that’d be nice: just John and I, with no worries. Not a care in the whole wide world.

Nov. 14
John and I gave each other a key to our places. I love it and I’m excited. John also helped me get Sally house-trained!

Nov. 28
John and I celebrate our 2-month anniversary in about half a week. My life is a lot better now, too. I’m more popular at wor We’re taking over. There’s nothing you can do! k. People seem to have noticed me and it’s great!

Dec. 01
2 months with John! It seems like we met just days ago. The days and weeks have just flown by! He’s taking me to some fancy restaurant tonight He sure knows how to please a woman.

Dec. 02
Oh, he is so wonderful! I would love to be able to spend every waking minute of my life with him. He took me to the nicest restaurant and we sipped champagne and danced the night away. We went to his place and had a bubble bath together. I'm still sooooooo happy!

Dec. 05
My stomach is acting up. I'm nauseated and I'm tired all over. I just want to lie down and not get back up. John has been over, checking on me. He thinks that I'm just overstressing myself at work and that I should take a little time off. Maybe he's right. I know I wouldn't mind a vacation, especially with him.

Dec. 07
What the hell? I went to the doctor today and got an all around check up. Yeah, my stomach was still hurting and my fatigue hadn't gone away. I'm PREGNANT! I don't understand. I've never had sex before. Never wanted too, other than with John, but we're holding off until later, like marriage. But, the doctor said that I am definitely pregnant. I don't understand. but maybe the doctor is wrong. I hope he is, that's just weird.

Dec. 08
The doctor wanted to do some exams. I'm not a virgin. That definitely makes no sense. I've never had sex, but he said that I'm not a virgin and I am a mother. I've got to find a way to tell John. Or cover it up! I'll just cover it up, it shouldn't be too hard to seduce a man that loves me deeply. I think my plan will work out nicely.

Yeah, it worked! He's so wonderful and strong. Oh, he's just so awesome and we fit together perfectly.

Dec. 11
I've still not told John, I'm sure it would take more than half a week to actually figure it out. So, I'll wait a week or two. That should be just about right. Ooh! I just love my office and my plaque that says Miranda Jurs. It makes me feel powerful. I think I'm getting a power trip. That's funny to think about!

Dec. 16
I can't do this. Too much sh*t's going on for me to cope with this. I just can't do it any more. I just can't take it.

Dec. 31
I'm in the hospital. Something about trying to commit suicide. I don't remember too much after taking the whole bottle of Tylenol. They said the baby seems to be doing fine. Yeah, John knows. He seems to be pretty fine with it. Of course, he thinks it's his. Yeah, I'm pissed that I missed Christmas because of this, but I thought ahead and got John a present weeks ago. He got me a lot of stuff. I got him a sweater and a few other things. He seems to be more worried about me, though, than much of anything.

Jan. 01
Happy New Year! ...Or not. I still feel like crap. But, I'm home again, so that's good: no more nasty hospital food. I go back to work in three days. I really look forward to going back to that hell hole. However, I now get to see John whenever, not just during visiting hours, so that's good. Yeah, my therapist wants me to write in you every other day now. Oh well, try to commit suicide and you have to "pay the price". Not that I mind, I like writing in you.

Jan. 03
Work tomorrow...joyful. Oh well, John came over last night and made some spaghetti. It was so good and just great to eat after two weeks of hospital food. I love him and I want to marry him, but I'm afraid it's been too soon, but I know I could spend the rest of my life with him.

Jan. 04
Haha, you're at my work place. I figured why not, I never do much of anything. Yeah, I'm here doing absoultely nothing. That's the one thing I can say about work: it's not altogether too stressing. I boss peoples around. What's better than that?

Jan. 06
Whoo! John said he's thinking about moving in with me! It's a bit soon, I think, but I don't mind: I feel like I have known him all my life. He definitely completes me. Sally seemed to feel my excitement. She was running through the apartment, weaving inbetween mine and John's legs. She's a little ball of joy and she really brightens my life.

Jan. 08
Whoohoo! I'm going away for a little while: just me and John. We're gonna go to Maine and just walk around the beach and get some ultra fresh sea food. I'm so excited!

Jan. 09
We're leaving today! John said he would drive, so I can be a little more peaceful. He probably thinks I'm psychotic. He keeps looking at me and it makes me feel sheepish. I jut want to pounce on him and curl up and go to sleep.

Jan. 11
We have arrived at our hotel! It's so pretty here, maybe a bit dismal, but it's nice and quiet. Perfect to get away from it all for a few days. I'm so happy! Just me and John for a few days: together, in a hotel room. This is so exciting!!!

You're in for it wench

Jan. 12
John did it! He asked me to marry him! It's only been a few months, but Ididn't think twice about it. I said yes! I'm engaged! He had a nice ring with a beautiful stone on it. I would've said yes, though, even if he had no ring. This love we share is such a deep and beautiful thing, it'll never be dull anymore! He said that he's gonna move in with me! I just can't wait!!!!

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Oh my!

rofl.
oh god..so much to read..yet so little motavation :[

noooooooooo

Ouch!! eek

gah! I'll finish it this weekend. I'm too tired/lazy to do it right now

thankies!
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