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When I was a baby (from what I have been told) my father held me under hot water, and laughted, and wouldent lte my mother out of his sight, but taking her and I to work with him. Mom and I spent many weeks in the car for this. When my sister was born my mother left him.

When we came here my Aunt would babysit us while mom was at work. But my aunt, and cousen would take my sister out shoping with them, and leave me home, with my auncle who sat in a chair sleeping all day.

When We were in first grade, my little sister told everyone I lied, stole and cheated, (and for this I never had friends through out elementry, and high school). She would hit, kick, threaten me, or call me names to getting what she wanted that was mine. The other students called me names, and talked about me behind my back as if I were a lieing theaf. It didnent help much having a learning disabilty, and allways having a teacher aid helping me, or do ing my homework for me.

The same things happened all through High School (only my sister leaurned to use bad words). I never got to go to collage when I grateduated, I had to watch my sister go as we did not have enough money for bolth of us to go. A few weeks into the summer, after grad. I got a call, a person I new, and had a crush on had passed away, and I blam myself for it.

Now, and then when a family member asks me what I want to do, they say NO, and do what they want to do. I get told I make stuff up, when I tell them I'm sick, our hurtting. My grandmother is the only one who gives me a hugs. My sister has stoped hitting, kicking, and threating me, but something a bad word will slip. Right befor my mother kicked her out of the house I walked in on her and her BF.... After hearing "dont hit me", "o my eye", they were as what I was told having kinky sex.

My mother has said a few words that are hurtfull to me, but are a joke to her. And sometimes my grandmother does too. My Aunt has totaly disconected me from her part of the family. And I'm alone most of the time.

Thank You

I'm 22

I dont Know...

How? I don't talk to people out loud, just on the coumputer, and when I have to talk to someone I freeze up, my words get messed up, and everthing comes out rong.

Next problem - How do I get to a police officer?, I don't have a car, and its too far to walk.

I thought of that, but my mother has a way of tracing calls. I learned from when my sister messed up on her bill, and she needed to know who made the calls that were just showing up out of the blue. My Mother was not happy, as she payed her bill at the time.

I understand what your going through, I have suffered from mental and physical abuse for 16 years. Though, six years ago my mother left my father and for 6 of those years I have been out of his house, he still finds ways to abuse me physicaly and emotionaly. You get scared to stand up, and feel like no one will help you right? Well,you need to take a stand against it and report it. I'm going to be fighting my father in cort to try and win costody of my brother with my mother because he is still under that same abuse. If you want it to stop, you HAVE to tell someone. Because this is going to go on and on if someone dosn't take a stand. So you need to tell the police.