Okaayyy.
So, I've been a member in this guild for awhile, I've just never posted, and now seems like the perfect time.
I have a boyfriend, and... it's just... it doesn't feel right, I guess.
He's always like "I love you so much" and everything and I feel so awkward telling him "I love you" back, because... I can't really say I do.
When he kisses me it's nothing. Holding hands doesn't mean a thing, and in many ways our relationship scares me because it just doesn't feel right.
Before I had a boyfriend, I'd always fantasise about what it would be like to have one. And dream about dating people that i'd never even meet... like musicians.... and now i keep finding myself thinking about what it'd be like to date a girl...
One of my best friends, when ever we are on the phone, whenever we see each other... or whatever... when we're about to hang up, or leaving we always hug and stuff and we're like "I love you!".... just as friends, ya know?
And that just kinda... feels right I guess.
I've had dreams about having a girlfriend, and making out with her and everything, but I just let it pass me by as a silly phase.
I'm just to much of a coward to talk to anyone about this kind of stuff so I write it in journals and talk to people on the internet.
I don't think i could forgive myself if i broke up with my bf because he's always like "I've never felt this way about anyone else" "Youre so amazing" "I never want our relationship to end"
...I don't want to break his heart...
So, I guess, what should I do?
So, I've been a member in this guild for awhile, I've just never posted, and now seems like the perfect time.
I have a boyfriend, and... it's just... it doesn't feel right, I guess.
He's always like "I love you so much" and everything and I feel so awkward telling him "I love you" back, because... I can't really say I do.
When he kisses me it's nothing. Holding hands doesn't mean a thing, and in many ways our relationship scares me because it just doesn't feel right.
Before I had a boyfriend, I'd always fantasise about what it would be like to have one. And dream about dating people that i'd never even meet... like musicians.... and now i keep finding myself thinking about what it'd be like to date a girl...
One of my best friends, when ever we are on the phone, whenever we see each other... or whatever... when we're about to hang up, or leaving we always hug and stuff and we're like "I love you!".... just as friends, ya know?
And that just kinda... feels right I guess.
I've had dreams about having a girlfriend, and making out with her and everything, but I just let it pass me by as a silly phase.
I'm just to much of a coward to talk to anyone about this kind of stuff so I write it in journals and talk to people on the internet.
I don't think i could forgive myself if i broke up with my bf because he's always like "I've never felt this way about anyone else" "Youre so amazing" "I never want our relationship to end"
...I don't want to break his heart...
So, I guess, what should I do?
...i`ll show you something that the knife took.
...don`t wait. don`t wait...
...the road is now, a sudden sea...
&& suddenly;
you`re deep enough to lay your armor down.
...the road is now, a sudden sea...
&& suddenly;
you`re deep enough to lay your armor down.
