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 Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 2:18 am
I can't stop crying every night. I can't. I'm yelling at people for little things and not caring about a lot of people who are important to me. I know they are, but for some reason I feel like I just don't care right now. I can't control anything right now, I sleep for over half the day and get up to think horrible thoughts and take walks in the woods.
I hate this. I hate this depression. Nothing is working. My mom calls me and I'm cold to her. I know it's not her fault, but all I can do is say yes and no when she calls me. I try to be happy when she calls me, but she knows I'm feeling bad and tries to make it feel better. I know she's trying, but I just keep giving her the cold shoulder. I feel horrible during the night no matter what kind of day i've had and no matter who i've acted to people that day. I stay up for hours just to do mindless things that take my mind of anything and everything.
I can't take this anymore.
What's wrong with me?
I can't stop crying.
I hate this, so much.
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Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 8:09 am
You are at an age where your body is changing and conspiring against you on that front, and then life circumstances are conspiring against you on another front. It sucks. But it's manageable. And not-permanent. Circumstances change and your body will sort it out - in time. It'll be alright.
Something that I found helpfull in launching me out of my depressed phase was a diet change. It could very well be that there's something you're not eating that you should be eating and it's not helping you cope with life circumstances. For me, I just needed to eat more chicken, dark meat especially, and complex carbs. (I'd botch explaining why that combo is so good for you, but trust me - it is.) Or you might need more sun. I can't say for sure - but I can throw out ideas.
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Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 8:55 am
You aren't taking any drugs that may have estrogen/progesterone in them are you? Because that's the only reason I can think of....other than puberty.
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Posted: Sun Jul 16, 2006 2:13 pm
It's anger/depression of my parents divorce/my manic depression.
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Posted: Mon Jul 17, 2006 12:17 am
I think I might be like that too, if that happened to me. Coarse I would flat out deny it out of pride, but that is not the point. Time heals all wounds.
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Posted: Thu Jul 20, 2006 5:46 pm
Isaccard It's anger/depression of my parents divorce/my manic depression. ._.
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Posted: Thu Jul 20, 2006 9:02 pm
You'll survive. I understand what you're going through, because I have a friend in a slightly similar situation. I'm sure that with time, things will get easier for you. Time's a b***h, I know, but it'll pass and slowly so will this phase of massive depression and the world swirling into absolute torment.
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