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 Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 6:44 pm
 Lex had taken a much longer shower than he had intended. When he shut the water off and dried himself, he walked out into his bedroom with the towel wrapped around his waist and looked over at the clock. He wondered if Is had gotten to Saki first as he started to get dressed. Sighing, he realized that it didn't matter if she had or not. He still needed to talk to Saki about it. He couldn't act as if he were hiding the truth from her. That would make things worse. Running his fingers through his damp hair, he paused to look at his reflection in the mirror. He didn't like what he saw. In fact he hated it. All he wanted was to be normal. Have a normal relationship, have normal friends, have normal days. Sighing heavily again, he walked out of his bedroom and down the hall to Saki's room. Stopping at her door he knocked and prayed that it would be Saki who answered it and not Israel.
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 10:19 pm
 Saki had been sat on the sofa reading when she heard the knock at the door. Looking up she placed her book mark between the pages and stood. Stretching she made her way slowly over to the door and pulled it open.
It was Lex. Grinning she was about to give him a hug when she noticed the look on his face.
"What happened?" She asked now pulling him into a hug and closing the door.
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 10:30 pm
Lex wrapped his arms around Saki and laid his head on top of hers when she pulled him into a hug. He closed his eyes and held her for a moment before taking a deep breath and letting out slowly. Obviously Israel had not been back yet.
"Saki... it happened again. I was playing soccer with Israel, Giani, and Ra and when Giani and I lost I blacked out," he said softly, holding her tighter. What if this time she wasn't so forgiving, he thought in fear.
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 10:38 pm
At his words Saki pulled back a bit and looked up into his eyes. Without saying a word she tokk hold of his hand and led him through to her room, closing the door behind them.
Sitting on the bed she pulled him down next to her and cupped his face in her hands.
"Tell me what happened again, was anyone hurt?" She asked urgently looking into his eyes.
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 10:47 pm
"Only me," he said, dropping his eyes away. "Ra told me what happened. He said I inuslted Giani and then grabbed Israel and said something suggestive to her. Giani must have hit me then because when I came back I was sitting on the ground and my stomach was hurting." He took a deep breath and looked back up into her eyes. "Ra also said that I said I didn't have a girlfriend and that they all disgusted me right before I came back. Is looked really shaken up and Giani was beyond pissed. Ra, I think, is disgusted by my behavior... but he stayed behind after Israel and Giani left."
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 10:57 pm
Saki closed her eyes for a moment and placed a hand on his stomach, trying to think what she wanted to say and what she was supposed to say. Why did it have to be Israel and Giani, anyone else she could have distaced herself from, why them?
"I don't know what to say Lex." She said softly pulling him into a hug. "I know you didn't mean whatever you did or said, I don't know what to do other than try and support you."
She drew a shakey breath and tightened her arms around him.
"I am not sure they will understand me though."
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 11:07 pm
Lex rested his chin on her shoulder and held her against him. He wished today had not happened. He had been doing so good. He closed his eyes and turned his head to press his face against her shoulder.
"Israel was really angry. She said that if I dared to come near you or her she would go to somebody that would do something about it. She didn't believe me when I tried to explain that I couldn't control it. Maybe... I really should stay away amor... at least until I get some help. Ra has offered to help me and I'm taking him up on it," he said, breathing her in. He didn't want to lose her, but if it kept her safe he was willing to make the sacrifice. Besides... he would get better. He had to. It couldn't possibly get any worse.
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 11:15 pm
Saki frowned at his words and kissed the top of his head.
"That's not her decision to make." She said softly as she rubbed his back. She knew Israel must have been scared, but couldn't she understand it wasn't his fault. Why should he be punished for soemthing he couldn't control.
"I don't want you to stay away." She said softly bringing his eyes up to hers. "You are getting help, that is the main thing. You will need people to support you and help you through it all. I want to be there for you."
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 11:25 pm
He looked up as she lifted his head from her shoulder and smiled weakly. He leaned over and kissed her softly. Pulling away, he rested his forehead against hers and looked into her eyes.
"Thank you amor. I was afraid to tell you this... but I'm glad that I did. I want to get better. I am tired of being lonely and I want to be with you and know that I will not hurt you," he said softly, kissing her lightly again. "Maybe I should not come by here anymore though. I do not want to upset Israel and Giani more," he said, glancing over to the door.
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 11:34 pm
Saki nodded and brushed his hair from his eyes.
"At least for a while." She said with a smile. "I can come to you though, and we can talk on the phone any time so it is not a great loss."
Sighing she looked up into his eyes and smiled a bit weaker.
"Though I am going to have to talk to Israel about this, I think it will be very difficult." She ran her fingers through her hair and swallowed, she was really, really not looking forward to that. "I don't want to argue with her."
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 11:37 pm
"I know amor, and I am so sorry for all of this. I never wanted any of this to happen. I know that you and her are good friends. I hate to come between you," he said, reaching up to gently caress her face. "Do you forgive me?"
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 11:42 pm
Saki looked at him and frowned.
"Lex there is nothing to forgive. You can't help what happened." Reaching for him again she kissed him softly and looked into his eyes. "I was not angry with you, just worried about what Israel will say. I hope I can help her understand and I hope she can forgive you too."
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 11:47 pm
Lex nodded and pulled Saki into his lap and cradled her in his arms. "I hope so too," he said, kissing her cheek. He held her for a moment, then lighty nuzzled her neck.
"Maybe I should go now. I don't think I should be here when Israel returns. Maybe I could take you somewhere? Were you busy?" he asked, looking into her eyes.
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 11:51 pm
Saki shook her head as she held him.
"No I was just reading." She said moving to look at him. "Where would you like to go?"
She wanted to put off talking to Israel for as long as possiblegoing out would be a good escape before things got tense and horrible.
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Posted: Sat Jun 24, 2006 11:56 pm
"Anywhere. Maybe we can find somewhere to get something to eat or just go for a walk through the park. I'm just not really in the mood to be here on campus right now," he said bumping his forehead gently against hers. He helped her off of his lap and rose to his feet, taking her hand in his. "Does that sound alright?"
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