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first off...i've been there and back...78 lbs at 15...i know that i can get it again...the doctors say it will be with me always....but...with prayer i believe not..I am VERY picky about when and what i eat...i exercise vigerously....day and night....and in between i keep up my heart rate by riding my bike...i had depression...that spawned ...that disease..but i dont know...i've been though....cutting, depression, loss of father, loss of friend, loss of granparents, breakups(haven't we all), over five moves, suicide attempts, torticollis (look it up if you don't know what it is....its a muscle spazm in the neck), i've been on more drugs than the hippies in the seventies....i mean..drugs for depression..not..illigal drugs, ive tried alchohol as a seditive...to help me not to get stressed....so that's the only way i can get a clear mind, ive been through car crashes...nearly killed me, i've been in a death-like state i can't remember the name (it starts with a "k") for more than three days in a hospital, I've been abused,sexually and verbally and physically,molested....and had an attempted rape...thankfully he went no further when someone walked in, my dad was a gay who slept around on my mother with other guys...and girls....he died of AIDS and thankfully it wasn't passed on to my mother or me, and he irony of it all...he was a preacher for our church for a good number of years...(please don't judge him...i don't ..i still love him) there are a good question...if he ever molested me while i was a child..i keep having dreams about him doing things to me...and such...i can't talk about it..., the doctors asked me if i had ever been sexually molested or touched when i was a child...i want to say no...but a part of me feels as though something is hidden that i don't know about.., and this series of events has gone on only in the past four years...and hasn't stopped....and surprisingly i'm still alive...sure i have scars....from the "halo" i had to wear for my torticollis....(it's a big heavy black vest with bars that hook to pins that are in my skull)...and sure i have scars from the "peg tube" and not to mention the inside of my throat and nose and the flap that keeps my stomache juices from comming up is torn because of a "G-tube" the dumbass doctors that didn't know what they were doing ...put it in there and kept it in for too long and caused damage.....


Guild Captain Edit: The second paragraph has been edited out because it's inappropriate, and offers advice (which is against guild rules).

I think that your parents would want to know, regardless of college, if you're having such a problem with it... One of my friends dad's had the same problem, and they just kept splitting up because he would just keep going back to doing the weed, and now they're probably going to split up and they're moving back to the city... He keeps saying "I'm trying to quit; I really am..." and I don't doubt that it's hard to quit, but he's had this problem since he was like 14 and he didn't tell anyone up until just recently... Do you really want this stuff to continue all your life just because you chose to "let it go a little longer, so I can go to college"? I'm sure that you know this, but you are taking a really big risk by still doing this... You are putting your future husband, children, your future, you, and all your friends and family at risk... I really think that you should talk to your parents... They're your parents-- they'll get you some help... I'm here for you, too... Stay strong...

Just so you know, it's a guild rule that no advice threads are allowed. If you want to discuss your problems or other people's problems, that's fine, but please do not post and say things like "Come here for advice!". etc.
Thank you.

I agree, your post made me feel like you're trying to scare people, not help them. Even if aiding them is your intention, it's not what other people may see in it, like myself.