5th season sucks? Bullshit. Bull. s**t. And this proves it.
Wow.
Just... wow. On so many levels.
When I explain to people why exactly I don't chase male celebrities, why you see posters of Sailor Moon and Captain Janeway in my room instead of bare-chested sex machines, and why my head is only filled with the greatness of certain female celebrities and the wonderful characters they play, I say that it's a hope. It's a hope with all my heart that if I hang onto their every word, if I let the joy of watching them onscreen consume my entire soul, then I, too, can be like the female characters I admire so much. It's a hope that one day, I'll reach that place that they're at, a hope that I can be that strong, that powerful, that quick, that smart, that witty... the list goes on.
And when I'm watching my favorites going through a hell and still managing to come out on top, still managing to stare someone down and threaten them with everything they've got and succeeding, because you see the person they're threatening caving, these are the moments in which the hope burns so powerfully in me that I can feel it in my chest, and when I am so overcome with the ecstatic admiration of the character and the moment that I think I could cry with the complete unadultered joy of it.
Right now there is no one on this Earth I want to be, because, unfortunately, C.J. Cregg is not a real person.
But right now there is absolutely nothing I want more than to grow up to be like her.
There's a reason Allison Janney won four Emmys for this. And surprise, surprise, she got one of them during 2004. Which was the year this episode aired.
It's been at least 30 minutes and I'm still sitting here shaking my head in awe.
