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On that beach trip this weekend, I found out a lot of things about my friends. I found out that aside from about 3 of them, I really don't like any of them right now. We're going to give all my friends codenames right now. There's

1. Slut
2. Rich
3. Selfish (you remember her from another rant?)
4. Hypocrite ('member her, too?)
5. Trekkie
6. Quiet
7. Wingnut
8. Neptunian
9. And then there's me. We won't even talk about Meredith anymore because she doesn't matter now.

And this is why I hate (almost) all of them:

1. Slut's name speaks for itself, I believe. I found out she's not a virgin, which isn't at all surprising, because she's gone through so many boyfriends that it's nauseating. You'd think my telling her that she's being stupid hanging on boys would do something, but it doesn't. Boys are almost an addiction for her. They define her life, her self-esteem. If any boy tells her they love her, she's all over them, because she feels she needs that love so badly. It infuriates me that I can only sit by and watch her do this, because she'll never be happy this way. She's only throwing her life away and she's too talented for that.

2. Rich, I used to think, was very level-headed and I admired her a lot. Her brother physically abused her throughout her life, and only stopped the day she didn't fight back, which was the day he discovered he could actually kill her. But not only did I find out this weekend that she's a total control freak, but that her heart has been hardened to unexcuseable levels. She is totally convinced that there's nothing she can do about her brother. She thinks her mother won't listen if she tells her that something needs to be done about him. She knows he'll hurt other people, and she practically said that she could care less, because she is so convinced that she can't do anything about it. I just couldn't believe I was hearing that from her. I wanted to tell her that there's always something you can do, but then again, I knew she wouldn't believe me. I can only hope that without her around to babysit her brother, her parents will finally realize that he needs more help than they, or any parent, is equipped to give.

3. Selfish gets annoyed when a conversation doesn't include her or somehow focus on her. Now, on the beach trip, she was actually behaving quite well, but I'm just talking in the past. I thought it was an act, but it's been going on too long for it to be. Always always talking about herself...

4. Hypocrite likes to change her opinions around. She's a follower. She does and says whatever the group does. She has no thoughts that she expresses of her own. Not only that, but too often, I wanted to strangle her on the trip, because she was just being nasty, selfish, and rude. "Don't take my seat, you didn't do all the work of dragging the log over here so it's mine," she exclaimed so many times during the bonfire. Hey, you ever heard of sharing things with your friends, you ******** c**t?

5. Oh, Trekkie. Trekkie used to be one of my best friends, but now that the relationship has become so one-sided I can't really call it that anymore. Trekkie is so screwed up now that she's always taking care of other people in order to ignore her own problems. As such, she often focuses on me, the poor, deprived, computer addict who never gets outside. I can't count the number of times she dragged me over to the freezing cold water and ordered me to put my feet in it because I needed to enjoy nature or some s**t. "Getting your feet numb is part of the experience!" Um, not any experience I want to have, that's for sure. Trekkie makes up stories, or twists them around to make them worse than they are, in order to scream for attention. She'll call me just to rant to me. She'll leave horrendously long messages on the answering machine begging me to pick up the phone, accusing me that "The computer's more important to you because you won't answer the phone while you're on it!" No. That's wrong. I won't answer the phone for you period. If any other friend called me while I was on the computer, I would pick it up, because they would be calling me for some other purpose than to tell me how much their life sucks. She's trapped in this endless cycle of procrastination and depression and blaming things on everyone else but her, and she'll never get out of it. I can't deal anymore with people who can't get out of things.

6. Quiet is one I don't want to kill. She's actually very funny when she's around us, but in school, she's very quiet. I don't know, it's just silly, she should speak up more. =P

7. Wingnut is currently the person who I call my best friend up here. She and I have realized just how alike we really are, and are never afraid to tell each other when we're being cunts. We rant to each other about many things. And of course, we are linked by our feverish West Wing obsession. She's got her head planted firmly on her shoulders, she knows what she's talking about, and she's incredibly persuasive. She also operates much like I do, in that there's only so much time you can spend with your friends before you go completely crazy and need to "recharge". We've laughed hysterically about so many things these past few months; it's been amazing. I'm really going to miss her, and she's coming back from her Italy trip the day after my mom and I move back to Texas. She said, "I'm really mad about this. I want to be here to see you off. I want to wave to your plane as it's taking off," and I can't tell you how ridiculously cool it was to hear her say that. It's so ironic, when I first met her I thought she was selfish and talked way too much, but I'm really glad I gave her the benefit of the doubt, because now that Trekkie bugs the crap out of me, and her, it's been our friendship that's kept us sane.

8. Neptunian talks a lot, but she always has a hilarious story to tell, and somehow you just can't help but listen when she talks about things which have absolutely no meaning to you, such as Veronica Mars, which she looooves. She's not a virgin either, which I think is dumb because you know if you have sex at this age that it won't mean anything, because the guy (or the girl) ends up just using you to score. And of course, later she finds out he's cheating on her. Surrrrrprise. Otherwise, I don't want to kill her.

9. Me. I don't know. I'm not afraid to make enemies, and this pisses a lot of people off. When I see that a person isn't good enough for my friendship, or when I see a person who's making me angry, and I'm all ready to go over there and kick their asses, people are holding me back and trying to keep some illusion of friendship together. My instincts about people have almost always been right. I've always been able to pick out the cunts from the crowd and sort the genuine, good people out of their mess. My mother has always admired my taste in friends. I'm fairly heartless when I get going, though, since, if I've determined that you suck, I'm going to damn well let you know. I don't stay quiet about anything for long. Usually I'll let my anger build up to a nice point where it makes a pretty explosion. A lot of people think I'm a drama llama, but hell, if you're not happy about something, you've gotta change it, because there's no reason to let things go. I hold grudges. I jump to conclusions. I'm compassionate only to people who deserve my compassion, and these are people who are stable, and who won't melt into filthy attention whores. Anyone else, I'm either neutral about, or nasty to. I suppose I'm pretty elitist when it comes to friendship, because my standards are quite high indeed. But you know, it's worked really well in the past, and it should work well into the future.

Cookies and Jell-o for those who read it all.

Highschool students can just be tards. rolleyes andagainIofferupmyveryhappyprayerforNOTbeinginhighschoolanymore!

I'm stuck in High School for two more years. Save me! gonk

Yay I get cookies and Jello.

Haha, yeah, I could. xp

you only talk online xp

I think that's illegal. =O