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 Posted: Mon Apr 17, 2006 7:20 pm
I really need to talk to someone about this....but there is no one in my family/ in-person friend group who I can talk to, so I now turn to my GGSA buddies to pull me out of this periwinkle funk!
Alrighty then, it all started about six months ago....let's just say that I had a thing with a guy in my high school drama program and leave it at that without going into TMI details! (I will say that nothing below the belt was involved so that I will not seem like a Slutty McSlutterson). So anyways, this guy had been my friend since sophmore year (he actually cited that as the reason why he broke it off...over the phone...) and after "the torrid affair" ended, I still wanted that friendship to continue. He said that everything was cool, so I went back to buisness as usual - I would call on weekends to see if he wanted to go to the movies, hug him in goof-off ways, etc.
Then it happened, about two weeks ago one of his older friends stopped me in the hallway and said that we needed to talk. I figured that she was going to lecture me about lines or acting techniques (we are all currently in a play together), and was suprised when what she wanted to talk to me about was the dude! She said that he had asked her to back off and stay away from him. Well I was shocked to say the least because while I still had feelings for him, I had considered them "under wraps" - guess I was wrong?
But that's not the crazy part, the crazy part is that even after he has been giving me cold shoulders (i.e. walking out in the middle of conversations with other people because I approach) I still like the guy! I think I might actually love him! My friends here were shocked and disgusted when they learned what had happened between this guy and me the first time and stand by their opinions that he's a jerk....I just can't see him in that light. I feel like when we were together I saw a different non-cynical side to him and every once-in-awhile now I still see that look shining through the mask.
Please tell me: am I crazy? Do I need help (I mean more help than I already do pirate )? Help me GGSA buddies, you're my only hope!
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Posted: Tue Apr 18, 2006 7:29 am
If you feel strongly enough about him that you feel like you love him, you're not crazy. He might be feeling the same way, and it just scared. I must say though, having his other friend talk to you about it was pretty chump.
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Posted: Tue Apr 18, 2006 10:25 am
I dont think you're crazy. In the least. Arie Anna broke up with me for certain reasons and Im determined to sweep her off her feet despite my self caution that it will probably not work.
But anyways, I have to clears something up with this. He told that girl to tell you that YOU should back off and stay away from him? Cause you said her. So I was a bit confused. Maybe you should ask him yourself. Something isn't right when he asks someone else to deliver the message for him, that is if he said that at all. Talk to him first and see what happens. 3nodding
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Posted: Wed Apr 19, 2006 10:28 pm
I really don't know what to tell you about the chick (yes, it was one of his friends who is female who has known him since elementry school) who talked to me...she's always been really protective of him, so maybe she took liberties into her own hands? But then again, he can tend to be a wimp when it comes to being "serious"....*pulls at hair* OH I JUST DON'T KNOW!
Thanks for the advice you guys, I know this response doesn't really show it, but you guys have helped me out...Prom is coming up here, I think I might try and talk to him before or after to see what's going on since there's no way I can talk to him alone, I guess I'll try talking to him when there's too much talking around for anyone to overhear. sweatdrop
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Posted: Wed Apr 19, 2006 10:37 pm
Ak loves Fadia gonk crying (hugs) I really hope things work out.
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Posted: Mon May 01, 2006 7:06 am
It didn't.....tripped at the finish line before Prom to tell him how I feel, though he wasn't feeling good at the time so it probably wouldn't have been the smartest move on my part....but then at Prom I walked in on him making out with a sophmore who is now his girlfriend.....
Needless to say, I suppose my quest is at an end. I guess I called this on myself, like a silly little Christian I prayed for his happiness even if it didn't involve me and this is what I got. I can't be sad about it then, can I? But I am, which makes me feel selfish because in a way this is what I wanted....he seems genuinely happy for the first time since I have known him.
Ever feel like dying because you know someone else can make the one you love happier than you ever could?
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Posted: Mon May 01, 2006 1:03 pm
Fadia Stalyr It didn't.....tripped at the finish line before Prom to tell him how I feel, though he wasn't feeling good at the time so it probably wouldn't have been the smartest move on my part....but then at Prom I walked in on him making out with a sophmore who is now his girlfriend..... Needless to say, I suppose my quest is at an end. I guess I called this on myself, like a silly little Christian I prayed for his happiness even if it didn't involve me and this is what I got. I can't be sad about it then, can I? But I am, which makes me feel selfish because in a way this is what I wanted....he seems genuinely happy for the first time since I have known him. Ever feel like dying because you know someone else can make the one you love happier than you ever could? Sadly.. I know exactly what you mean.. God Im sorry Fadia.. but you'll find someone better one day. Someone who will make you happy and will be equally happy with you. You're an awesome girl and you deserve to be happy. (hugs)
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Posted: Mon May 01, 2006 10:35 pm
AkureiKnight Fadia Stalyr It didn't.....tripped at the finish line before Prom to tell him how I feel, though he wasn't feeling good at the time so it probably wouldn't have been the smartest move on my part....but then at Prom I walked in on him making out with a sophmore who is now his girlfriend..... Needless to say, I suppose my quest is at an end. I guess I called this on myself, like a silly little Christian I prayed for his happiness even if it didn't involve me and this is what I got. I can't be sad about it then, can I? But I am, which makes me feel selfish because in a way this is what I wanted....he seems genuinely happy for the first time since I have known him. Ever feel like dying because you know someone else can make the one you love happier than you ever could? Sadly.. I know exactly what you mean.. God Im sorry Fadia.. but you'll find someone better one day. Someone who will make you happy and will be equally happy with you. You're an awesome girl and you deserve to be happy. (hugs) I'm sure that's true, it just seems like such a far off time now...man I need to stop being Emo...*hugs back* Thank you for listening... sweatdrop
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Posted: Tue May 02, 2006 2:00 pm
Fadia Stalyr I'm sure that's true, it just seems like such a far off time now...man I need to stop being Emo...*hugs back* Thank you for listening... sweatdrop I know.. it'll be ok though. I will listen to you as much as you need me too Fadia. (pats shoulder in reasurance) No worries
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