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~This is the place where you can vent your anger, Post what happened at school or work that went wrong, Complain about life, its basically like a psychiatrist session, only you dont pay 121023i905689 dollars... Go for it. Tell your lifes story... Clean the s**t out of you.... doesn't it feel better after you take a big s**t? Honestly..

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Remember my thread about my boss making me cry? Well if you remember the story, this will make sense:
I recently started going back to work after a whole month of sick leave. Not my fault. Doctor's fault. Anyways... my boss didn't tell any of my coworkers WHY I couldn't work just that I couln't and they would be doing their work, plus mine. Needless to say, my co-workers think I'm a lazy slacker who is trying to get fired on purpose for unemployment pay. stressed They all basically hate me now... I talked to a few of them today and it seemed some of them beleived me, but it's going to take them a while to like me again. DAMNIT! scream

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Physciatrists sound like a challenge to me. Like I want to go to one and see if I could tie him in knots, you know? Just need to develop a mental illness... fear of computer screens or something like that... ninja

*huggles back* Thanx. He has a girlfriend though, but I don't like him like him as much anymore, so I guess I'm doing okay. Oh, one thing though, I'm kind of an SI'er, and I did a couple of cuts on my arms yesterday, and my friends kept touching my shoulder, where one of the cuts was, without knowing, so that hurt & I had to keep the pain inside until I got home. Dammit I'm such an idiot...

So yeah, I told my youth pastor that I cut myself, and he understood and s**t, but he said that he had to tell my parents, so now they know, and I'm just pissed now. stressed

I hate my dreams. All they bring me is misfortune and pain……i remember that one of my ex-girlfriends died in a hit and run, and i stayed with her there in the hospital with her family. i had this dream where she and stood together on a never-ending plane of whiteness. i could hear queen's "bohemian rhapsody" in the background..... and i thought that i had maybe left the radio on, but to no avail. i remember she began to cry tears of blood, and she gave me a deep kiss. then she said "goodbye"......... i woke up the next morning, knowing she had died. i could get a hold of myself. i wouldn't let them take her to the morgue until security held me at bay. i had just sat there holding her body......crying, knowing i could do nothing, but what could i do? i was a 14-year old boy! But needless to say, i didn't have another relationship for 2 years. But now it's hard to talk to anyone now. I feel so lonely, i want to fall in love so badly, but i've been burned before so badly in the past. i also found out that my ex-girlfriend got knocked up and changed schools, so i don't talk to her anymore. I guess she was afraid to face me or something…Thursday I ended up in the hospital when I passed out from dehydration. I unfortunately hadn't eaten anything that morning and ran from the 1st to the 4th floor of my school, to which I promptly vomited and passed out, then waking up thinking it was still 2004! The admin immediately shoved my a** into an ambulance, which took me to the worst available hospital: P.G. , general……. The kept giving me blood pressure tests because they said it was to high, an E.K.G., and a saline I.V. drip to put something on my stomach, which didn't really feel like much. I also think my friend is starting to c**k-block me. The other day I ended up telling this girl how I really felt about her and she was feeling me, or so I thought. She told me to get her number from one of my close friends, who knows her well, but I still don't know why she couldn't have given it to me…anyways, long story short, I call the number throughout the weekend and get nothing but a machine, to which I start thinking this a bogus number……and I don't know why he would do that, unless he liked her himself, but he never showed an inkling of interest into her, besides being her friend. But what do I know? Girls throw me mixed signals all the time…….

The almighty Toilet Bird finds amusement in this thread. xp