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Random thoughts on my stories since I've lost my tablet.

Rosa - Already know where that is going.
Xander - Already know where that is going.
Lucian - Leave till last book. Maybe have him somehow kill the king or he thinks he's killed the king but he pulled through and all the vamps think he's dead but he's really with Rosa and baby on and off?? That then leaves room for the coronation scene between Rosa and Xander and the start of them getting back together??? What about baby?? Where would baby be because Dorian would have to attend too as next in line (kinda)
Xander's mum - Have her involved as the caring grandparent. She's come to the scene because the king has told her about Xander finding his mate and she wants to meet them.
Rosa's parents - I want them to be more involved and the sister more pushy along with the mum to get Xander and sister together over Xander and Rosa. Dad just wants to be back in his baby girls life.

Adam and Zak:

Rework or restart?

Do I go down the route of a werewolf story mixed with gangs or just keep everything human??

Possible ideas…

Adam is an underground boss of a club that deals with dealing with what men and women want. Zak works for him.

Adam is paid handsomely to find and hunt the sister, he passes the job on to Zak as he can’t be bothered to deal with it, but Zak knows her and ends up warning her. She calls big brother who is boss of the family. He says he’ll sort it.

Adam finds out Zak backed out on the job and ends up going and hunting him to find him with her.

Zak threatens Adam and he’s told he’s making a big mistake and Adam calls someone putting out the job and announcing Zak is also part of the job.

Zak grabs her and they quickly leave and end up in a car chase which ends in a crash.

Rosa and Xander:

I sat at the table as my hands trembled under it in my lap and heart hammered hard inside my chest as Xander stood in the doorway to the room.

"So this is where you are. How long has this been going on?" I could hear the accusations in his voice as my throat grew dry. A cold hand rested on top of mine and squeezed lightly as if telling me I didn't have to deal with this moment alone.

"She had no clue. I invited her here to..."

"Cut the crap." Xander snapped making me wince a little at his tone as fear and panic rose up. He wasn't mad just because I was here, something else had riled him up.

"Do not talk to anyone like that Xander, I did not raise you to be so disrespectful towards up." Her accent was still thick was a Japanese accent and an uncertainty as to if her words had been the correct ones. The hand in my own then pulled away as Xander's mother rose to her feet. I glanced up to see a dark look pass between them, which made me wonder a lot what had happened when she'd been alive and when he'd been under her care.

" You also taught me not to lie, yet here you are after all this time." For once the careful mask that Xander wore to keep his emotions at bay had cracked and broke as anger and sadness washed over his face clear as day.

"I did and I am." She answered firm and sure in English and then began to babble in Japanese. I looked away for a moment as I was terrified just what I was going to see across Xander's face at whatever she had said, but his laughter filled the air sending a cold shiver down my back. I knew there was no humour in his laugh.

"Mmhmm, keep telling yourself that." He muttered and at that moment I chose to look up and found his icy cold stare was locked on me. "How long have you known?"

I felt Xander’s arms tighten a little more around me as if I was wrapped up safely in iron. I had a feeling that this was also a fear of his, that somehow I’d end up swept up in their game too.

“What happened then?” His tone had been calm but something in me felt like he’d been terrified to ask.

“I wouldn’t do what he wanted so he gave me to Lucian…” I’d begun but I couldn’t finish as I moved and buried my face into his chest. His familiar scent filled my nose as his other hand came to the back of my head and began to stroke my hair lightly.

“What did he do?” Again his tone had been light but there had been an undercurrent to it too.

“He’d tore me apart, but you were there and you just watched.” The last words had escaped my mouth as a whisper and Xander’s hand had stilled in my hair.

“I would never…”


“I know.” I cut him off. I knew deep down he’d have never just stand by and do nothing. Nothing would ever let him do that.

I didn't say anything at first as I wasn't sure just what was expected of me to say, but after a few heartbeats Xander spoke.

"I got angry because I didn't want you there because of Lucian." I lifted my head and went to speak when he'd put a finger on my lips. "I know he was under the supervision of *kings name here as I forgot it* but it still doesn't make me feel any better or safer because at the end of the day, he's aware of everything that happens with Lucian and I. It doesn't matter how private we try to keep things, he knows everything. Which meant he knew what Lucian was up to, which meant he knew that Lucian was going to try and kill me by using you and he did nothing Rosa. Do you see my issue now? " He lowered his finger from my lips as I nodded feeling some part of me going numb. Had *king* really known what Lucian had been up to?

"I can also understand it from your view too." Xander's continued words snapped me out of my thoughts. "In your human culture, people of power are supposed to be trusted. Despite the bad interaction between you and him you gave him the benefit of the doubt..."

"It was nothing like that." I answered simply. "I didn't want to go and talk to him
" I told Xander as he untangled us both and sat me on the bed in front of him and we looked at each other. I could see the frustration washing over his face again, but I hadn't been sure how much of that had been because of hunger as his eyes were pitch black.

"If you didn't want to go and speak to him then why go?" The question had been a simple one, but the answer hung in my brain heavy.

"Because that's what I'm supposed to do and that was what was required of me. Marie made sure I knew that if I was summoned by the king then I went. There was no if's or buts about it."

Xander pinched the bridge of his nose and seemed to squeeze his eyes tightly shut. I knew that action well and normally when I used it, it came with a lot of counting to calm myself.

"Marie is correct." Xander finally replied slowly opening his eyes to focus on me. He was still frustrated but I could see it wasn't aimed at me in the slightest. "For normal vampires and humans." He tagged on. "Given how rude he was when you two first met, you are within your rights to tell him to go get f***ed. I certainly would stand on that hill with you." I could see he was slowly relaxing a little as he took my hand and held it in his.

"I didn't want to cause you any trouble." I also added as I looked down at our hands.

"Yet this happened." He laughed quietly but it wasn't in a humourus way. "I understand you want to give this

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I stood looking at myself in the room of the small house that Viktor had gave me. It was away from the city to keep me safe, but it was close enough that if I needed help with anything, help would be able to come no issues.

My hands ran over the skirt of the glittery navy dress Dorian had made for me. It had meant to be used with Xander to some event, but that had never happened. My hand rested lightly at my stomach. There was still no bump or even any sign that I'd been expecting, but I knew my secret wouldn't stay hidden forever.

I took a slow deep breath to calm my mind and my racing heart at what I was about to do. I was about to attend Xander's crowning. I had no plans to go originally but I'd been asked to attend. Not for the sake of seeing the event, but for the sake of taking a letter to Xander from Viktor.

Viktor had told me when he'd given me it that it explained everything including about his bloodline.

"Why can't you go?" I'd asked Viktor as I'd stood in the small log cabin in the middle of the woods.

"Because everyone thinks I'm dead Rosa." He'd laughed. "Everyone thinks that it had been me who had been killed when Lucian had pulled that stunt." The truth had laid heavy with me ever since that day.

"Like I told you, they need a king who will lead them out of the dark ages that they seem to be stuck in with me ruling. Xander can do that. With me... I am feeling too old as well, I just want to enjoy my immortal life with the only woman I have loved and my grandchild. " The look on his face was soft and full of excitement. It had seemed that the idea of Viktor being a grandparent seemed to smooth the rough edges of Viktor.

" Now, as I asked, please give it to him and make sure you tell him to open it when he's alone. I've told him the truth about his bloodline and about the baby. I am hoping he'll come to his senses and make things right."

I hadn't spoken to answer Viktor at his comment as I hadn't been able to let myself get any type of hope.

" Did you tell him where I was? " I asked quietly.

" No out of respect to you, I put nothing in the letter about it, however I wish you would at least tell Dorian where you are. I imagine that the poor vampire has been going out of his mind."

A knock on the door pulled me from my thoughts. I walked over to the side and picked up the letter and held on to it as I went and opened the door.

Stood at my doorway was Marie looking absolutely stunning. I noticed as relief seemed to fill her face and then a smile.

"Thank you for this." I'd told her quietly. "I really appreciate it."

"I'm not going to lie, I was pretty surprised when I got a call from you. I thought you'd have called Dorian."

I shook my head a little at her. "I knew you wouldn't ask questions." I answered. "Anyway, come in for a few minutes." I told her as I moved to the side.

Marie hesitantly came in and walked into the living room looking around.

"I feel honoured that out of everyone it was me you spoke to. I never thought you and I actually had a friendship." She turned and looked at me as I walked into the room with her arms behind her back.

"I called because I know I'll get the truth from you." I answered as I went and grabbed my black bag and slipped it over my shoulder and across my body. "How..." I'd begun but my throat went dry and tears threatened to start spilling. I thought I was done with crying, but it turned out I was massively wrong.

"He's bad." Marie answered as if she knew what I was going to ask. "He's throwing himself into everything and everyone thinks he's fine, but I see the real him. I see the torment he's going through and the way he's punishing himself. Rosa..." I turned and looked at her seeing her torn for the first time.

Marie had always been the sure of everything kind of person so seeing this uncertainty on her face. I knew she was torn between wanting to know the truth and scared of knowing the truth.

" If your going to ask about the baby..." I began as I'd stopped and felt my hands trembling violently. "Then I suggest you want to know." My eyes and hers met and for a moment she seemed unsure but then it vanished.

"People are saying you messed around with someone at the house."

"What do you think?" I asked her simply.

"As much as I don't always like or agree with your ideas and the way you think. I know how much you love him and I know you'd never hurt him like that, but vampires..."

I couldn't and didn't speak as I turned away and began to blink back the tears. She'd been the only person who had really seen me. Even Dorian had doubted my story. That had been the part that had killed me.

A cold hand touched my shoulder." Why didn't you tell him?"

"Don't you think I tried?" My voice was beginning to crack as the tears had built in my eyes. "Don't you think I tried fighting my corner?" The tears had begun to stream down my face now as everything I'd been holding together just seemed to escape from me. "I told him that there was no one else only him, but it seems like someone else had got their claws into him and has whispered in his ear. So what was the point in fighting anymore?" I shrugged a little in defeat.

Marie came in front of me and hugged me lightly." I know your stubborn Rosa and you will stand and fight for the truth..." She seemed to break off." I believe you. " She finally told me.

I wrapped my own arms around her and clung on to her tightly. At least someone believed me, even if it wasn't my best friend who was supposed to.

Marie's phone began to ring so we let go of each other as she fished her phone out of her dress that had pockets. She raised it up to her ear after accepting the call.

"Where are you?" I froze as I heard his voice.

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As Alistair and I got to the front door Dorian stood in front of it blocking the only way out.

"Dorian can't you see whatever is going on..."

"Shut the f**k up Alistair, this doesn't involve you." At the tone of his voice I knew something was off massively. "I suggest you let go of her right now." As Dorian said that I noticed Alistair's grip was getting tighter on my arm.

"Ow."

"Shut up." Alistair muttered to me without looking at me. "Your going to let the King's princess walk out of here with me in one piece."

"And if I don't?" Dorian snarled at him.

"You can explain to the new king why his little princess got broken."

Dorian began to growl in anger as I saw for the first real time the vampire in him. Alistair's grip got even tighter as I felt his nails dig into my arm as blood began to drip down my bare arm.

I noticed for a moment panic seemed to wash over Dorian for a moment as if he'd not expected Alistair to do it. That was when Alistair pulled me so I was pulled to his chest and looking at Dorian.

"I'm pretty sure by now things have got back to you about me." I had no clue what had been going on in the slightest, but something inside of me made me feel like whatever I was about to find out I wasn't going to like in the slightest.

"I'm not letting you walk out of here with our Queen." Dorian spat as his hands seemed to twist into a claw as if he was ready to tear Alistair apart without a moments hesitation.

Alistair sunk his nails into my arm making the blood run down my arm even more. I wanted to cry out but an old part of me reared it's head and told me not to give Alistair the satisfaction of hearing me shout.

Dorian hissed and went to lunge but stopped dead for a moment as he bared his fangs as if he was debating on how to deal with the situation.

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Alistair pulled me tighter as if he'd won in this game, but I'd felt him there first with every inch attuned to his very being. My stomach tightened at the idea that he was coming to deal with this.

"I suggest you let go of her now if you value your sorry excuse of a life." Xander's voice sounded different. His tone seemed darker and almost murderous. I'd thought that Dorian's tone had been commanding but this Xander scared even me.

"Or what will you do our honoured king?" Alistair's tone had a hint of amusement as if he thought he still had the upper hand over Xander.

"First I'll make you beg for your pathetic life as I break your bones. I know that won't hurt as much as I'd hope it would, all I could hope for is that the sound would make Rosa feel better. Then I'll hurt you even more once those bones have healed..." The hairs on the back of my neck stood up as I really was feeling terrified of this Xander.

"So we can do this peacefully my old friend or we can do this the hard way."

I hadn't heard what Alistair had said as everything had happened so fast. In the split second after Alistair had answered I'd felt something wet beginning to spread up my back and into my dress, but as soon as it had happened Dorian had grabbed me and pulled me to chest and held me tightly to it.

"Stay there. You don't need to see this mess." Dorian's voice had been thick and husky as if he'd been holding back something.

I held on to Dorian's shirt as I could hear the crack of bones behind me making my stomach turn. I wasn't screamish when it came to certain things but this made me feel sick to the stomach. 'Because it's Xander and this is the reality of the monster.'

"Where is the b*****d?" Xander's words were void of emotions.

"Dorian, I'm going to be sick."

His cold hands lifted my head as he looked at me. "Xan, enough!" He snapped.

My legs went from under me as my grip on Dorian's shirt loosened. I remembered Dorian's grip tightening on me a little but then nothing as darkness washed over my vision.

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I woke to something cold being pressed to my face. The room was dimmly lit and it was hard to see where I was or even who was sat with me.

"Take it easy." The thick voice felt like both a blessing and curse at the same time. The coldness was taken away from my face as I heard movement next to me and then a click as dim light filled the room. Once my eyes took in the room I knew exactly where I was. I was in Xander's office laid on his sofa.

"I'll be fine now, thank you. I'm sorry to have worried you." I went to move and sit up when Xander stood at the bottom of the sofa near his desk looking at me with a look that had held me in place, so I remained where I was.

"I find that hard to believe considering in this letter Viktor fights your corner telling me things that I find quite difficult to believe."

"Then don't believe me or him. That's your choice." As the words left my mouth I got up not caring anymore about his dark gaze that wanted badly to command me. "I've done what I needed to do and I don't want to keep you from your celebration." I went to the door and put my hand on the door handle when I was turned around with my back pressed to the door with him stood in front of me. As I breathed my chest brushed his blood stained shirt.

I looked up at him defiantly as I noticed his eyes were almost black with a small fleck of the jade green I loved so much.

"Why did you really come here? Dare I even ask how you even got here."

"I told you why I came Xander. To bring you the letter as I promised Viktor I would do." There was silence between us. His eyes seemed to watching me intently as if he was expecting to catch me in a lie of some description, but I'd told him the truth, well mostly told him the truth.

"I should go because your expected at your party tonight to celebrate you becoming king."

Xander laughed but it seemed so dry and humourless that I frowned a little at him. What had I said that had been so funny?

"What?" I asked him bluntly.

"Just everyone has been tiptoeing around me to keep me on their good side so I don't get mad with them and yet you come in like a whirlwind and just tell me the god honest truth and call me out and then calmly finish with I should go so you can enjoy your party." As he'd said his thoughts out loud I couldn't help but laugh quietly to myself.