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love me til death Vice Captain
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 Posted: Thu Mar 20, 2025 4:16 pm
Prompt: Stefano and Pascha have a heart-to-heart about matters of the heart.
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Posted: Sat Mar 22, 2025 6:29 pm
 Pascha was excited! He was often excited and by a great many things, but at this particular time he was excited to be meeting with a friend. Duke Stefano Gonzales of Mercury, a man he had definitely heard of before coming to the academy but admittedly had not actually met until recently. That was really too bad because Stefano was a really great guy and a lot of fun to talk to! Maybe those boring, stuffy royal functions would have been a lot more palatable with someone like Stefano to talk to! Then again, would he really have wanted his friend to be trapped in a ballroom with pretentious nobles wearing too much perfume, stiff clothing, and shoes that always seemed to pinch a little? Maybe it was better that they had met at the academy after all! Stefano was a few years older than him, but somehow he just… seemed younger? Not in a bad way! At least, Pascha did not think it was bad. He just seemed so lively and cheerful and he didn’t let things get him down. That made the youthful prince really happy since he was often the same way. There were other people he got along with, but there weren’t a lot that he would have called kindred spirits. Probably only two, really… His sister Sonia almost went without saying! And now Stefano! The last time they had talked, they agreed to hang out again, this time in Stefano’s room with some snacks. Pascha had of course agreed right away! Then later he had to think for a second and make sure that he wasn’t confused and about to go on another unexpected date. But no, he was sure; Stefano wanted to hang out as friends and eat snacks and talk about stuff and that sounded like a whole lot of fun! Stefano had even mentioned talking about a girl he really liked! Stefano liked a lot of people, but it sounded like this person might be extra special. And well, Pascha kind of had someone to talk about, too. He was fit to burst with all of the feelings he tried not to feel, so he thought it might help if he could talk to at least one person. He hadn’t known who he could talk to about it all until now and he hoped he was right. Not that he was really worried he wouldn’t be; Stefano was a really good listener and hadn’t ever judged him for anything before. And so it was that Pascha was humming to himself as he pushed a full serving cart of tasty finger delights down the hall. One shelf had all the savory things like chicken wings, devilled eggs, meats, cheeses, crackers, bread chunks with a fondue pot, and so on. And another shelf was full of cookies, cakes and tarts. It was hard to pick just one or two things to bring! Plus, well… he could eat a lot. Reaching the right door at last, Pascha parked the cart and gave a knock. ”Stefano! It’s me, Pascha! Hi! I’m here!” the prince called out enthusiastically, his eyes shining green with his eagerness to hang out with his friend. Wouldn’t it be great if all of his friends knew each other and he could hang out with them all and do fun things? Maybe next time! He could even introduce Stefano to Hasan if they hadn’t already met. That would take a lot of snacks, though.
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love me til death Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Mar 28, 2025 7:15 pm
 "Speech" 'Thoughts'It was still very surprising how kind everyone from Mercury was to Stefano after his experiences growing up. His parents and advisors had told him this would happen now that he had power, but even Sonia, the princess, and now, the prince, too, were extending nothing but their kindness and respect. With them and Elara, it felt like they were one huge family, something Stefano missed despite having no siblings of his own. It was nice to have people to look out for, knowing they had your back as well. Stefano and Pascha had started being buddies as of late, and the duke was excited to have the prince over for some bro time. Normally, when they interacted, Sonia would often appear or Elara with some interest, but it was nice to know it would be just the two of them tonight. Stefano had mentioned a woman (or five) to Pascha that had his eye, but Stefano knew little of who the other man was interested in, so he was hoping to do a better job at listening to him tonight. Hearing the call, Stefano was quick to the door and opened it, " Pascha! How’s it going, buddy? It’s good to see you, man." There was the urge to hug him as a greeting, but his teachers had recently informed him that was not a proper greeting, despite what Elara and Sonia told him. " Need any help with that?" The man gestured at the cart beside him. Other than smelling delicious, Stefano wasn’t sure what to think about the cart full of food Pascha had brought. There was a small thought about how long that would have lasted back when his family was scrambling for scraps, but he pushed it down in the spirit of remaining positive for the night. Looking at the cart as he assisted its entrance, there were some foods he recognized, like the meats and crackers, but there was one dish on top that looked like eggs with something unrecognizable inside. There was also a pot that contained sticks and melted cheese that piqued his curiosity, having seen the dish at his coronation. " I am not sure I have a table big enough in here to plate all this food." Stefano admitted that as he started placing some of the dishes on the wooden table, he did have. It would certainly fit some things like the metal cheese pot, but he wasn’t sure about the wings and eggs. " I suppose we will just have to start eating to make space as we go!" He shrugged with a smile as he took a seat, gesturing for Pascha to do the same. There were tiny plates that Stefano assumed were for the two of them to start plating his food, but some of the top dishes caused him confusion, like the breadcrumbs. " All of this looks delicious; I am having a hard time deciding what I want first. Do you have any favorites?" Trying to maintain his cover and not appear completely unaware, he opted to just grab some of the wings and one of the mystery eggs and waited for Pascha to demonstrate how the hot cheese with the large forks worked. Where: His room With: Pascha Outfit: Yellow Tank and Sweats
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Posted: Mon Mar 31, 2025 1:47 am
The door opened and Pascha would have grinned even more widely if it was actually, physically possible for him to do so. ”Hi! It’s going great! Especially now; it’s really great to see you, too!” Pascha wheeled the cart into the room with some help from Stefano. ”Thanks! Haha, I guess I brought a lot.”Pascha was accustomed to having plenty of food, even for his appetite, and he had not considered how it might look to his friend for him to show up with his packed cart. He had never gone hungry or had to ration his food. The only thing that really slowed down his eating was the time that he spent working. Somewhere in his store of knowledge, he was absolutely aware that not everyone was as privileged as himself, but having never really seen it left him effectively oblivious. He had not even considered whether Stefano would have room or a table big enough. ”Oh… Well, that’s okay! It’s not like it has to be set up all fancy, anyway. I just wanted us to have plenty of snacks to share. But next time I should think it through a bit more, huh?” After all, he didn’t want his visits to be burdensome. Then Stefano might stop inviting him altogether and that would be sad. ”Hmn, my favorites… I like lots of stuff, but! We should definitely try the devilled eggs and the fondue first, I think. Before the eggs get warm and so the cheese doesn’t get too cold. Plus, anything with melted cheese is awesome, right?” Pascha didn’t hesitate to grab one of the long forks, stab a chunk of bread, and dip it into the ooey, gooey liquid gold known as cheese. He barely even blew on the morself before popping it into his mouth. An action that resulted in him immediately fanning is burning mouth. ”Hot, hot, hot! Worth it, though, but you don’t have to be as impatient as me, hahaha!”Pascha then had a thought and set down the fork with a look of confusion. ”Did I do something wrong?” While Pascha had certainly missed a few social cues he probably should have caught, there was one thing he had noticed. But maybe it was because the cart was in the way? ”No hug?” The prince lifted his arms in anticipation before wondering if that was the wrong thing to do. What if Stefano had a reason not to give him a hug after all? ”I mean, only if you want to. I just like your hugs a lot, but I mean it’s not like you have to or anything if you really don’t want to. But if you want to…?”
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love me til death Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Apr 13, 2025 2:25 pm
"Speech" 'Thoughts'Oh no, had Stefano already made an error? It appeared like Pascha was already uneasy. Stefano tried to make the table thing not seem like a big deal, but not seeing Pascha’s room, maybe the prince’s room was bigger than his. It was hard to say. His visit with Violetta had shown that the girl’s rooms were different, but he hadn’t bothered to bring that up to any of the people he was with. It wasn’t his place, plus most of the time Bonnie never cared to ask. By the time they made it to her bedroom, half his clothes were off, and he only had one thought: how to get the remaining clothes off. " Like I said, it’s nothing to worry about! I’m excited to make space for it all." Stefano beamed at the boy. Pascha always had been more positive than him, which was saying something; he didn’t want to drag the boy down with any negativity. Thankfully, the conversation skated away pretty quickly. The mention of the eggs made Stefano plop one into his mouth. He wasn’t sure if he was supposed to consume them with one large bite or a few, but opted for the latter for fear of choking. ' Not sure what makes them deviled, but they are delicious!' He thought to himself as he finished the egg with another bite, watching the prince use the mysterious cheese pot. It wasn’t hard for Stefano to grasp the concept of melted cheese; he had it poured over his pasta before, and it was fantastic. He could wait to have to have it with more things, grabbing a fork of his own, preparing to spear a piece of bread before Pascha screamed, startling him. " Everything okay?” He asked, concerned as the boy started fanning his mouth. Ah, Stefano knew what had happened. He, too, was impatient, but this time, Pascha beat him to the pain of eating something too quickly. At least the prince didn’t choke; Stefano wasn’t sure how terrible that would be relayed to the royals back home. Laughing at the blonde’s error, he speared a piece of bread and dipped it in the melty goodness. " Lesson learned there; hopefully, you didn’t burn too many taste buds. It would suck if you couldn’t enjoy the rest of the treats tonight." He smiled as he lifted the fork to his mouth and gave it a quick blow. Biting into it, it was still hot, but all Stefano could focus on was how gooey and creamy it was. He had never had anything like it. Stefano was just about to start his wings when Pascha’s question surprised him. Had Stefano done something to indicate that something was wrong? He was focused heavily on the food, which made it seem like he wasn’t paying attention to his dear friend. That wasn’t his intention. The duke looked at him, confused, as Pascha explained that he hadn’t received a hug from Stefano yet. ' Damnit, I should have listened to Sonia. She’s a princess after all.' He felt so stupid for following the advice of strangers over trusted friends. Well, it wasn’t something to make Pascha feel bad about; after all, there was an easy fix. Dropping the wing back onto his plate, Stefano carefully got out of his seat and wrapped his arms around his good buddy. " Nothing’s wrong here, buddy, just forgot is all!" He smiled, lifting Pascha out of his chair as he hugged the man before placing him back in his spot and returning to his. " I promise we’re good. I am sorry for any distress." Stefano looked at Pascha quickly before returning to his wings. Unless things weren’t all right. Was it possible that Pascha knew about Stefano’s recent talk with Bonnie? He hoped not. Stefano was still trying to process it himself; he wasn’t sure what he was supposed to do. Marrying her sounded ideal, but he wasn’t sure if that was what Bonnie wanted. She was always so free; being tied to a cement block wasn’t fair to her, even if she was pregnant. " Was there something you wanted to talk about tonight?" He gulped, scared about what the prince’s response might be. Where: His room With: Pascha Outfit: X
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Posted: Tue Apr 15, 2025 1:14 pm
Pascha realized he shouldn’t have worried so much; Stefano didn’t seem to really mind that he had brought so much food after all. And that was good, because Pascha was pretty sure that between the two of them they could finish every last bite. He could probably have done it himself, but that would just be selfish and rude and even he might manage to get a little bit of a tummy ache. Hot, melty cheese was really, really tasty. Unfortunately it was also really, really hot. Like, hotter than it seemed like should even be possible without it just burning right up. There was some sciencey stuff that explained it all, sure, but Pascha wasn’t so much of a bookish guy that he couldn’t set knowledge aside to just appreciate how crazy hot melty cheese was. But he still grinned broadly at Stefano. ”This is one thing I never learn, unfortunately. At least not for long!” Once again the young prince was happy to learn that he hadn’t done anything wrong after all; Stefano had just forgotten his hug this time. That was okay! And the hug he got was like the best Stefano hug ever, so that more than made up for it! Pascha laughed happily as he was lifted out of his chair, hugging his friend in return for all his smaller arms were worth. ”No distress! That was a great hug!” Pascha replied with glee once he was settled in his seat once more. ”Hardly anybody ever hugs you once you’re all grown up. I think that’s really sad. But I really, really look forward to your hugs, Stefano! You give really good ones, too.”Was there something he wanted to talk about? Pascha’s smile turned sheepish and his cheeks a little pink. ”Well, um…” It was so strange to feel shy all of a sudden, especially in front of Stefano. He was a good friend and really nice and Pascha felt like he could tell the duke anything! But now that the time had come, his face was hot. He felt so suddenly nervous that he did not yet consciously realize that Stefano was nervous as well. Pascha fidgeted a little in his seat, then worked his feet out of his sneakers so he could cross his legs in the chair and lean forward. ”The truth is, I really, really want to tell you about something… Well, it’s more accurate to say I want to tell you about someone. And I haven’t told anyone yet, not even Sonia, so it has to be our secret, okay? I really want to tell someone, and you’re so nice to me. I know you won’t make fun of me or try to make me feel bad.” Pascha smiled brightly, but his talk could wait. ”I can wait, though. You should go first; you invited me, after all. And I like hearing about all of the people you like.” Besides, if Stefano was preoccupied enough to forget a hug, he must have a lot on his mind, too! Pascha at least had as much of a handle on his situation as he thought he could have, for the moment. It just felt like such a big thing to keep trapped inside him and not talk about at all! And if there was anyone he could talk to about relationship stuff, especially one-sided feelings, it had to be Stefano. He could probably use a little advice from someone who might know what it was like to have feelings whether he meant to or not. Maybe Stefano somehow knew already? That couldn’t be possible, right? It would have explained why he offered to let Pascha speak first, though. And it would have explained the nervous gulp that was suddenly bumped up in the priority of Pascha’s thought processes. It could be that he already had something to say that Pascha would find hard to hear. Pascha almost began to panic, but before that feeling could rise he realized it was really unnecessary. It was fine if Stefano already knew; he wanted Stefano to know. And even if there was something hard for him to hear, he knew that the duke would only say something like that if he needed to hear it. Wasn’t that why he wanted to talk about Hasan and his feelings for the chocolate man in the first place? Everything would actually be much easier if Stefano was already on the same page. Or it could be that the duke was nervous for a completely unrelated reason. Either way, Pascha would know the truth of it soon enough.
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love me til death Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Apr 24, 2025 9:35 am
"Speech" 'Thoughts'The blush on Pascha’s cheeks was one Stefano knew all too well; the boy had a crush! On who, though? Stefano hoped it wasn’t on any of his ladies, but given how lovely they were, he wouldn’t blame the prince. Plus, the sweetheart deserved love as much as anyone else did. The fidgeting and avoiding look at him only meant that Stefano knew who it was piquing the duke’s curiosity even more! Stefano hadn’t realized him talking to anyone outside of their Mercury group, but that was partially due to the man’s inability to focus too heavily on a person for an extended period of time. Secrets were something Stefano took very seriously, considering he was keeping a few of his own now. " Of course, you know I wouldn’t judge you. Love is love after all, what’s wrong with that?" Stefano smiled at the boy, still wondering who it could be that was making the blond so nervous. It could just be nerves from a first crush, or maybe it was someone who rivaled Stefano in some way. There was that Bella chick that always taunted Bonnie, but the duke hadn’t mentioned that to Pascha, so there was no reason for him to be nervous. Unless he knew. Given how quick he was to rocket the question back onto Stefano, Pascha had to know something. But what exactly? He had promised so many women to keep elements of their relationship a secret, so which was the one he was trying to unpack? " Me? I mean, how can I decide when there are just so many beautiful women to admire here?" He shrugged, trying to avoid the question and having to label which of his gals was his favorite. Bonnie was now the father of his unborn child, but she was always a free bird like him. Saddling her with his kid was unfair, given how talented and gifted she was, but Stefano knew he was lying if he didn’t say he wasn’t excited about the prospect of being a father when she had told him. And Princess Violetta, after their round of drinks, he still realized there was so much to her than her cold affect made her seem. He wanted to get to know her better. And fair Farrah, her pale skin and soft hands, Stefano wouldn’t mind having another moment with the maiden. Well, maybe it was a time for him to reveal one of his silly mistakes instead! " Did I tell you one of the Bonnies isn’t actually a Bonnie?" He laughed as he looked more at his plate, deciding which object to place into his mouth next, landing on the fork with bread and cheese once again. " Yeah, Bonnie Blue Eyes is actually Violetta, I’m not sure why she chose to keep it a secret for so long, but kind of funny, no?" he looked at Pascha for reassurance. It wasn’t funny to him when he first heard about it, but when he told Bonnie, she thought it was rather humorous. Placing the food in his mouth, he realized the critical mistake he had made. He forgot to let it cool! " AH- Hot!" Stefano cried out, grabbing a cloth napkin and spitting the piece of hot bread into it. " How could I have forgotten?" He jokingly slapped himself on the forehead before reaching for a glass of water, attempting to cool the burning sensation. Where: His room With: Pascha Outfit: X
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Posted: Sun Apr 27, 2025 11:16 pm
Love is love. It was such a simple statement, but Stefano said it with so much conviction that it was easy to just believe him. It was easy to believe that he would understand, no matter what Pascha said, Even if he said he really liked another man. It was definitely too soon to call it love… right? Pascha wasn’t even sure what love should feel like. At least he wasn’t sure what that kind of love felt like. But he liked Hasan a lot and that was the first step to falling in love, wasn’t it? He didn’t want to think about that too much, though. His feelings were already a problem; he shouldn’t even be considering that they might get stronger! Still, it made Pascha smile and nod to hear Stefano’s sentiment. ”Love is love.” he agreed eagerly; he knew that Stefano would understand. He could definitely tell his duke everything and it would somehow be okay. And maybe Stefano would have some good advice for him; the other man was older and more experienced than himself. But even if that wasn’t the case, Pascha would settle for having someone listen and understand and commiserate a little. A giggle rose from the Prince’s chest and he let it spill merrily from his lips. Stefano wasn’t wrong; there really were a lot of beautiful women at Utopia. Some of them were so pretty that they were hard to even talk to! There were even a couple that he had thought he might like for a while. It wasn’t that long ago that he used to imagine holding hands with Nayeni or Charlene, maybe even kissing them! But it was strange… they weren’t any less pretty or nice than they were before, but he knew he didn’t think that way about them any more. He wanted to hold hands with Hasan, he wanted to kiss Hasan. He wanted to do a lot more than that with Hasan. How did it all change so quickly and drastically? Wouldn’t it make more sense to be like Stefano and just like lots of pretty people at the same time? Maybe Hasan would even worry less if he did, but… he just didn’t. Ever since his date with Hasan, real or not, he just didn’t feel that way about anyone else. Was that strange? Pascha paused in his gnawing of a chicken wing to blink in surprise at Stefano. One of the Bonnies… wasn’t a Bonnie? ”Which one? Bonnie Blue Eyes or Bonnie Brown Eyes?” It felt a little silly to ask since he hadn’t actually put a face to either Bonnie yet, but he still liked to keep track. After all, these ladies were important to his friend! He really liked them all. Maybe even loved them? Could someone love lots of people at once? Pascha wouldn’t know, but he was going to carry on in the spirit of love is love! Maybe Stefano really could! Bonnie Blue Eyes was actually Violetta? Pascha smiled since Stefano was laughing, but there was confusion in his eyes. He wasn’t really sure that he thought it was funny. Honestly, it seemed kind of strange. Why had she ever said that her name was Bonnie to begin with. ”I guess I had to be there! But I’m glad she told you her real name now. Wow, that was a long time to keep it a secret!”Pascha couldn’t help grinning, even though he tried to smother it behind one hand, when Stefano managed to burn his mouth, too. He really wasn’t laughing at his friend; it was just a little funny that it wasn’t him, for once! ”Because really hot melty cheese is too delicious to keep thinking about how hot it is first!” That was not true, of course, but it still amused him to say. Simmering down a little, Pascha turned his mind back to Bonnie Blue Eyes revealing her true name to be Violetta. ”I wonder if Violetta was just waiting to see how long it would take before you figured out Bonnie wasn’t her name. It’s a strange kind of joke, but… a similar thing did happen to me. Not with a name, though; Hasan did tell me his real name. At least I’m pretty sure he did. But, he ah…” Pascha hesitated again, looking sheepish, but reminded himself that this was Stefano and Stefano would understand. He had even shared an embarrassing story, so it was the best time for Pascha to share one, too. ”He invited me to hang out with him, but he actually took me on a date… as a joke. To see how long it would take before I realized. Fifty two minutes, I’m ashamed to say! But in my defense, I really didn’t think men asked other men on dates. And, well, maybe they don’t? It was meant to be a joke, after all. But I… I really liked it. I, um… I really like him. I like Hasan a lot. But I’m not supposed to. And it’s really confusing.”Pascha looked down at his plate, his eyes a very pale blue as he battled with his muddled thoughts. ”I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to just dump all of that out at once. I’ve been thinking about him so much and I really, really want to talk to you about it all because you're the only friend I think I can talk to about… any of it. I think you’re the only one I can ask… What do you do when you really like somebody, but they don’t like you the same way? I don’t know how to just… not like him so much.”
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love me til death Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat May 31, 2025 1:44 pm
"Speech" 'Thoughts'Despite him hiding it, Stefano could tell that Pascha was laughing at his mistake, and who could blame him? It was hilarious, Pascha even warned him by demonstrating it himself, but Stefano didn’t listen. He just couldn’t wait for that cheesy, melty goodness as Pascha had so delicately described. All of this caused Stefano to laugh at himself amongst the silliness. If he couldn’t laugh himself, then what was the point of living? As their laughter started to calm down, Stefano was finally able to risk it all for another piece of melty cheese. This time, he remembered to blow on it first before taking a bite of it. Listening intently as Pascha spoke of Violetta’s true name discovery, Stefano was grateful that the prince didn’t judge him for his mistakes. The joke was strange, yes, and Stefano still didn’t understand the punchline, but that was the perils of love, right? Stefano was no expert and just there for the ride. Hoping the prince wasn’t looking to him for advice, he waited for the man to talk to him about what was going on in his life to help distract him from his problems. But what came next was not what Stefano was expecting. A date with a guy? Stefano had to be hearing things. He was sure he was hearing, and Hasan was a male’s name, but dating a man was unheard of. Well, mostly. There were some talks, but normally followed by some rather hateful and distasteful comments. Did this mean that Pascha liked… men? Was Stefano on a date with Pascha right now? That last question seemed unlikely given they were literally talking about their trials of love, but Stefano didn’t understand the difference between two of them hanging out and them going on a date. Well, his dates normally ended with more than just a hug, but taking it slowly with some of his lovers had happened before. What was different this time? For starters, he was not feeling that way about Pascha. Stefano saw him as more of a little brother than anything else, more like Elara or Sonia than a romantic partner. Yes, they were friends and nothing more, and his friend was lost and looking to him for support. Avoiding eating anything to show that he was truly listening, Stefano couldn’t help but notice that Pascha was so ashamed that he could barely look at the Duke as he spoke. It pained Stefano to think his buddy could feel so passionately about someone, but it was hurting him all the same. " You really like this guy, huh?" Stefano smiled, trying to make Pascha look back at him once more, " Hasan. I don’t think I know him, but I am sure he must be quite the guy to have grabbed your attention when there are so many babes available." Stefano wasn’t sure what to say about the matter, but acting like it didn’t bother him was probably the best start. Talking to the boy through his feelings felt like he was navigating a minefield, but Stefano had fared through much worse in the war. " If Hasan doesn’t like you after pulling a stunt like that, I would be shocked. A fake date is something I use on the girls who are playing hard to get. Was that you? Maybe he thinks you’re not interested in him." He scoffed, thinking that Pascha would be the kind of person to ignore someone, given how kind the prince was to someone like him, but what did Stefano know? It wasn’t like he gave off the energy of someone who was going to be a dad; who was he to judge? Where: His room With: Pascha Outfit: X
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Posted: Mon Jun 09, 2025 11:19 pm
”Uh huh.” Pascha agreed with a nod as he looked back up at Stefano. He really did like Hasan. Like a lot. He felt like he liked Hasan even more every time they spent some time together. But then Hasan would avoid him and he would feel so stupid for letting his feelings get stronger when they weren’t supposed to exist at all. He just couldn’t help it, no matter how much he reminded himself that what he had with the chocolate man was just about sex and nothing more. Stefano was right, he really was quite the guy. Pascha couldn’t help but to smile despite how tied up he was feeling. ”There really are some very nice and very pretty girls here. And I liked some of them. I used to think about what it would be like to be more than just friends. But then I went on that date, and now it’s just not the same. I only think about him. Not even handsome men in general; just him.” He almost wished he was interested in another man; at least that would answer some questions about himself. And then maybe he could experiment and discover whether his feelings for Hasan were legitimate or whether he was just enamored with the first guy to touch him. Then again, it was for the better that he didn’t; lest he forget, it really wasn’t something men were supposed to do with each other. He couldn’t just start pursuing attractive men like it was the most normal thing in the world. What Stefano said next was a surprise. So much so that he sat up straighter with eyes wide, staring at Stefano as though he was waiting for the man to laugh and say that he was kidding. He was kidding, wasn’t he? Hasan didn’t like him, not like that. But maybe Stefano still had a point? ”I don’t think I was playing hard to get. Well, I mean… maybe by accident? I was really confused at first. I didn’t think it was normal for a man to like another man. And definitely not somebody like me; I’m not even particularly handsome. Hasan says I’m sexy, but I, um…” A hot blush filled Pascha’s cheeks and he smiled sheepishly, rubbing his hands over his face. ”Oh, it still feels really weird to say that!”Pascha dropped his hands to his lap but he was still blushing. ”But what I mean is that I know he likes my, um… my body. But that’s all. He made sure that I understood that we can only be friends with benefits. He doesn’t have feelings for me, but I have feelings for him. I really tried not to, but it’s actually really hard to just decide what I don’t want to feel. So instead I guess I have to learn how to ignore it better. But… do you really think maybe he just doesn’t know I like him? I didn’t want him to know, but sometimes I’m afraid I’m being so obvious. I just don’t know. Should I… Should I tell him?”
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