Name: Hyacinthus Hallward Mercar.Nickname: “Cin” if he really likes you, “Cinthy” if you really don’t like him, “this b***h” on a pretty regular basis.
Gender/Pronoun: Femme cis guy, he/him.
Age: 27.
Birthday: February 21st, 1998.
Sign: Pisces.
Gemstone: Amethyst.
Blood Type: O-
Fav. Food: As far as you’re concerned, none. (There is a real answer, but Cin guards it like it’s the US nuclear codes.)
Hated Food: Steak. All of it. Doesn’t matter the cut or how you cook it. Miss Cin with that s**t, s’il vous plait.
Occupation: “Independent scholar,” i.e., unemployed and living off a trust fund but he makes up research projects for himself and sometimes goes to academic conferences to keep himself busy. (He’s going to enroll in a DCU PhD program eventually, he just needs some time.)
Hobbies: Sobriety: Granted, he’s not very good at it and he tumbles off the wagon both often and easily. Still, Cin wants to be more consistently sober and trying to get there consumes a lot of his time. In addition to a sobriety counselor (who is trying to get Cin to consider seeing a therapist, psychiatrist, or someone else in addition to her), Cin regularly goes to support groups in town. Most of his friends come from said groups.
Tabletop RPGs: Cin is extremely new to this, and found his way here by asking r/Adulting how to make friends as an adult who isn’t currently in school. He’s had fun making characters for some short-term things and “noob night” events at local gaming stores. While Dungeons and Dragons is usually the easiest system to find games for, he’s also learning about other games and different styles of RPG.
Occult History, Sociology, etc.: Cin would like to say “Big Mood” to D&D Wizards because he would also be perfectly happy, locked in a library with abstruse, esoteric books about magic. Due to the nature and focus of modern academia, Cin is limited to reading books about people’s beliefs, rather than magic that actually works—which he’s 100% fine with. Questions like “where did this belief or practice come from,” “what needs does it fill for people,” and “why is it like this” fascinate him. He’s not interested in participating; he’s interested in academic monographs.
Cats: If you ask him, Cin didn’t choose the life of a Cat Mom; it chose him. In reality, nobody forced him to adopt his first cat—bringing Voltaire home was something Cin wanted for himself—but the underlying sentiment remains true. Cin has multiple cats and adores all of them. He has repurposed one room of his townhouse into a “cat gymnasium,” full of toys, scratching posts, cat trees, empty boxes, and complicated structures that Cin built for his babies to play on. Cin also knows several shelters in town and tries to get local strays brought in safely.
Virtues:
Loyal: Cin doesn’t enjoy opening up to people, but he does get attached very easily. Show him basic decency and you can farm approval with him like crazy. He may not share his backstory unless you pry it out of him with a crowbar, but he will fight your bullies for you. He may not tell you much about his interests, but he will take you to the ER in the middle of the night and stay the whole time. It’s nothing, really. He just doesn’t want to abandon people if he can help it.
Sensitive: Cin feels very strongly for other people and what they’re going through. At support group meetings, he has cried more over other people’s stories than anything he’s shared from his own life. Trying to encourage others and avoid hurting them, he works to dull the sharper edges of his opinions or behaviors. When someone else is going through something awful, he will choke down any discomfort or his own issues to be there for them.
Selfless: Cin doesn’t like it when other people are hurting and he’s ready to give of himself and his own resources for others. If you need a place to stay tonight, he’s got you, no questions asked (as long as you don’t mind his feline housemates). He’ll make time for you if you need someone, no matter what he needs to move around to do it. No, he doesn’t need the shirt off his back; he can zip up his jacket and you can take the shirt.
Hopeful: Cin blusters about believing that nothing good ever happens because why would it, but he doesn’t really believe that. He just wishes that he did because he thinks it would make his life easier. If he gave up and stopped wanting better for anybody, he thinks everything would hurt less (and he’d be absolved of ever needing to work on himself), but like……what if things do get better, though? In case they do, he doesn’t want to miss out. Sure, it’s irrational to think he can make a difference, but like……what if he could?
Flaws:
Stubborn: When Cin decides what he thinks, feels, or believes, he will not be moved about it until he runs out of plausible deniability about being wrong (and sometimes, not even then). If a supreme cosmic power personally told him that he’s wrong, he would argue about how no, they are the one who’s wrong, actually. Enough pushback might get him to say “Well, let’s just agree to disagree”……but notably, that’s not an admission to being wrong or an indication that he intends to reflect on anything (he likely won’t).
Melancholy: Cin is not a very happy person. Even when he’s intoxicated on something meant to induce euphoria, he generally doesn’t feel better than “I guess it’s not too terrible, but that improvement probably won’t last.” Despite hoping for better, Cin feels resigned to a life that feels desperately empty. He believes he doesn’t deserve help and even if he did, nothing would work. When these feelings consume him, he will be at best a buzzkill and at worst, a potential trigger for others.
Reckless: Most of the time, Cin pretends he has a normal, healthy amount of self-preservation instinct. But when given the chance, Cin too quickly jumps to thinking that situations are screwed enough to justify putting himself in danger. He throws himself into absurd risks with no regard for whether or not he comes out intact, and treats his survival and wellbeing as ancillary concerns. No, he doesn’t see what the “problem” is? It only would’ve affected him, so who cares?
Self-Degrading: If talking s**t about oneself were a sport, Cin would play to win. He doesn’t rate himself very highly or think he’s particularly good at anything, despite any evidence to the contrary. If he answers a personal question without putting himself down somehow, it was almost definitely an accident, and he doesn’t really see why this is bad. Sure, he feels like garbage when he calls himself a boring, useless, easily replaced twink, but he’s pretty sure he’s objectively correct about that self-perception? So, maybe he needs to just get over it?
PHYSICAL DESCRIPTIONEyes: Dark violet, something like #4C3556. They can be bright, when Cin gets excited about something, but that doesn’t happen very often.
Hair: Very pale golden blonde, something like #E9DFBC, #E4D7AB, or #E9DDBC. Long and slightly wavy, usually worn in a loose ponytail. If he feels fancy, he’ll tie a pretty ribbon around the ponytail.
Face: High cheekbones, delicate but refined features, a bit androgynous, very Classical pretty boy like Dorian Gray or Tadzio out of A Death In Venice, just……27 and Very Tired. All the time. A lot.
Skin Tone:
Body Type: 6’0” and very slender, lithe, etc. Lanky. Despite being old enough for “twink death” to be a risk, Cin as yet remains very much a twink in the body (but it’s low-key because he’s too skinny). He’d have an A+ butt if he weren’t too thin, though.
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